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TSBUN~Episode 11's

I was still looking at my own reflection in the mirror, and I was still cool looking at the look on my own face, I don't know what made Dika still maintain such a great sense towards me, I feel like there's nothing on par with Naysa.

Naysa is much better than I am, and that's like heaven and earth, everything is clearly much different between my face and his life.

Obviously I feel really low if I have to be with a Dika, what my grandmother is celebrating, me and Dika are not as level.

I can't imagine if Naysa knew about this feeling, and then she knew I was cheating.

I don't know if I feel like I've committed a big sin that makes me even more guilty.

Ahh.... If I can turn back time, I want to feel like I drove away and did not heed what I had felt, I don't know this boomerang for myself and my best friend Naysa.

" Anna "The soft distinctive voice surprised me from my long daydream, Grandma looked gently at me as she gently squeezed both my shoulders.

" What are you thinking ??"

" No, Grandma." I replied slowly while touching soft and warm fingers that already look wrinkled inedible time and age.

" Granny knows what you're feeling right now, Grandma can't be lied to even if you say there's nothing." Grandma said with a full look at my direction artike.

I was silent trying to harbor feelings that began to whip in my mind, I don't know what to say and I don't know where to start with this story.

" Tell." My breath taking a seat in front of me, the warm eyes so deeply nourished my heart.

Somehow there are things that make me cry so much so when my grandmother's words destroyed the defense of my feelings that I have been maintaining.

I don't know, this cry suddenly broke and broke in my Grandma's lap.

" Cry, if it makes you relieved and let go, if it can make you satisfied." Said my Grandma with a voice starting to roar.

I really can no longer speak only tears that represent the contents of my hay.I began to feel tight holding my sobs that I can no longer stand.

" Anna has betrayed Nay Nek." I said quietly with a little sobbing.

" What have you done ??" Ask my grandmother gently.

" Anna loves Dika and we love each other without Nay's knowledge. " My words falter.

" I don't know what if Nay finds out about this, especially Nay in the current condition of this grandma." Obviously, with sobs breaking.

I raised my head and stared at my grandmother.

" Anna was afraid that this feeling would hurt Nay's heart and worsen Nay's condition." My heart is feeling weak.

Grandma seemed to take a deep breath and looked at me with a million uncertain feelings, Grandma seemed to understand what I was feeling.

" What should Anna do Grandma ?" I asked with tears.

For a moment Grandma seemed silent she did not reply to my question, there was such a strong excitement I felt from her.It seems like Grandma also felt what I felt.

" As my grandmother once said, that you should stop not expecting Den Dika again.It is better to forget it even though it is bitter taste." Grandma's words were so soft, her voice twrasa increasingly heavy and the look of her eyes began to condense there was a clear melt that began to pool in her eye fertilizers.

" So ???" I hung and felt this throat dry up.

" Forgive Den Dika, it is clear between him and you will never be commensurate, but there is also something more appropriate for Den Dika that is Neng Naysa." Obviously my grandmother with a slight tremble of her voice.

I understand Grandma didn't really want to hurt my feelings, but the fact that made her have to be willing to hurt her grandson's feelings.

Something so heavy has happened to me, yes it has strongly hit my feelings and I am powerless over everything, only able to realize all this with regret.

What is feared happens also, this love is not lucky.

" The worm will remain a worm will never be Anna's dragon, and the mojair fish will not be a golden fish. Think back to Anna to keep your feelings." My grandmother gently stroked my hair.

He counseled me with great affection.

I don't know if the middle-aged woman suddenly felt transformed into a friend who was so very understanding of my feelings.

My tears broke when this feeling called far away the figure of a mother.

If I have to imagine what a mother looks like, maybe this is when I need the presence of a mother figure, I need a lot of hugs and all the warm deck that can strengthen me.

My cries are really getting broken lamenting all forms of injustice in my life.

" There will be another joy that will fetch you Anna." Grandma grabbed my hand tightly and listened to my face with full force.

I can't answer there's just a tightness in my chest, there's not a word that's coming out of my mouth, it's really hard to express everything about this taste.

The sound of the engine rang from outside my house, stopping me from my small cry.Simply with Grandma and I gazed out of my yard.Sound the sound of the car engine stopped right in front of my house.

I was stunned from my seat along with Neneku, for a moment me and Grandma looked at each other trying to guess the arrival of someone from inside the car.

I quickly wiped my tears and tried to clear up my situation.

Grandma swiftly left my room and approached the guests who visited my house.I just stared silently at the far outside of my window.

I just realized that Dika's words to me were going to meet me this afternoon.

" O Lord !!! Pekiku by staring at the clock attached to the wooden dingding of my room.

" It's four o'clock in the afternoon, if it's for sure...." I closed my mouth with both hands.

" Anna ! there's dika den with Nenk Naysa ."

Nay same Dika ????

Inner wondering.

What are they ???

The more it messes with my mind, the more I have to do what I have to do.

" Yeah Nek for a while "My mouth is short, I turned to my mirror these eyes are a little damp and this cheek still looks red.

Not only have I prepared suddenly Naysa has poured into my room so cheerfully and cheerfully.

" Nayy !! " His cry quickly grabbed me tightly.

I was silent trying to hide the hue of my face that did not look dripping.

" We're in the yukk again ! " Take Naysa let go of her embrace and invite me to go to the rankeng.

Rangkeng is a type of small cottage located in the middle of the hill.

Yes it was our playground as a child, and in that place also our witnesses were so solid friends.

" Rangkeng.... ?? " I asked to look at the face of Naysa who still looks cheerful.

" yeah we go with Dika." Naysa said while shaking my shoulders.I fell silent, wanting to feel like I disappeared for a moment this very second not to show the sadness I was feeling right now.

" Anna" For a moment Naysa looked at me so deeply she tried to listen and look into my face.

" Why ?" Many doubt.

" It looks like you've been crying ??" He asked, looking far away at my face.

" No !!" I answered slowly, turning my face away.

" Don't you like lying to me An ?" Naysa said as she continued to chase after me with her gaze.

" I'm just missing again." My pretext reasoned.

" Kangen ???" Naysa asked increasingly.

" Ahh forget that." I said, holding back the cry that almost broke in my eyes.

" Anna.Since when can you lie to me ?" He asked with a little sharp look at me.

" Nay,." As cheek

" You don't want to talk to me anymore ?" Tanya Naysa increasingly searched me.I was silent and I shook my head while holding Nay's hand tightly.

" I just miss going ....," My words hang, Naysa listens to me looking so curious about my situation.

" I only miss my parents, I miss them." I don't know, I don't know what drama I'm playing, I just want to look okay in Naysa's eyes. I did not want to show my sadness in front of him by pretending to feel bad for my parents.

" Ah Anna !! I'm sorry." Naysa said as she clenched and hugged me tightly.

" I'm sorry, it's so bad to think of you." He said, continuing to gently rub my back.I can only sob little in the arms of my best friend.With my fake cry.

" Crying I feel what you feel, Both your parents are my parents and An.And my parents are your parents too, I am Anna's sod." Naysa's words strengthened me with a gentle smile on me. Those are the words of Naysa that always strengthen me.

Naysa was always present when I was really fragile, but somehow I felt these tears were tears - a lie that had completely washed away the empathy of a friend of mine.

" You are not alone An, there I am, there is Mother, and now there is also Dika, we are still in the position of An." Obviously Naysa looks teary.

it hurts me that if I have to see him cry sincerely for me, I am silent trying to keep hiding behind my hypocrisy, I feel like a mafia who will stab him at any time.

" It is yes !! you tea don't be sad later I follow sad ." Naysa said as she wiped her tears, I smiled faintly looking towards Naysa, a friend who truly loves me.

" When we're waiting for you.Yukk we go, we should have fun." Naysa said as she wiped my wet tears on my cheeks.

I just nodded slowly and smiled heartily.

Slowly I followed Naysa's steps who held me out of the room, while Dika looked familiar chatting with my Grandma, I don't know what the two were talking about.

Dika glanced at me slightly stiffly, I only glimpsed the look on her slightly grim face, looking at me with disappointed eyes.

But I try not to stare any longer at him.

Before long I told my Grandma to go out for a while to accompany Naysa and Dika who will go to where we play small.

Dika is still looking at me clingy I don't know what's on his mind.

at the end of my gaze Grandma looked at me full of haru, her sadness was clearly visible from the corner line of her bated lips, I could only smile expressionlessly, trying to convince her that I was okay.

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