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TSBUN~ Episode 07's

 

I was struck before the reflection of my own reflection, my gaze kept staring so deeply at my reflection in the mirror.

I looked at myself without flinching, and then my gaze shifted to a red box carved in minimalist wood whose color was now worn out.

I kept the box under my dresser and it was a little dusty, so my hand grabbed the box and I tried to reopen the red box which was not too long.

With mixed feelings I looked at the contents of the red box, there were several pieces of paper piled up in it.

On the sheet of paper there are writings that have been obsolete, yes writing ten years ago precisely when I was in the sixth grade of elementary school, he said,until the third grade of junior high school the letter was still neatly arranged.

There is a ring made of the clumsily twigs of a branch that has dried but is still beautifully stored on the pile of papers.

A ring made of twig and flower fibers was given by Dika when he expressed his feelings.

Aah it seemed like that madness overwhelmed me at that moment.

If I remember it, so innocent of me and Dika at that time, maybe if today's children say that I'm alay, yes Alay.

But those words were never in my social dictionary.

My memory goes back to ten years ago where there was a sense of love between me and Dika in the friendship I had built with him.

 

Our friendship is very beautiful, between me, Nay and Dika .

The three of us are always in any condition, we are friends full of laughter without any sense of mocking each other or insulting all the shortcomings between the three of us.

The three of us always laughed jokingly filling our cheerful days.

Until one day this feeling appeared so suddenly when we entered puberty.

With his honesty at an age that is still plain to say his heart that he likes me, I do not understand what the actual situation and circumstances are, like,I can only say what Dika said to me and that was without Naysa's knowledge.

Either selfish or just carried away the feeling that I really liked Dika since she became a new student at the Elementary School where Naysa and I went to school.

Honestly, Dika is the most handsome male student I have ever met, Dika is a transfer student from the city of JAKARTA, her parents moved to our Village because of her duties as an AGRICULTURAL ENGINEER, he said, and it just so happened that the duties of Dika's parents were placed in our beautiful village until settling down today.

Me and Naysa did not expect that Dika could be so welcome with our presence, especially me who is a nobody in the eyes of my friend.

Naysa has always received more attention from my class friends especially, especially Naysa is beautiful and very kind to everyone.

Almost everyone would love his presence, different from me.

I'm just a poor boy who often gets different treatment from my friends because of the difference of a gap, which is precisely different caste.

I was born from a poor family that is far from luxurious, can go to school I am very grateful to rely only on the energy of an old woman who is willing to sacrifice for her granddaughter, he said,and I can taste the school bench very grateful.

Besides that I also did not escape from the Naysa family who always contributed in helping my school biyaya.

Many times I get not so pleasant treatment from my schoolmates even from the people around me for my circumstances that are far away from them.

Still remember well when the first day met a Dika, he who helped me from the ridicule of my friends in because of my sptuku who was not worth using, he kindly defended me from the bulian of my friends.

Dika is a male student who is not arrogant for the size of his peers and one thing I like about him he never differentiates me from my other friends, he is a boy who does not like bullying even though my circumstances are completely unbalanced with him.

Dika was fun and the three of us were suitable to be friends until sitting in the third grade of junior high school.

Well, our trip was very pleasant, even though Dika and I just secretly liked each other, but somehow it felt enough for me.

I don't know what makes Dika like me secretly, if I have to give you a choice, it must be Naysa who is prettier than me, as a woman, I admire her beauty in the eyes of men.

But apparently not with Dika, I do not know for sure what reason he likes me, so even now I do not know for sure the reason he was so sincere in loving me.

Naysa never knew how we both felt, she only knew that we were friends, because Dika always covered her feelings when we were together.

I smiled when I remembered that feeling, it was my monkey love. Maybe the adults say it's like that now.

And I'm just trying to keep that feeling good so that no one knows it, I'm enjoying that happiness.

Well, I really enjoyed that feeling when our love grew bigger in the First High School.

It increasingly gave me my full attention, and I never refused to feel that feeling growing in my heart. I enjoyed every feeling that made me feel happy when I was with Dika.

He's the only man who never insulted me and even mocked me.

My memory is still intact when Randi once mocked me with the name of the poor almost they fight together, if only at that time no one separated him, Dika is different from other boys.

But my smile came to a halt as my mind was reminded of Naysa's figure with her current state so suffocating my feelings.

Naysa who used to be not the one now, she used to be an Energetic girl who always made me smile that always gave me spirit, she always gave me what I needed.

My little friend who always stood up for me in every insult from my eyes, he was the one who always embraced me in any circumstances and conditions.

Suddenly something slipped from my sweet memories and now turned into an endless fear.

I remember when a few days ago she told me a very different face to Dika's figure, and my little heart could tell that Naysa was beginning to have feelings for Dika.

My fear suddenly surfaced in my heart, as Naysa's feelings began to change towards Dika.

Even though times have changed but I'm sure that feeling won't change.

We have been separated since we left school.

I'm the only one who can afford to go to First High School, while Naysa and Dika continued it until Final Secondary School, the three of us separated when they were in college and I continued my days as a gardener.

Today somehow I feel so happy that I feel very happy, Dika came back and I tried to guess Dika's heart, does she still remember ? or did he forget about me?and somehow I think, maybe Dika has forgotten all that, this feeling of mine is anything, just a mass feeling, a feeling that can change at any time.

Moreover, of course Dika must have found some beautiful women in JAKARTA there, which is certainly more beautiful than me.

I sighed with a heavy feeling and my hope faded, let this feeling be a feeling that became a good memory, of all the flavors I ever had of anything.

I stop this daydream and I look back at my reflection in the mirror, myself trying to whisper something that is quite tight chest, this,so that this self does not expect much of the feelings that I hang from the figure of a man named MAHARDIKA.