Second Time

MISTAKES IN THE PAST (5)

I was completely conscious after Defina's departure. I realized how valuable he was, once again I lost my footing. I lost someone I just realized had half my life. He left as if swallowed by the earth, no matter how hard I looked for him I never found him.

I was back down, fragility had taken hold of me. At that time Andres also had trouble to calm me back. I knew it was obviously my fault, it was very clear it was a ruin I made myself. I cursed what I had done, I cursed myself who had done so foolishly.

Everyone says, after a loss, there is regret. It was the only thing I felt now, a sense of loss and regret danced in my heart and mind. Once again time and circumstances back to make me battered. Defina never came back, she really left me. A bottle of yogurt was the last memory he left me.

I am trained to live my life again, with all the remnants of memories left behind. I continued to live by constantly trying to find Defina's whereabouts. I have faith that one day I will find him.

Dad has given the holding company here to lead me because I have a very good achievement in the company. I chose Andres to lead the subsidiary that I left behind, because I think only Andres deserves the leadership seat there.

The unexpected happened, a kid I thought was the most ridiculous came back to my life. Ken with a witty smile that expands back to meet me. He even said that he would stay here with me. The boy was indeed very unpredictable, he suddenly came back after he had left me. And he came back at the right time.

Ken's presence makes things change again, slowly he makes me able to smile back with his silly behavior and thoughts. The spirit of life slowly began to seep out from within me. I and Ken became inseparable again, just like we used to be when we were kids.

I told Ken everything even though I knew a little bit he must have known it. Ken helped with all my business, solved all my problems swiftly, except for Defina. Ken couldn't find it at all.

After Ken's arrival I'll admit that things got better. My mood is more controllable, the emotions that used to appear unexpected are now muffled. He always tried to encourage my life even in very strange ways.

"Ken?"

"What?"

"Why are you back?"

"Do you want an honest answer or a lie?"

"Honest."

"Hmm, I asked my mother to keep looking after you. You know that I could never refuse mother's request."

"Body me?"

"Yes." Yeah." Ken nodded with certainty.

"Tell your mother that as long as I'm with you first I'm the one who's always looking after you, how can you take care of me now?"

"Hey, that was. Look at me now, I've grown perfectly, I can even be your bodyguard." He chuckles.

"Hmm." I just cleared my throat, indeed if I see him now he really grows physically he looks very changed from a skinny little boy to a man with an ideal height and muscular. Although I don't think his mind and mind are very developed, he still looks childish and silly.

"Is that just your response, huh?"

"What do you want my response to."

"You should be amazed to see me."

"No, it's normal."

"I'm not cool "

"Hmm." I came back just chortling.

"Daf?"

"What?"

"I have some requests, please grant?" Does Ken think I'm a wish-granting genie.

"What's that?"

"Help me to look firm and cold in the office."

"What?" I was overwhelmed by what Ken said.

"Why?" Ken grunting.

"Ken, do you know how bad your childish nature is? How could you possibly be so firm and cold." I keep getting up.

"Hey, I'll just pretend, I'll get used to it."

"Ken, don't be silly."

"I mean it, Daf."

"What do you want to achieve with that?"

"I just want the office people to be disinclined against me so they won't be displeased."

"Huh, is that an imaging?"

"Hmm, you could say that." He chuckles.

"Without you acting like that no one would dare to be as willing as you are, your position is obviously very high."

"Oh come on Daf, high office is not a guarantee I will be disinclined."

"Alright, behave as you want Ken to."

"What should I help you with?"

"I'll call you master, as if you and I were really leaders with a secretary with no sibling ties."

"Continue?"

"Don't make me joke in public and don't lure me into acting silly. You know I can't stand to laugh or make silly comments on something even a dime."

"What else?"

"That's it."

"You're really silly, are we gonna play the drama of life?"

"Yes, of course. I'm gonna be the lead, you're just the escort."

"Hey, I'm the lead, you're the escort."

"Isn't this meant for my life? Then I'm the one who's gonna be the lead."

"Can't."

"Why?"

"I'm a president, and you're a secretary. I must always be in the spotlight."

"You're just a figurehead, a supporting cast for my life story."

"Ken."

"What?"

"I'm the main character." I'm starting to get upset.

"No."

"Suell up." I'm tired of arguing.

Why did Ken and I fuss over something so insignificant. The main and companion cast? Ah whatever, want to be the main character or figure we both stay alive. We are both pursuing what we want to achieve. Actually we are the main character in our own lives, although maybe we are a figure in the lives of others. So, try your best to live your own life without disturbing the lives of others. I thought back to Defina, if I was given the chance to meet her again I would do my best for her life, no matter what happened and whatever happens.

"Sorry."

"Hmm."

"Don't do anything stupid like your heart."

"What stupid thing?"

"The thing that makes you lose something you just realized is worth it after he's gone."

"Yes, I'm so sorry."

"Never break your heart again just because of ego."

"Yes, that's a mistake I'm really sorry about."

"Look at you now, you look so messy." Ken chuckles.

"At least I'm a little better now."

"Live always well, Daf."

"Thank you, Ken."

"Don't fall again."

"Hopefully." I smiled wryly, I kept hoping, but even now my heart still continued to fall.

"Hmm, I will always help you, Daf."

"Ken, why are you so serious? where is your childish nature? Is he hiding now?" I chuckle.

"Huh, Dafa is impudent, even though I have spoken words of wisdom, but you still mocked me."

"Forward those wise words of yours, I want to hear them." I'm snapped.

"No, my words of wisdom suddenly disappeared from the brain." Ken grunting.

I'm getting excited about Ken's words, I told you he's always been silly up until now. However, that is what makes me feel grateful for his presence. Ken is like my own brother, our close relationship can no longer be loosened.

Ken really never left me. He who keeps trying to be next to me until now, until Defina back with the figure of Grace. The same person but with different things. Now Ken bears witness to how foolishness and silliness possessed me when I met Defina again.

Defina was the last person I saw in the rain and Grace was the first to have my heart beat again since our first meeting. The riddle of his life began to straddle, little by little I began to find out what happened to him. I promise with everything I have to hold her hand.

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