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TSBUN Episode 14
DAY is getting dusk and the sun is slowly starting to set to enter the contest. I was in a hurry to go home today Grandma did not accompany me in picking tea.Because Grandma today got another job from the boss of Kos drying her order tea.
Some people walk not far from me, their steps look so shaky all day working tirelessly.I am busy listening to the steps of those who are so cool chatting accompanying their journey home suddenly stopped after feeling something disturbing my move.
Bra !!!!
Suddenly the basket I was carrying the rope broke, almost as new as the tea in my bed was scattered, I was jolted and shocked not to play, where this is in the middle of the trip again.
" O ALLAH !! why break up the rope !! " Gumanku with a annoyed tone.
Tired of mixed emotions just suddenly hit me, I quickly gathered the scattered teas and scattered on the ground.
Dusk getting late I try to move quickly, so that the house does not coincide with the time of magrib.
When I was busy putting the tea back into the basket, my hand stopped, suddenly Dika was in front of me and crouched down to help me clean up the teas that were still scattered on the ground.
" Dic !! how are you here ?" I asked in a hurry to clean it up.
" I've been waiting for you here." Sela Dika looked at me many times.
" No need to be ! you don't have to help me, let me do it." Sergehku brushed off the hand of Dika who was still busy collecting the tea leaves.
" Let me help you." Reply Dika while continuing to collect tea regardless of my ban.
" Thank you !! " So quietly then let Dika tidy it up.
And finally the tea was collected back in my bed.
" Your cart rope broke." Said Dika while taking my rope dangling to the ground.
" Yes." My answer is short and I feel uncomfortable with the presence of Dika who comes suddenly.
" I betulin first ya ." Pinta Dika while lifting my tea basket.
" Can you ? " I ask a little less sure of Dika's attitude.
" You don't mock me, yes, I can't fix things like this." Sela Dika looks to smile cynically.
" Yeah in prospective S1 where can do something like this.." I teased Dika.
" You seem to underestimate me." Reply Dika while looking at me a little annoyed, I just messed up while smiling deathly.
" Look at it." Reveal Dika while immediately fixing my rope, and it's true that a few minutes later my bed can be repaired again.
" Whisper ??" Say Dika while thrusting the basket that has been installed in the rope.
" Wahh you are great !!! thanks to ya." I love it with a gentle smile.
I tried to expel this gerogi feeling in front of Dika.
" About me going to college I can't tell me what's that?!" Guman Dika looked a little mischievous glancing at me.
" Hmmm... " I didn't answer only to raise my shoulders and smile in embarrassment.
" What are you doing here again ?" I asked again in wonder.
" I told you, I'm waiting for you here Anna." Answer with great emphasis.
" But it's here,, ?" I asked again to be curious.
" So I went to your house with papah, said your mother went to pick tea alone, you dare ya in the sanditian garden that ?" Tanya Dika looked worried.
" Us used to be Dik, some I'm not alone either time, Nyai's employees were many Dik.Where there I was alone in the tea garden." As I bowed.
" What are you going to do here anyway ? walk on ??" I asked innocently, after looking around me there were no vehicles used by Dika.
" Tuh my bike's in there !" Said Dika while pointing at the motorbike parked on the side of the road.
" Oh ! " Reply rounded.
" Oh !! " Call Dika looking at me sharply, I turned my head and looked at the look in her eyes that looked at me with longing.
Again the gaze that makes me dig dug.
" Do you remember the promise? " Task Dika softly.
I sighed,why did Dika question that again, my thesis inwardly
Something rippled in this heart when Dika looked at me full of tenderness, yes Dika never changed she is still like before, still love me sincerely.
" Yes !! " My answer is short.
I was imprisoned to feel increasingly painful feelings.Peasings that I was buried deep must continue to be questioned.
" I'm sorry, Dik, I didn't get to see you." Saying slowly.
" Because you're busy ? or avoiding me ?" Dika asked slowly but so in her words.
" Unlike that, I've been really busy lately.I'm struggling with my life's needs Dika, understand !! and I can't forget our promise." Obviously I try to give an understanding that can be understood by Dika.
" An !! ." When I blocked my path, I stopped and looked at him deeply.
" Oya Dika, I want to talk to you about something.." As soon as I can, before Dika comes back to talk to me.
Dika looks wince at me with a variety of questions in his mind.
" Say ! " Said Dika gently looking at me.
Oh, my GOD !! this is the gentleness that is very burdensome in this heart to release it. This gentleness is what makes me comfortable, and He is truly the figure of the man of dreams, I must how this is the LORD, my pack deepens, and I feel,I feel like I'm at war in this state of affairs.
" Come say... " Say back Dika by standing facing me and he made a closer distance in front of me which made me more wrong behavior made him.
" Hmmm.. , If I'm sorry, I want us not to continue this relationship again." I said with all my might I gathered this strength just to say such a thing.
He looked at me like he didn't understand what I was saying.
" What....!! you mean ??.." When he looked in disbelief at my words, he looked surprised instead of playing.
" I don't understand what you mean.." Ask again in a depressed voice.
" Dika, I beg you to forget about us." I said with a trembling voice, I tried to hide my deep feelings of sadness.
I also did not have the heart to see the look on Dika's face that immediately changed drastically over my attitude.
" Wait Anna, I don't know what you mean !" His feet again looked dazed.
" Our relationship doesn't have to continue !!" My toilet speech made Dika even more stunned.
" Yeah.But why An.?" Sergeah returned Dika while blocking my way home.
" I'll stop expecting you." Reply with an uncertain feeling.
" But you didn't tell me why...?" Dika faced me back.
" We're not worth it, brother." My words went back quickly and I tried to avoid Dika's sharp gaze.
" Just because of that, you broke this relationship, your reasons are too much." It always does quickly.
I don't care if I keep accelerating.
" Anna ! Anna ! wait ! I don't understand what you're saying, if that's the reason why we haven't parted ways in the past ?" Dika asked as she grabbed my hand, she kept trying to stop my steps.
" Therefore I say from now on, before all things are far off, I wish we were no longer ...,.,," I said restrainedly,I tried to hold back the tightness in this chest that was pressing on me even more.
I sighed with restraining my tears that began to feel mutual to come out.
" So you're not expecting me anymore ??" Dika asked looking at me sharply.
" no Dika.." I said more and more.
" if our reason is not worth it. why am I still holding on to this feeling An... ? why do I love Nay..."
" that's what I expected." as I broke through Dika who was still blocking my path.
" An. anna means what see..."
" i'm sorry if I want to go home. It's getting dusk."
" i'll drive you home..."
" no sir. thanks.." my sergeant as he continued to step away from Dika who still looks confused with my right attitude has made him surprised instead of playing with my decision.
" Anna.." he exclaimed again, I continued walking regardless, not feeling a small circle falling on my cheek with the rapid pace of my footsteps.
I don't know.this is the first time I cried out of love, the love I couldn't really have, the love that had made me restless every night because of thinking about it, the love that I could not have, the love that has made me recognize this sense of falling in heart is his embrace, and the love that introduces me to my sacrifice for a friend.
The night wind greeted me coldly accompanied when it was quiet, the black sky glistened not a bit of stars accompanied him I was still silent looking at him, for some reason this night was so quiet, so quiet, the stars did not show up the night none of them I could see it as if they knew the contents of my broken heart, I won't regret loving her even if I end up having to bury all those feelings, somehow I'm so succumbing to these feelings, I just want to give my best to someone I've taken for granted, not because I am sorry for his condition but I just want to give the most beautiful for him, because I am afraid of the conditions that can at any time separate between me and him.
this clear melt of water dripping slowly down the cliff of my cheek, feeling warm I felt, had so many of these tears come out just for the true true feeling of having made me into a dilemma, she said, well I've sacrificed this feeling just for Nay to be able to point one star for him.
