Second Time

JANE-FEELINGS FOR SECRETARY KEN

I just got off the floor of Grace's apartment, and I was visiting her after work. We made a cake together until it didn't feel like the night had come. I went back to my apartment, cleaned myself up and changed clothes filled with flour stains. Grace is always nosy, if there is a chance she will throw me with flour which of course I also reciprocate her actions, as a result this is how it becomes.

I finished taking a bath and wearing sleeping pajamas, the night was not too late but I had no activities so I decided to just lay myself in bed. Enjoying solitude while imagining a beautiful future, I sometimes smile to myself in my imagination. I think imagining something beautiful is one way to entertain yourself.

I miss my parents a little bit, I haven't been back to Singapore in months. This place is fun, nothing bothers me so it feels calm to be here. But the longing also made me want to go home, meet my parents and tell them a lot of things. I plan to return to Singapore at the end of the month.

I got out of bed and sat on the couch, I turned on the television but there was nothing interesting at all. I'm messing around tonight, I just want to go back to Grace's apartment. I decided to call Grace to ask her if she's asleep or not.

"Hello, Grace."

"Yes, Jane?"

"Are you going to sleep?"

"A little while." He was heard yawning several times, it seemed like he was already sleepy when it was not too late.

"Mmm, sleep Grace."

"Yes." Yeah."

I hung up the phone, the boy sometimes sleeps fast if there is no activity. Unlike me, I stay up more on holiday nights. Tomorrow I'll sleep for most of the day. Everyone has their own way of enjoying the holidays and that's my way.

I went back to bed, and suddenly Ken appeared in my head. I smiled remembering her cheerful smile to me. That man was one of the people who made my days feel good just because of his smile. I felt a strange feeling in me from the beginning knowing him, a feeling I always ignored because I thought it was not any feeling.

It turned out that the more days I felt that way, the more strange and uncontrollable it became. I've always tried to be normal all this time. But my heart cannot be reconciled when I meet that man. Huh, it seems like I fell for him, it's just that I was always trying to suppress my feelings from being seen at all. Oh Jane, why do you have to fall for a man as perfect as him? Aren't you afraid of getting hurt again? I argue with my own mind.

As if not heartbroken, my heart seemed to insist on falling in love with that secretary. A handsome secretary who might not even be interested in me. O heart, be wise in choosing because if you get hurt again I will not forgive you, just beware.

I realized when my phone rang, I stared at the name on the phone screen. The name of the person I just thought of, Ken's secretary. I slowly touched the receive button, and put my phone in my ear.

He asked me where I was, for some reason I didn't know either. I replied that I was in the apartment. That guy was always weird, the last time he called me just to say good-bye.

"Go to the balcony."

Ken told me to go out onto the balcony and I foolishly followed what he said. I got out of the bed and opened the balcony door, the night wind immediately greeted my face gently. I stood on the balcony and stared at the sky full of stars.

"Ken, I've been following your words. Now what should I do? Did you tell me to look at the stars?" I said on the phone.

"Don't look up at the sky, look down at seven."

I looked down at seven o'clock Ken said. I gawked at the handsome man in front of my apartment building standing next to his car and waved his hand at me. I took my consciousness and reflexively smiled at him, I don't know why I smiled at him either. Ken looked back at my smile, he smiled very sweetly at me. For a moment I thought, why is he here? Hey, does this guy know that I was thinking about him?

I admit I was so happy to see her tonight, she was seen shining among the bright garden lights.

"Wait there." I raised my voice on the phone and closed it.

I rushed back inside and locked the balcony door. I changed clothes quickly and took a short stand. About fifteen minutes passed, I quickly got out of the apartment and got into the elevator to get down to the ground floor. I don't want to make Ken wait too long.

"Ken, what are you doing here?" I hope to get a pleasant answer from him.

"I'm waiting for you." He smiled after saying that word, oh God my heart is pounding faster and faster.

"Why?" I tried to speak as calmly as possible, hiding my excitement.

"What's wrong, are you busy tonight?"

"No." I shook my head, actually I was busy, busy thinking about you, master secretary.

"Will you take a little walk with me?"

"You." I nodded quickly. Hey, why am I so silly? Why did I say I wanted to? Why didn't I ask where I was going first? It must have seemed so obvious that I really wanted to go for a walk with him.

Rice has become porridge, let me look silly in front of him. Didn't I always do silly things in front of him from the beginning. Ken pulled my hand and opened the car door for me, his lips never stopping smiling.

I said, I went in and sat down at the steering wheel. Ken got in and sat in the steering wheel, and he drove his car out of the apartment. I don't know where he's taking me I don't know either.

Ken parked his car in a park that looked very crowded. He took me down, and started mingling with the people who were on the move here. Either just for a walk and relax or to find a fortune. Ken took me to sit in a garden chair a little away from the crowd.

"Jane."

"Yes?"

"Have you ever been on a walk in a place like this?"

"Sometimes." I'm nodding.

"Are you happy?" Ken asked me, happy what does that mean? Happy to be here or happy to be with him?

"Yes." Yeah." I nodded, the safest answer.

"Jane."

"Yes?"

"Hmmm.." Ken was silent for a moment.

"Why?" I'm curious.

"What do you want to eat?"

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