Sharing Love: The Suffering of the Second Wife

Contrition

Side story's Ikram

For days I thought about that woman, did she really not know me? However, after meeting him several times he still acted as usual. I'm sure he doesn't know me.

I tried to forget everything, but still the image of her crying near her husband's body always haunts my days. Luckily, something else took my mind off. I who was troubled at that time, was rewarded by an online congregation who suddenly appeared asking this and that about the laws of Islam.

She's beautiful, attractive, but she doesn't wear a hijab. He is critical, but polite. Smart and smart, making me have to be really careful when answering questions from him.

I always wait for a chat from him every day. He is my mistress. Nadia Almira's name. From the response he gave it seemed like he was always satisfied with the answers I gave. She didn't know that I was always accompanied by books when the picture appeared on my phone screen.

One day I asked her to wear a hijab.

"Sir, you are more beautiful if you wear a hijab." I sent him that message. He didn't reply I thought he was offended for being disturbed by his privacy.

The next day, however, his profile picture changed. A picture of him wearing a hijab. Very beautiful and shining. Why doesn't my heart stop beating? Am I in love?

Finally, I did not spend the day without accompanying him to study. She told me that she was not a good girl, studying religion only this time she did. I was flattered when he praised me.

"Thank you, Ustadz. After I got to know Ustadz I got to know about my religion."

That short sentence made me feel like a useful human being. Thanks to knowing me he said, one merit of kindness I have earned. The days passed with a cheerful smile that was more than usual. Until one day a fact made my heart almost out of place.

When I came to the convection factory again, the girl accepted me. He's Nadia, and he's the boy I hit that day. I made him an orphan before he saw this world. It turns out that this world is not as wide as moringa leaves. I was nervous when I met him, but I pushed as much as I could. I wanted to run away, but he seemed happy and enthusiastic when he talked to me.

It adds to my admiration for him. I unconsciously smiled, and imagined that she would be my wife. His spoiled attitude, makes me feel happy. Is correct. People say if you marry a girl, you will be made happy by her effective attitude. I want to marry Nadia. As a ransom from guilt for the sins I committed in the past.

I like it when I see him laughing, smiling with all the red on his cheek. Unlike the usual Ain in my eyes. Does she want to be my second wife? Ah ... silly! It was just my imagination. There's no way a pretty, smart girl would want to be my second wife. Silly, really silly!

Kutepis my imagination far away. Kulik Ain is busy with his study colleagues. He smiled when he looked at me, why is it so different from Nadia. When I see her smile, it always makes my heart go wrong. Irregular pounding. Strange feeling.

Pucuk loved ulam also arrived. I feel like my fate is very good. Good destiny is always with me. That afternoon Sarah's mother Nadia's mother came to me. I thought she was gonna talk about her husband, I've been warning her about it. In fact, he asked me to be the husband of his son, Nadia. In disbelief, but it was spoken by his mother.

Miss Sarah made a pact for it, but even without it I would be willing to marry her. Ah... After I thought again, this agreement is necessary to save me. If one day Sarah's mom finds out that I killed her husband.

It's okay, even if only fifteen percent is enough for me. The marriage took place after the drama with Ain. Why did he stop me, he should have realized I needed something whole still sealed.

Honey, the first night with him has to be delayed. It's okay because I was so satisfied that night, she's really still a girl. Hahaha .. I was really happy that night. However, the happiness I felt turned out to make Ain feel jealous. The myriad of rules that pressured Nadia was made, I complied because I did not want Ain to feel I excommunicated her.

I didn't want Ain to have the feeling that I was going to leave him. That's very unlikely. Let it be, I see Nadia can also accept patiently. She's an amazing woman, but the one that made me dislike her was going out of the house a lot without my permission. I feel unappreciated as a husband.

The more complicated the day, Ain's jealousy grew. He asked me to marry again. It's ridiculous! Wouldn't that just make her heart hurt. Idiotically. However, because every day he urged me I ended up participating on conditions that were contrary to the conditions he had applied first. My only intention was to make her realize I didn't want to get married.

Bad luck kept coming after Yuni entered my household. I don't know who he is. All sorts of things I've been through. Things that make no sense to me. Whatisthis? Is this a punishment because I am not being fair to Nadia and attach more importance to Ain's feelings.

Everything's fucked up, my kids are away. They were never seen at home because Ain was always busy with himself. I also asked for another ustadz in place of me to teach. I don't think I can think anymore. Too weird. Nadia's attitude makes me even more careless. He could have made up excuses to be admitted to the Hospital to cover up his mistakes.

However, the fact that I heard from my son's mouth really made me unable to speak. How did Ruby know all that, especially when she found out that I killed Nadia's father. Is it because Ruby has been close to Nadia? I don't know where Ruby can find out.

A thousand words if it always precedes every regret. I don't know anything about Nadia's disease. I feel like I no longer have any self-esteem right now when my own son uncovers all the veils that are covered. Nadia's in a coma, Sarah's mom's dead. I don't care about the deal anymore because I already thought it was off. I don't want it anymore. It felt too embarrassed to ask for that when everything I did was far from decent to Nadia.

Nadia's gone, how am I gonna apologize to her. Regret always comes at the end of the story when everything unfolds at the wrong time. When everyone left me alone. Ms. Sarah .. I haven't even had time to apologize to her, but I've already left the world. I'm sorry, why I didn't want to admit my mistake when he was alive. Maybe I'll get an apology from him even if there's a risk I have to bear.

Nadia is now gone. How do I get an apology from him. My children .. I feel like a bad parent. I have done wrong to my own children.

They don't even want to see me. Ain, I was annoyed at him when I found out he was using orphan money, but I was also guilty of ringing all of this from him. That must have hit him a lot. However, I hope that Ain will realize his mistake and correct himself with me. To Yuni, it seemed like she had already realized everything from the very beginning. Before everything is revealed.

Give Nadia back to me, God. I don't want to lose him. I promise to make her happy this time. Give me a chance to fix everything. Give me Nadia!