Sharing Love: The Suffering of the Second Wife

Disappointment Expression

The night is getting quiet. The darkness was gripping and the air was getting colder. Slowly Ikram took off his arms as Nadia no longer rebelled, the woman immediately wrapped the body in a blanket and turned away from her husband's sight.

Ikram wearing his scabbard, sitting on the edge of the bed. The two turned their backs on each other without any word of explanation from Ikram.

"Isn't the purpose of marriage to get offspring? What else besides that? What is it just to spill****** solely? Or is there another purpose?"

Nadia's trembling voice broke the silence in the room. Ikram flipped and found his wife still lying on her back.

"It's not. I also really want to have children from you, but I can't do it. Mas hope you understand and please forgive Mas," said Ikram without explaining the core of the problem they are facing. He was as sad as Nadia, only Ikram had promised Ain.

Nadia turned to look at the nervous and agitated Ikram. He sat down and leaned back against the head of the bed.

"Well what are you doing this? I'm sure Mas knows better and understands more about the law. 'Azl makruh done if there is no reason also the agreement of the wife. 'Azl can be done when the wife agrees to do it for a specific purpose. Isn't that right, Mas?" nadia's search scanned her husband's face looking down agitatedly.

Ikram can not chimed in Nadia's words because what Nadia said is true and he can not avoid the law of Shari'a.

"Does Mas have a reason for doing this that I don't know about? Why not talk about it before we do this so that we agree on it together. Mas, the wife deserves a non-destructive pleasure and Mas is obliged to pay it," said Nadia still with a disappointed look clearly printed on her face.

Nadia looked at Ikram with sadness. The happiness he dreamed of evaporated just like that. The man in front of him lowered his head hiding a sad look on his face. Nadia knows Ikram feels guilty, but she is already disappointed.

"Did Brother Ain ask Mas to do it? Is it possible to marry me that there's a deal between you?" investigate Nadia again with a pain-wracked heart.

Kram silenced, his gaze implying an answer to what Nadia had just said. It hurts not to play, they seem to be playing with marriage.

"So right?" Pain is not a headache. Nadia was crying again. Ikram can do nothing when he sees it. Say no, because his tongue can not strangle the word.

"Sorry-"

"I should have talked about this before I did. There should be no more secrets between us. You think I just want to play with getting married to Mas?" nadia said she opened her heart. His tears were flowing uncontrollably into the river. Creates a hull on the chest that makes it tight.

Ikram tried to grab the hand of his second wife, but was pushed aside by Nadia quickly. He even threw away the view from Ikram reluctant to look at him.

"Please forgive me, Nadia. It was wrong. Mas should have talked about this with you before doing it, but Mas is afraid you can't accept it. Please forgive me, Mas" said Ikram as he kissed Nadia's hand and held her tightly.

Nadia still turned her face away from him. The pain mixed with disappointment dashed his hopes of the happiness he dreamed of before marrying Ikram.

"Even the Qur'an says, "Males are leaders of women, for Allah has exalted some (men) over others (women), and because they (men) have given up some of their possessions."

(An-Nisa :34)

Nadia's long speech increasingly makes Ikram feel weak.

"Don't you always say that when you speak. A husband has a leader, a nahkoda, in the household. It must be strong and strong. He must understand and make sense of the crew. He must direct those he leads when they are on the wrong path. Why does Mas not show the existence of alqawwamah in Mas as a man, as our husband?" said Nadia again made Ikram speechless. The words that Nadia spoke so struck her heart.

Indirectly Ikram realized he had stepped on his own pride by being weak when Ain put forward that condition. He should have given understanding to his first wife to be able to accept Nadia as his wife as well. But back again to the heart of a woman who never wants to share love.

"What you said was all true, it shouldn't be this weak. Mas has trampled on Mas's own self-esteem. I'm ashamed of you, Nadia. Mas shy. What do I have to do to make up for everything? I have accepted that condition without thinking that you will get hurt because of it. Forgive me for not being a good leader for you, for all of you" Ikram said, noting his weakness.

"How will we be able to be strong while our own captains claim to be weak and despair? Mom, you are the leader. To be carried where our ark is, you move it. You should be able to be fair between us so that our ark doesn't experience any shaking"

"I understand how hurt Ain's heart feels when her husband remarries, but I also have no intention of taking Mas away from her. We can live in harmony, right? Without hurting one of them. Without having to be jealous and envious of each other, we can walk together towards the rido of God so that his grace and blessing are always abundant in our household. I'm sure Mas knows what Mas has to do" said Nadia again who this time looked at Ikram with a disappointed and bitter look.

"Let's walk together, Mas! Go home, I will not hold Mas to stay here" said Nadia with her heart sore.

"No! Mas will stay here only," said Ikram quickly.

"I need to be alone, Mom. I need time to accept everything that happened tonight. Let me alone until my heart sincerely accepts it," said Nadia again while removing the grip of Ikram's hand.

"Are you angry with me?" tanya Ikram looked at Nadia with regret.

"I'm not angry, Mom. Just disappointed in what Mas did tonight" replied Nadia again.

"Well, if you need time to accept it. I'll give you a deadline. Mas will discuss this with Ain, Mas hope you can be patient until Mas succeeds in giving understanding to him. You can do it, right?" please be with a full heart.

Nadia simply nodded without saying a word. Be, he's back alone. The first night she dreamed of would be happy, should end in tears of disappointment because of her husband's actions. He never expected, the Kram which he considered to understand more about religion was actually doing things that are contrary to sharia. Unknowingly that night Ikram had hurt both his wife's hearts.

"I'm just disappointed, God."