Second Time
KEN-DELAYED
I took Jane to a city park that looked crowded. Actually I hesitated to bring her here, afraid she didn't like it. I was also the first to take a girl to a place like this because I didn't know where to take her anymore, although I have had a lover for a long time, I have never done anything like this because of our busy life and long distance relationship. The thing we used to do the most was eat at a fancy dining venue.
I asked Jane if she'd been to a place like this before. Jane nodded her head, she also liked this place and maybe also liked being with me, I chuckled in my heart because of my own thoughts. Good, which means I'm not too wrong in choosing a place for this impromptu date. Hey, why would I call it an impromptu date?
"Jane."
"Yes?" Jane looked at me.
"Hmmm.. " I was silent for a moment, trying to string up words.
"Why?" He asked again."
"What do you want to eat?" Oh, God, I want to feel like I'm patting my own forehead. I put words in my brain to make a confession of love, but the only words that can come out of my mouth are those, silly.
"I want chicken satay." Jane pointed at one of the carts with a puff of smoke enveloping her not far from our seats.
"Hey, do you like satay?" I chuckle.
"Yes." Yeah." Jane nodded.
"Is there satay in Singapore?"
"Hey, of course, don't you know?"
"No." I'm shaking.
"I'll take you to satay there if you go to Singapore." He chuckles.
"All right."
"So, are we gonna eat that satay?" Jane pointed back at the satay cart.
"Wait here, I'll buy it for you."
"All right." Jane nodded.
"Do you want me to buy it with the wagon? Or with the seller too?" I chuckle.
"You're silly." He just smiled broadly.
I went from my seat to the cart of satay sellers. Ordered two large servings of satay for me and Jane. I came back with two satay plates, I gave one of them to Jane. We ate satay voraciously, I looked a few times at Jane who was busy enjoying her satay. This girl is indeed different, she looks very no problem eating like this, the last time I ever invited her to eat at a simple stall on the side of the road.
I know the origin of Jane's family, she's definitely not from a random family. He comes from a famous conglomerate family. I wasn't spying on her, only that I found out about it when I was first told by Dafa to look for information about Grace.
This girl's lifestyle is not like most conglomerate girls. He looked simple and certainly not arrogant at all. I love his nature, I love his smile, I love when he laughs. Hmmm I like everything about him. But I really don't know how to express it.
"Jane." I looked at Jane.
"Yes?" He turned towards me.
"You're smudged." I chuckled while cleaning the pea sauce stains on her cheeks and lips with my hands.
"I, yes, thank you." Jane looks down her face and stares at the remaining satay plate a little more.
"Jane."
"Yes?"
"Nothing." I shook my head, but I didn't have the guts to express my feelings at all. It seems like my mentality is not ready to hear a word of rejection, yes I know Jane looks ordinary to me, I do not see any interest in me in her eyes.
"Hey, what are you hiding? Is there any sauce on my cheek?" He rubbed his cheeks.
"No, no." I chuckle.
"You sure?"
"Yes, there's nothing here." I cupped both of her cheeks with my hands. My eyes and her eyes met, a split second later I let go of my hand slowly. I feel a little dead style, why would I do that? I'm afraid she's uncomfortable.
"Ken?"
"Yes?"
"Do you like the night?"
"Actually not so."
"Why?" Jane looked at.
"Sometimes I feel a little lonely at night." I chuckle.
"Oh yeah? May I ask you something personal?"
"Please." I'm nodding.
"Where are your parents?"
"They are far across the island."
"really? Why don't you want to come with them if you're lonely?"
"There's something I need to finish here."
"What?"
"Do you really want to know?"
"Yes." Yeah." Jane nodded.
"I have to make sure Dafa gets his happiness back."
"President?"
"Yes." Yeah."
"What happened to the president?"
"He lost his girlfriend a few years ago."
"Mmm, is that right what your friend Adel said at lunch yesterday?"
"Yes." Yeah." I'm nodding.
"Is it true that the president's lover is similar to Grace?"
"Yes." Yeah." I nodded back.
"I thought your friend was just joking."
"No, what Adel said at the time was true."
"Is the president still looking for him?"
"Of course."
"Hmmm, I wonder how the figure of the girl who made the cold president fell in love."
"Yes." Yeah." I nodded
I didn't tell Jane that the girl was Grace, who was very close to her, let Jane know for herself. I'm afraid of making a mess if I talk more, however Jane is Grace's best friend. They could tell each other later.
"Ken?"
"Yes?"
"What about you?"
"What?"
"Do you also have someone special in your life."
"Past or present?"
"both." She smiles.
"Both my parents and my sisters."
"Dafa."
"It turns out the president is on your list of special people in your life." Jane chuckles.
"Yes, I owe him a lot."
"really? What kind of debt?"
"He's been looking after me since I was a kid." I smiled remembering it.
"You've been together since you were little?"
"Yes." Yeah." I'm nodding.
"Great." Jane clapped her little hands.
"We're like brothers."
"Yes, I feel it, your familial bond together looks strong." Jane looked at.
"Do you believe me if I say we're cousins?"
"Of course, you look alike."
"We are cousins." I chuckle.
"So right?"
"Yes." Yeah." I keep nodding.
"You guys are amazing, I'm not that familiar with my cousin." Jane chuckles.
"With Grace?"
"When I am with him, I am very close." Jane laughs.
"Jane?"
"Yes?"
"What about you?"
"What?"
"Do you like the night?" I asked him the same thing.
"Yes, I like it."
"Why?"
"Because at night I have time to miss the people I care about."
"Who do you miss?"
"Both my parents."
"Do you miss them now?"
"Of course I miss, I even plan to go home to Singapore later this month."
"Yes, if you miss, come visit them." I smile.
"I'm actually a little hesitant to go back there."
"Why?"
"You know Liam, don't you?"
"Yes, what's wrong with her?"
"She's getting married early next month, but she's still trying to reach me." Jane smiled wryly.
"Did you still have a taste for Jane?"
"No." She shook her head.
"Why does he keep calling you?"
"He asked me to come back."
"What?" I was a little angry hearing that.
"He's a man who doesn't know himself." Jane chuckles.
"You're not going back to him, are you?"
"Of course not." Jane smiled very wryly.
"Are you coming to their wedding?"
"Let's see, I'm actually really lazy to meet him again."
"Have you been avoiding him all this time?"
"Yes." Yeah." Jane nodded.
"Do you really have no feelings for her anymore, Jane?"
"Yes." Yeah."
"A bit?"
"Not a bit left."
"Jane, if you really don't have any feelings for her anymore, I think you should attend her wedding. Show me that you're okay now without him, you don't keep running away from him. If you keep avoiding him, he'll think that you still love him."
"Hmmm, I'll think about it." He nodded and smiled.
"Do your best for your life, Jane. Never hurt yourself."
"Mmm, thank you Ken."
"I know this might still be hard for you."
"It used to be very difficult for me, but now I don't feel anything anymore."
"You sure?"
"Of course." Jane smiled broadly.
"I don't want you to get hurt back."
"Thank you for worrying about me." Jane smiled back.
"Well, have you finished your meal?"
"It."
"We'd better get home, it's getting late."
"Mmm, what about the plate?" Jane pointed at satay's plate.
"The seller will take it here later."
"Oh is that so?"
"Yes." Yeah." The onepun plate thing is very noticed by this girl, she is indeed very unique.
I finally drove Jane back to her apartment. Not a single expression of feeling came out of my mouth for her tonight. It seems that I have to be more patient with it, there is still time for me to prepare everything until I actually reveal it to this girl. I don't care if he will accept or refuse, I just want to express this feeling that holds me back. Even though the worst possibility was that he rejected me, at least he knew that I was the man who loved him.
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