
I looked straight at Naysa who was joking with Dika, it was hard for me not to feel jealous when I saw them look so familiar.
Naysa looked as crisp as when her hands were tightly clenched by Dika, I again had to pretend not to look at her and try to close these eyes.
I tried to make a show without having to show sadness or disturbed by the feelings that I feel at this time, I tried to be as comfortable as possible with the attitude of Naysa and Dika who increasingly showed his affection in front of me, and I keep trying to act like I'm okay.
" Anna !! " Call Naysa wave his hand at me, asking me to approach him.
I stuck my head staring questioningly.
" I want to go to the rose garden with you guys again, I seem to miss something." Naysa spoke towards me.
" No, no !! I don't want to." Quick reply.
I will not allow Naysa to go back to that place, far away and it will definitely be exhausting for Naysa's condition.
" Why is it An, we go there three, if we do not take mang sarif there and use his car, how ??? " Naysa's proposal by putting on a clear face, I shook my head not to agree or refuse.It is certain that Naysa's wishes can not refuse.
" I don't want you to do anything anymore." Reply firmly.
" Nay, you better take a lot of rest." Sela Dika with still tightly gripped naysa.
Once it crossed my brain there was a feeling of wanting to throw away my face but Naysa looked at me straight so that she could clearly catch the look on my face that changed suddenly.
" Nay is right." My greetings while standing next to Dika who was still sitting next to Naysa.
" I miss the time we got together and I miss expressing my feelings and hopes." Naysa said as he continued to hold tightly to Dika's hand.
Dika turned to look at me with various expressions.
Aahh I feel like I want to just disappear from their sight, I feel like I am carrying an egg on my head that is afraid of falling suddenly, he said, and it felt like this ember suddenly bursting in my heart.
I tried to calm this heart that was burning with jealous fire, but I realized I could not be jealous of the attitude of Naysa and Dika, let me be hurt at this time and let Naysa be happy with Dika.
" I want to say something there ." Imbuh Naysa with spoiled.
" I'm telling you now to get together, so you can say what you want to say right now, you don't have to go to that place." My words can not be seen the hue of Naysa's face that increasingly shows the look of her happy face.
" You don't want to go to that place anymore ?" Naysa asked with a frown.
" Nay, we're thinking about your health, just be patient !later we will definitely be able to gather again where we used to play, if you really recover." My words tried to persuade Naysa to abandon his desire to go where we used to play.
Nasya turned to look at me and released his arms from Dika and stood up to me.
" Anna, thank you, you are very concerned about me.." His words embraced me.
" I'll do anything for you, Nay, and I'll make sure you'll feel good around me." My words turned towards Dika who had just fallen silent like he lost his taste.
" Where, have you been silent since ?" Naysa asked as she let go of her embrace and approached Dika again.
" I'm listening to you guys, I agree with what Anna said." Dika replied while looking at me inside.
" It seems like Dika confused to say what, in part why the hell you're so stiff so dehh." As I smiled seductively towards Dika I tried to invite him to joke.
" Oh, just a few times." Sela Dika returned my smile awkwardly.
" By the way you guys are now really often diem- dieman deh, I noticed from yesterday what is it ?" Naysa suddenly asked a question I never expected, Naysa divided her gaze towards me and Dika.
I frowned and was shocked at Naysa's question.
" When it's been cocky since you've been Nay." I accidentally turned my head when I was looking at me too.
Dika rounded his eyeballs staring cluelessly at what I was saying.
" What the hell An, don't slander ya." Dika continued to annoy me.
" Why the hell Dik ? don't take it anymore." Said Naysa smiling spoiled, then he grabbed back Dika's hand and held it tightly.
" It's not me who's arrogant, but Anna's a little bit away from us." Reply to Dika lightly.
" You are, sir, I've been busy working too." My Sergei won't lose again.
" You guys I've noticed to be a bit tenuous since I became ama Dika." Naysa said as she leaned on Dika's shoulder.
" No Nay, I still deket kok ama Dika, it was evident that I came home with Dika anyways between us there is nothing.It is not Dik ?" I smiled falsely at Dika who did not respond to me at all.
Yes**a this feeling has indeed become awkward since I broke this relationship, I feel stiff for him whether what has separated these feelings towards him, I feel stiff, it was like there was a distance between us and I felt like I was getting to know him again.
I'm sorry Dika, I can't do much more than just make Nay happy for the last time.
" If I go and there's nothing between you anymore, I want you to stay together, be a solid and inseparable friend." Suddenly Naysa said something that made Dika and I look at each other with a flabbergasted look.
" Nay ! Don't you say rich ?" My sergeant is fast with a little high of my tone.
" I hope this friendship will be an everlasting friendship An, Dik.And you must remain together even though I am no longer among you." Again Naysa spoke with his voice so hoarse.
His words made me even more frightened.
" This friendship will be eternal, but our togetherness is not necessarily, because we will certainly have a partner each of our small family.so we can not tea alone continue ?" As soon as
" What is it that you married ? so our friendship will remain," Imbuh Naysa without burden, Naysa glanced at me with a meaningful glance.
Rebut it makes me not wrinkle.I make sure this is a proposal that contains jokes.
He looked at me with a meaningful look as if he were confirming every word Naysa said.
" You have - no matter what Nay.Where would I be.he.he.." As I smiled stiffly.
" So, no one knows." Naysa's babbling makes me even worse.
" Ahh, Level Dika you are not me Nay, but also dong me." I slurped with a smile as if I was making a joke that I thought was crisp.
I'm just trying not to get carried away with this atmosphere.
" Naysa's right, if the matchmaking no one knows." He looked at me with a percis look the first time he met me, as I was stunned and stared awkwardly at Naysa who was smiling meaningfully at me.
" Ha.ha.ha...." Suddenly Naysa laughed crisply looking at my expression like an idiot in a rage.
It seemed that he did not think the slightest bit of what had actually happened between me and Dika.
" Sika.Dika.Kadam kandaan you really like dehh." Sela Naysa shook her head, she looked a little different about her gaze towards me.
So - so I immediately brushed aside all of Dika's babbling, not to get carried away.
" They're gonna stay friends, forever.." My sergeant was firm without caring about Dika who was still looking at me so deeply.
" Thank you, yeah ! you're always there for me." Naysa added while tightly grasping my hand and his left hand still tightly grasped Dika.I just smiled trying to continue playing before Naysa without showing the true feelings of my heart.
TIME goes on without anyone stopping it, continuing to traverse every second, passing through the day, spinning out of control. Sometimes time often leaves a meaningful trace and a piece of regret in the heart, even though time still goes on but I have not been able to make sure the heart and this feeling will go where it goes.
Maybe time will reconcile with the feelings I am considering right now.
I realized there was a hope waiting for me right now, a desire that would occupy a new space in my heart,at this time I can not promise if this heart can turn away from the taste that ever existed, even I myself feel dazed in arranging, as if tired with uncertain feelings.
Huh..., can I hold on to this feeling ? or will this feeling slowly fade away.
A promise that is never certain, swayed with a more confusing feeling.
Panji looked at me straight, a bag of curtains he had on his shoulder, I could only see without a word coming out of my mouth.
I wanted to forbid him to go again, but somehow the controller felt like it was holding him back.
" I'll be back once you're completely ready." He said with a heavy voice.
I bowed trying to gather up two verses of farewells for him.
" I'll promise myself that if I finish graduation I'll ask you Na." His words sounded subtly touching in this heart, again I was just stunned to hear what Panji had said in the moments of his departure.
What is this inner power can only call without a voice, fighting in the anxiety of his own perception between loving him and not, my heart still hopes that Dika can return to my heart, evil indeed if I still wish Dika to be possessed if after Nay is gone.
I'm weak, I keep fighting with my own feelings and try to get rid of these evil feelings, I realize I won't be that bad.
" You don't want to answer what I'm saying ?" Tanya Panji looked at Syahdu.
I returned his gaze with various feelings.
"If your words are real to me, then I entrust them to the Fate of the LORD." Reply with all I can say.
The banner smiled knots at me there was a beautiful glimmer of hope emanating from the look on her face.
" I'm saying Na !" He said slowly, he stood up straight looking at me so deeply, I just nodded with a stiff smile.
Panji stepped into his private car and before long the roar of the car engine lit up, then slowly walked away leaving me alone, Panji stuck his head out from behind the window of his car and turned his head while smiling sweetly at me.
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