
Narrated Mu’adz bin Anas Al - Juhani RA
"Whoever withholds his anger when he is able to do so, on the Day of Resurrection God will call him before all creatures, then God tells him to choose the angel he likes." (CHR. Ahmad, Abu Dawud, and Ibn Majah).
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That night Ain poured out his emotions through a cry. For most of the night she cried and regretted everything that happened. Ikram patiently accompanied not interrupting as Ain spoke, not refuting when Ain blamed.
"This is all because Abi forced her to marry the woman. In fact, Abi knew the pain was being cheated and had to share. Umi knows, Umi is not an educated woman like her. Umi is just an ordinary girl with potluck knowledge who bears the title of ustadzah because married an ustadz. Umi's heart is fragile, Abi ...."
Ain cried again, Ikram sat on the floor listening to his wife's sigh.
"Ten years ... ten years Umi accompanied Abi struggling patiently. Ten years also feel how difficult life is so that we can live properly. All that is nothing in the eyes of Abi, after all Abi actually asked permission to marry again. Umi's heartache, Bi," said Ain continued to cry shed all anger in the chest.
"He never knew how Umi's struggle used to be when Abi was not like now, he came without burden without a meaningful test and wanted to master Abi. How is Umi's next life? Ruby defended her even more than her own um. Then Bilal followed his brother, and Abi ... Abi would slowly leave Umi, "sobbed Ain with tears that broke into the hair of Ikram.
The man was still faithfully listening, everything Ain revealed he accommodated, he thought, he was properly sifted. There was nothing wrong with what Ain said just now. It all started from him who was less grateful and instead asked his permission to marry another girl. Only the final part was wrong, Ain thought Ikram would leave him. In fact, even a second of the Kram never crossed that.
"Angrily already? Is Abi allowed to talk?" ask me gently. Ain did not say, he was still sobbing sedan with reddened eyes.
Ikram grabbed Ain's hand and grasped it, smelling it gently just like the first time they touched after the qobul's ijab.
"Let's know, Abi was wrong. Everything Umi said was true. Not yet Abi thanked Umi, Abi had even incised a wound in Umi's heart. Forgive Abi, Mi," said Ikram meekly.
He could never be angry at Ain, for ten years of marriage even though Ikram had never snapped at him, what else was he saying rudely to him. When Ain was angry, he would quietly listen. And seduced to temper the anger in Ain's heart. Never raised a voice when Ain did it. He let Ain vent all the emotions within him.
"Mi, God's destiny no one knows. What we're going to look like in the future we never know. Wa makaruu wa makarallaah, wallaahu Khoirul Maakiriin. And plan for you, God made a plan. And God is the best planner-"
"Man has a plan, but God has a plan. And we never know what kind of plan God made for us. Why don't we make peace with fate so that we can more easily live all this" Ikram said, looking at Ain despite the woman turning away from him.
"From Umi's busy thinking Abi will turn and forget Umi, we better walk together towards His jannah. Jealousy is a natural thing, allowed origin at a reasonable stage. Sayidah Aisha and the other wives of the Apostle were jealous, but they were more able to restrain themselves and prefer to draw closer to Allah" said Ikram who opened the door of Ain's heart a little.
"Umi is a great woman that Abi has, where maybe Abi left Umi for Nadia or other women. Umi will remain in Abi's heart and be the only best. Abi just did not know, what God's plan of this all. Can we take it, Umi?" asked Ikram while commenting on the smile as Ain turned to him.
"What Ruby said is true, Nadia is also Abi's wife and as the husband of two wives Abi should be able to be fair to you. Is Umi still interested in Umi's decision? On all the terms Umi proposed to Abi? We are only human beings who are equipped with human nature. It's okay, just slow down. Let everything flow like water. There is no need to think about it too deeply," concluded Ikram.
He sat down beside Ain, his index finger rubbing the tears that were still standing on his first wife's cheek. Ikram kissed Ain's puffy eyes with all his feelings. He really spilled out all the feelings in his heart. Ikram hugged Ain's body holding him tightly, he just wanted Ain to know that he really loved him.
"What should Umi do?" said Ain with a soft word. Sounded vibrating restraining emotions in the chest.
"Umi does not need to do anything, we just need to be calm and closer to God. Let's both step in to fix everything" said Ikram, who was taken by Ain.
He did not refuse to cry in the arms of the man made his heart feel peaceful. That night, Ain realized his mistake. Ikram according to because he realized that Ain was the person who was most hurt because of his second marriage and he did not want to sow salt on the wounds he made. For that, he always responded to Ain's requests.
Both are dissolved in tafakkur. A long night of prayer begging God for forgiveness. Elsewhere, at the same time Nadia was sitting on her plain prayer mat. Rotating small round objects while chanting dhikr. He begged forgiveness for all the sins he had committed.
Nadia counted one after another each of what she did. Her tears trickled as she recalled the events in her life.
"It is clear that my sins are more, O God. I was getting closer to death, but my charity never increased. Forgive me, O Allah!"
Nadia dropped her head down in prostration. Weeping bitterly regretted everything that had happened. Nadia cried until tired, falling asleep unconsciously on the bed of prayer mats.
Ruby and Bilal, the two children finally stay at Nadia's house. After doing math tasks, Nadia gave them a snack in the form of fruit jelly before going to bed.
Everything that has happened to what is regretted? It is better to live with a sincere heart.