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TSBUN ~episode 29

I stared regretfully at Dika who was unmoved, he was only able to be silent and sculpted without any reaction.

I could only see his face that was devastated by the events that had happened.There was regret in my heart and it grew deeper, like there was a hard object that hit me very strongly, he said,and that became my heaviest burden

For a moment I was only able to dissolve in fear that increasingly gripped my heart, slowly I walked away from Dika who still remained silent not flinching one bit, he said,I don't know what's on that guy's mind.

Yes...

I am so afraid of what has happened to Naysa now,and if something bad happens to him, obviously I cannot forgive myself.There is pain at the end of this heart and the pain is getting out of control.

As soon as these two legs felt weak as if there was no energy, I fell into a deep regret, I felt free to regret it, it all happened uncontrollably.

I want to scream to break the silence wrapped in anxiety that is so strong against me.Self can not forgive the mistakes I have made against Naysa my little friend.

My tears were pouring down my two cheeks, I was confused, even I felt anxious and Panic mingled into one taste in my heart, over what had happened to Naysa.

This incident was indeed so fast, if only I had gone straight home maybe it would not be like this.

Without thinking any longer I immediately rushed over, intending to go to see Naysa, I wanted to make sure Naysa was in his condition, was he okay, did he ??

I shook my head, I couldn't imagine anything bad happening to him.

I hope Naysa doesn't misunderstand what has happened between me and Dika.

Arriving at the courtyard of the magnificent Naysa house somehow my heart became gamang staring doubtfully at the tightly closed gate of Naysa's house.

There was a feeling lost in my control, and somehow suddenly this place felt awkward to me.So so I'm not sure if Naysa would want to see me or vice versa.

I fell silent, imagining Naysa's facial expression when I came to meet her, I guessed so much.

I'm sure if Naysa will be angry with me even he no longer wants to be friends with me.See !!

My mind is so messed up, more fucked up than anything and I don't know what to do right now.

" Neng Ana !"

Sapa mang Sarif surprised me in the middle of my long daydream.

I turned towards the figure of the old man with a doubtful gaze, Mang Sarif looked at me while lowering a sack from his shoulder.

" Neng Ana back again ?" Mang Sarif asked in surprise.

" Yes mang, I need to be the same Naysa, about Nay there is a mang ?" I asked without waiting for long.

" Mamang teas are less tau, so Mamang is from the plantation.." He said as he approached me.

" Is there any need for neng Anna as neng Nay ?" Ask mang sarif curious.

" There's nothing mang.Cuman I want to meet Nay only...?" Reply staggered.

" then for a minute oruh neng, mamang call neng Nay ya ya !" Said Sang Sarif while opening the gate.

I just nodded in agreement.

My feelings still can't calm down if I can't meet Naysa.

" Acep ! here atuh, help you move this tea sack yes !" Sang Sarif asked for help from his son.

" Yes sir." Sahut Acep immediately approached the father.

" Just keep it in the warehouse first, but don't forget to weigh it first ! It's not yet considered how much it weighs.." Said Sang Sarif while opening the gate wide of the gate, then he also told me to enter.

" Let's or Neng Anna come in first !!" Mang Sarif said kindly.

" Yes mang, thank you mang." Reply staggered.

" Wait a minute you'll go inside!" Speak back to Mang Sarif with full respect to me, when we are both men of Nyai grandmother Naysa, but Sang Sarif his people are full of manners.

" Yes mang, saturnuhun yes mang..." My words with a tone of speech are getting lower.

I stood outside the terrace of Naysa's house waiting for news from Mang Sarif.

A few minutes later Mang Sarif came out with a flat face.

" There's neng!but he said neng Naynya tea again did not want to be disturbed.She said she wanted to rest ." Clearly Mang Sarif was innocent.

I took a deep breath of the narration of the Mang Sarif.

I guess Naysa didn't want to see me, and what I've been afraid of all this time, Naysa won't see me again.

" Keep Nay again why Mang ?" I'm still curious.

" Less Tau or Neng.Barusan also nyampein Nyai." Mang Sarif said looking confused.

Dekkkkkp.....

" Neyai ???" My chirping was getting messed up, I didn't know what else to do, if Nyai knew about this incident, I really couldn't forgive myself.

I hate you Dika !!! Serapahku.

" Neng ! how is it even dumb ?" Mang Sarif's question surprised me.

" Oh it's okay Mang.Ya already mang, then I say go home aja mang, let Nay rest.." I said while smiling stiffly.

" Yes Neng, is there a message for Neng Nay ?" Ask mang Sarif with a grim.

" Mmm there seems to be no mang.Punten ya mang already bother." I said with an unpleasant look.

" It's okay or Neng." Reply Mang Sarif smiled kindly.

Soon I said goodbye and walked out the gate, away from Naysa's residence.

I want to run to embrace Neneku and spill all this sadness, along the way these tears are difficult to weave, my crying like breaking.I try to run with full tightness in the heart, I try to run,I don't know where to take this regret.

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I collapsed in my old bed, crying so, why does it have to be like this the end of this love play.I just want Naysa to be happy but not like this,I can't imagine that Naysa's health is getting worse just because of my carelessness.I can only cry to make my pillow feel soaked on this cry.

I was really sobbing in fear that was gripping my soul even more.

" Anna !"

Call out a soft voice so distinctive to my ears.

I immediately wiped my tears and tried to calm down.

" Anna, what's wrong with you ?" Grandma emerged from behind the curtains of my room approaching with an anxious look on her face.

I feel like I can no longer hold back my crying the effects of my grandmother's question.

I quickly swept over my Grandmother's embrace and I sobbed incessantly, shedding an unstoppable cry.

Just contact it makes my grandmother look shok made her.

" What's up with An ??" Grandma asked back by shaking my body slowly.

I cannot answer yet, it is too difficult for my sobbing to choke my chest cavity.

" Take it easy first or An, don't be like this, the grandmother of tea gets scared..." Grandma looked more and more anxiously at me and her voice sounded trembling.

" What Anna was afraid of had happened, Grandma." I said softly in between my talk.

Grandma looked confused at me.

" What is this really about ? don't scare Grandma, you're clear or this aya naon tea ?" again Grandma looked so anxious looking at me, and her eyes began to glaze over.

I really could not bear to see Grandma who was worried about my unceasing situation sobbing.

I slowly tried to calm myself down so that I could tell quietly without hurry, and that was understandable to my grandmother.

Without waiting for a long time I immediately tell you what happened to me, I tell you the time I finished delivering His order, there is nothing I missed in a word,for me Grandma is a person who really understands my circumstances and feelings, I still sob softly while occasionally wiping my tears that melt on the cheeks.

" Astagfirullah, Grandma so anxious An, Grandma also be confused or if rich gini happen" said Grandma with pity on me, I was saddened to see Grandma too sad with my situation, I was sad, I regret what I have done, the intention of giving my best even hurt him.

" just pray, neng Nay is fine An, God will listen to the prayer of his servant who has a sincere heart, whether you have good intentions." said Grandma calms my feelings while stroking my hair I still sobbed in her next door, there is no place as comfortable as the embrace of Grandma she really is my greatest woman.

" don't think too much about it, later even you who are sick." interrupted again Grandma with a soft tone.

I didn't answer just a nagging sigh as I let out a long sigh.There was a comfortable warmth from Grandma's embrace, she loved me so much caring about all my grievances, I cannot imagine if the LORD took this moment the only person who is very valuable in my life, I was afraid to imagine it. I embrace the old body again while saying a prayer for him, so that my grandmother always healthy and long life.

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