Single-minded

A Sick Heart

Vira went down into the kitchen right after dawn. Vira leaves Azzam asleep. They just got home at midnight. Vira used to wake up early, even though she slept very late. Coincidentally Vira did not pray, finally Vira went down to the kitchen to help.

But while she was in the kitchen, some ARTs were sharing cooking tasks. Vira is not needed, even they forbid Vira from approaching. With reason of fear Azzam was angry. Most of the ART in Atmaja's house. I was very afraid of Azzam. Azzam's cold and stern attitude, in contrast to Fariz's friendly and jovial attitude. They were more comfortable dealing with Fariz than Azzam.

Finally Vira headed to the garden of the Atmaja family home. A large and beautiful garden. At first the gardener forbade Vira. After a long debate, even Vira uses the name Azzam to force. Finally Vira was allowed to water the plants. Vira was happy, he began to feel bored when not working.

"The virus!"

"Fariz!" sahut Vira turned to Fariz. Vira sees Fariz just coming from a morning run. What time did Fariz get out of his room? Before the dawn came to perfection he was back. Fariz's sweat drenched his entire body.

Fariz greeted Vira, as she watched Vira watering the plants. Fariz hesitates to say hello to Vira. But his sense of regret for Vira has not been completely destroyed. Fariz always wanted to be close to Vira. Just want to talk for a second. At least Fariz would feel calm, after talking to Vira.

"Why are you watering the plants? Let the gardener do it. You must be tired after coming home late at night!" fariz said without pause, as soon as Vira turned her head. There was a sense of wonder, why Fariz could find out when Vira came home.

Vira looked at Fariz in surprise, there was an unusual sense of ambush in Vira's heart. Fear and unusualness at the sight of Fariz staring at him. Instead Fariz could feel the fear of Vira. Fariz realized, the taste for Vira was never lost. That feeling lingered in his deepest heart. Fariz seemed unable to breathe when he saw the proximity of Vira and Azzam.

"Fariz, why do you understand that I'm coming home late at night?" vira said briefly, Fariz smiled faintly. Fariz walked closer to Vira.

Fariz could not close his eyes. Shortly after Azzam made a furore. Azzam's fear of Vira's departure. Being the same fear and uneasiness in Fariz's heart. Even with different portions. Fariz was agitated for the fear of something happening to Vira. Even Fariz was unable to close his eyes until the early hours of the morning. Even though Vira has gone home with Azzam.

Fariz was sick to see Azzam coming home with Vira. Fariz is devastated considering Vira is in the room with Azzam. Fariz was devastated to realize that he was not the one beside Vira. Azzam is now Vira's husband. The older brother he always missed, but seemed far from his term. An inappropriate relationship is broken, because it feels like it's on Vira.

"The furore that Azzam's brother made while looking for you. Make everyone wake up. I can't go back to sleep. So I know you came home with Azzam at midnight!" fariz said softly, Vira nodded in understanding.

Vira silently listened, continuing her work. Fariz was not far from Vira. Looking at the beautiful flowers in front of him. A beauty that never calms her heart. Fariz was devastated without anyone noticing. Fariz was fragile without anyone supporting her.

The feeling of being buried, must now be hidden forever. It no longer feels appropriate, because the owner of the heart has chosen another taste. The taste that blood offered was the same as her. It was as if the taste was saying Love for Vira one, but from two different hearts.

"Vira, if I could choose. I never wanted to know you. If you end up being the reason for my brother's happiness. Without you he's broken and fragile. I was devastated when I saw you together. I don't know what mistakes I've made? Until I was punished this hard. Living under the same roof as you. It is like living in a burning fire. The heat is burning my weak body!" said Fariz Lirih, immediately Vira released the water hose she was holding.

Vira stared fixedly at Fariz who was crouching kissing a flower jasmine. Vira took a few steps back. Fariz's words made Vira aware. Not only did he hurt Nadya, but the real Fariz was nearby. Vira has broken many hearts, though never realized it.

"Vira, my love is as white as this jasmine flower. But my love does not wither, though you pluck it. Now I wish you happiness with Azzam's brother. If not, I will make sure that Azzam lost you. I love you, but your happiness is so much more important in my life!" fariz said, while giving a flower of white jasmine blooms. Fariz walked away from Vira, bringing her unwelcome love.

"Fariz, I'm happy with Azzam's brother. Though tears and insults will be in my footsteps. But actually happy, there are only when we are with people we love. I'm sorry I chose. My heart is too scared to lose Azzam. He's the reason I dare to be happy!" vira said softly, Fariz nodded without turning his head. Fariz kept walking into the house.

"Happy, that's all I want to hear from your lips. I may be sick, but it will hurt a lot more to see your tears. Three years, I keep my race to your strand. Three years, I've been admiring you. Three years, I saw your bike. Now my three years have been lost to the heartfelt love of Azzam. I will protect your happiness, by remaining silent without you knowing it. Let your body and soul be with Azzam. But let me keep this flavor for you. With wounds and tears accompanying him. Thank you for teaching me the meaning of love. You deserve to be happy, with or without Azzam!" inner Fariz.

Vira went back to her room. Vira should be ready to go to college. The warm rays of the sun awakened itself, it was already very day. Vira walked into her room slowly. Fear of waking Azzam who was still asleep. Vira went into the bathroom. He must be prepared immediately, if not to be late.

"Aaaawww!" vira shouted hysterically, as she felt a hand hugging her tightly. Shortly after getting out of the bathroom.

"Never talk to Fariz without me. I'm sick to see your closeness. My selfishness, if I don't want to share your attention with Fariz. He may be my brother, but he's the man who loves you. Please, never do that. I'm jealous!" azzam whispered right in Vira's ear.

Azzam smelling Vira's hair. Clutching Vira's body tightly, resting her head on Vira's shoulders. Calm his rumbling heart. Jealous of seeing the closeness of Vira and Fariz. Vira was stunned to hear the words of Azzam. He had just heard a heart hurt by it. Now he heard a heart that was hurting for fear of losing it.

Vira releases Azzam's embrace, she turns her body facing towards Azzam. Vira stared at Azzam's two loving eyes. Vira cupped Azzam's handsome face. A face that disturbed his peace of heart.

"Sir Azzam, believe that the name in my heart is your name. There's no face I remember, except your face. I've never touched a man other than you. Never doubt my love. I'll be by your side, until my hands are tired holding you. I will follow you until my feet are tired. Thank you for your great love. But it would be nice, my love after you love Allah SWT. For our love to be eternal with HIS Ridho!" vira said then softly kissed Azzam's forehead.

"Darling, don't go!" azzam said while holding down Vira's hand.

"I'm not leaving, but I'm beside you right now. His fear aroused my unchanneled desire!" vira said casually, while smiling sweetly. A smile that aroused Azzam.

"Darling!"

Buuukkkk

"Sir Azzam, don't start again. I'm still coming to the moon!" vira shouted, as she felt the hands and lips of Azzam guerrilla. Azzam lost control when Vira told him love. Azzam got carried away so he did not realize that he had aroused the passion of love between them.

Azzam touched all parts of Vira's body without mercy. He didn't care about how Vira shouted. Azzam grew increasingly challenged when he heard Vira's cry. Warm murmurs flowed in the pulse, Azzam's breath hunting.

"Sir Azzam, stop or I'll go!" vira shouted annoyed.