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TSBUN Episode 20's

 

I say goodbye to Naysa, after both Naysa's parents came to visit. Likewise Dika did the same, after saying goodbye to Nasya's parents he soon followed me.

I walked quickly outside the hospital parking lot, I hoped, I did not go home with Dika, but Dika was behind me with a small run after me.

I said Dika did not invite me to come home together.

" Anna wait..!!" Seru Dika followed my steps quickly.

" I'll take you home! ." He cried a little louder again.

I looked up and slowed my steps.

" I think I'm going home alone, sir." As long as I keep walking.

" An, why did you refuse me to take you home ?" Ask Dika who tried to align her steps.

" I just want to go home by myself, Sister.." I said with half a stiff smile.

" Oh, so you now prefer the banner that goes between ya?" Dika asked with a full glance at me.

I gasped at Dika's accusation, then I stopped my steps and turned to Dika who was walking beside me.

" Dika, it's not like that." I answered by staring at the canngung towards Dika.

" Of course, that's why you were among the Panji here, so now Panji is better than me ??" He stared at the feelings towards me.

I was silent trying not to reply to what Dika said, and I saw that Dika had been provoked by his jealousy.

" So now you don't want me to take you home ?" Dika asked again with a soft voice, I looked in his eyes, Dika looked at me lovingly.She always softened if I was sulking or hard-hearted and this really I can not refuse, he said,this heart always breaks.

The softness of Dika's figure always defeats my ego's feelings, I honestly can't take this feeling off of Dika.

Y**aa LORD this love has deceived me, I really cannot resist this feeling.

" Come !!." Take Dika while taking my hand, I fell silent resigned, when Dika walked by pulling my hand towards the parking lot of the hospital, without speaking again I followed him with resignation.

 

I was still silent behind Dika who was cool in piggybacking on me, the breeze hit my hair, Dika deliberately did not speed up the speed of his motorbike he even deliberately slowed it down.

during the trip Dika and I were silent, busy with my thoughts, I was busy with my feelings trying to fight this feeling that was constantly terrorizing me.

I'm still considering it, and I'm still struggling with a fear so grounded.

I was afraid of this situation which would slowly but surely separate me from my best friend.

I woke up from my daydream after Dika stopped the speed of his motorbike and stopped on the street trip between the direction of my home and the flower garden where I always met him.

" Why stop here, Dik ?" I asked a little surprised after realizing the motor Dika stopped not in front of my house.

" I want to talk to you first." He said while looking at me.

I quickly got off the bike and stood up a little.

" I'll go home alone then." My words were flat, suddenly my feelings were irritated at Dika's attitude.

" Anna wait for An !! just this one second..." Sergey Dika while running after me.

My steps stopped for a moment when Dika faced me.

" Anna was wrong what the hell ? you're avoiding me ?" Tanya looked at me seriously.

" You have nothing wrong, you're wrong." I answered while continuing to move.

" You're wrong ??? what do you mean?" Ask again, increasingly curious.

For a moment I stopped and took a deep breath, trying to gather energy to be able to speak firmly without having to tear in front of Dika.

" Because I have feelings for you, and I just realized that we've been betraying Nay all this time." I turned my body and looked straight at Dika.

" Oh Dika, we have betrayed Him.Are you aware we have betrayed Nay and our friendship all this time ?." I said with an emphasis on intonation in each sentence.

" ....!!" Dika broke down quickly.

" Would it be like when we're gonna be like this, love each other behind Nay's back, and now Nay's starting to like you Dik.." Obviously I started to hold an unusual taste in my chest.

Dika was stunned staring in disbelief at me.

" What ???" The strangulation Dika saw from his facial expression implied a deep shock at my statement.

" Nay now loves you, Dik.." Reveal me with a vibrating voice.

" But An, I had absolutely no feelings for him from then until now, he was my best friend." Reply Dika tried to explain his feelings towards Naysa.

" No, Naysa is expecting you so much, so I beg you to love him." I'm welding.

" Can't be An, I love you a long time ago, and I don't have any feelings I can give other than a friend to Nay." Clearly, Dika maintained his feelings.

I stared tiredly at Dika who could not understand my feelings at all.

" Sir, I beg you, !! Naysa doesn't know when to be with us again.." I said while holding back my sobs that began to slowly surface.

" You mean ??" Dika furrowed both his eyebrows and looked at me questioningly.

I let out a long sigh of feeling into the gamangan to tell the truth of what was going on to Naysa.

" Nay is sick with Dik Leukemia, the final stage, hope is healed thin, so I beg you to love him and you must forget me, just consider me just your best friend." Obviously I'm getting more and more unstoppable withstanding this roar in the chest.

" What...?? " Dika screeched on her face looking in disbelief at what I had told her, Dika really looked very shaken after knowing what was going on with Nay.

" So Nay...!!" His grave was hanging, his face looked sad.

" That's the reason why I decided on you, Dik, there's no time for me to make Nay happy other than the current opportunity to give up my feelings for him Dik.." Add me with more and more unbecoming.

Dika was stunned looking at me with an erratic feeling.

" Please Dika." My petitions.

" But how can I love her while this heart is only on you Anna." Dika said with a slightly quivering voice, I was filled to hear it, making this little feeling even more melted.

" Forgive me.." As I turned my body back, I was trying to hold back these tears that were falling out of control.

" How is it...??" Dika asked with a slight sound of sadness, I just held bitterly in this chest without wanting to see the look on Dika's face that really looked ruined.

" Slowly I'll forget all about you, brother." I said lightly, I wish Dika could stay away from me.

" I'm not that easy to love someone in such a short time." Reply Dika with a Flat voice.

I closed my eyes, her words were breaking my heart.

" Try me I'm sure you can, this is for Nay's sake." I said with no longer thought I immediately rushed to leave Dika who was still standing staring at my footsteps who left with a million sorrows in her heart.

I ran with a sobbing that I could not stop anymore, what I had been holding all this time finally came off, even though I ended up having to get hurt.

I ran small to bring home the chunks of tears that had crystallized in my eyes, clutching tightly the heart that had been broken, I ran away leaving Dika who was still staring at me unmoved.

I who run away with tears that are getting louder, even though I have tried hard and let this feeling slip but in the deepest heart the feeling will remain.

At the end of this feeling will never disappear even though as hard as I forget it because Dika is the figure of my first man who introduced love to me.

He is a man who has given me protection and the meaning of comfort,

although this is destroyed in the name of friendship, but at least I have sacrificed for my little friend.

Naysas.

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