Restore Your Smile

Inner Struggles (2)

At about 12:00, Andreas re-entered his son's study. Without much ado, he immediately asked, "How? Is the presentation ready?"

"Already, Pa .." replied Darrell still with the files he had to check in his hand.

"good. We will leave together from here at around four in the afternoon, "Andreas continued.

"okay." Darrell's typical short answer is back.

Andreas is stunned to see his son's attitude that is too focused on work like a workaholic. "Have you eaten?" tanyakanya.

"Not yet, " replied Darrell with his eyes still glued to the file.

"Eat, Son .... Do not forget to eat continue to get stomach ulcers or what ...." Andreas counsels his son.

"Yes .... End this ...."

Andreas sighed. "It's up to you, son .... You're a big boy, you can take care of yourself. What you have to remind here, Papa does not want to hear your presentation interrupted for reasons of illness and the like well ...." After saying that, Andreas left Darrell's study.

Replace the silent Darrell. His hand stopped. That reason again. Again he was reminded that his father's dream was so important.

His passion to continue his responsible work, so eroded. Darrell also cleared his desk. Please .... Find a meal .. he thought he took himself to heart. At least he is not blamed if anything happens that is out of his will.

Laziness melanda. There is no appetite. Just eat, enough right? Implied in his mind was the office canteen. There he just took the menu presented today, without the need to choose again.

With that in mind, Darrell went to the office cafeteria. With his style of watering he queued up to take food, then circulated his gaze to find a table that was still empty.

Its striking presence again makes the atmosphere of the canteen change. Especially when the employees find out that the Director is looking for a table.

There are female employees who hope in their hearts, that Darrell will join them. But many employees also hope that his desk should not be approached Darrell for his inner peace. But still no one dared to offer to invite Darrell to join.

Until Darrell finally saw an empty table around the corner of the room. On the way there, across the table was Celine and her division employees enjoying lunch together.

Their eyes meet. Celine smiled and nodded her head in lieu of greetings. Darrell nodded his head to reply. It was only there that the interaction took place between them. Celine no longer came to him or invited him to join her desk. Darrell smiles. Isn't that what he wanted from their last conversation in the cafeteria?

Darrell sat down and started to enjoy his meal. In silence, he began to hear laughter from across his desk. Unknowingly he glanced there. A warm familial atmosphere occurred at the table, between Celine and her men.

Reflexes, he also circulated his gaze around the canteen to satisfy the curiosity that was suddenly implied in his mind. He just realized, the director in the cafeteria right now is just the two of them.

Given the atmosphere of the cafeteria that suddenly changed upon his arrival, it could be concluded that the employees here were already accustomed to the presence of Celine. Maybe it was just Celine, the director who mingled with the employees to enjoy lunch here.

Compare with himself. Even though he was sitting alone, still the atmosphere of the tables around him was affected. The employees sitting there looked nervous while eating their meals. Their occasional glances led to him, clearly showing who was the cause of their behavior.

He must admit that Celine is a good girl and leader. His friendly attitude made people comfortable being around him. No wonder there are people who are loyal to him. Compared to him, were any of his men really loyal to him?

Suddenly he remembered a loyal person who could even be called a fanatic Celine. Who else if not the Cat Girl. Unknowingly Darrell smiled. It was only fitting that the girl defended Celine desperately. If Celine's attitude has been like this to people who are not too close or different status with her, let alone her attitude towards her friends? No wonder the Cat Girl is crazy.

He was suddenly stunned to realize one more thing might happen in front of him. How would the Cat Girl behave to Cecilia if she finally managed to shift Celine? They just made up.

He remembered Cecilia's sad face which implied pain when he found out that he was not invited by his friends to go to the mall, and how they just looked as if they did not know each other. She also recalled how her lover tried to hold back the happy tears when she saw the three friends present at their engagement party.

Cecilia did not complain about him. The girl chose to hold it herself. Perhaps Cecilia did not want to burden him and wanted to keep her feelings.

But ... What about him? Does he want to keep the girl feeling? Or is he acting like he was before by pretending not to know? Since the beginning he has explained all the consequences that Cecilia must bear if she chooses him, right?

So, will he let his lover fall again because the friendship that returned tapered? If you look at Rebecca's style, it's very possible. He still vividly remembers the girl's words on the day of her engagement. Rebecca emphatically uses the word 'double' which indicates Cecilia will be affected (see eps 172 - Darrell's betrothed 2 ).

Darrell smiled bitterly at her. He realized how selfish and cowardly he was. He allowed Cecilia to sacrifice herself under the pretext that it was the girl's own choice.

But as a man, what has he really given and sacrificed for the girl? There ain't! He just cradled Cecilia with sweet attitude and sweet words.

Instead, what he had done was to paint the girl's surname for her own sake. At his presentation that he prepared today, the name of the girl's family was already involved. How he will spread the company's wings all the way to the city of B, a place where his beloved family has a big name and power. It is simply done to make the shareholders more confident.

To be honest, what did he give with what he had received from Cecilia? Is fair? Is this the relationship he wants? Relationships based solely on profit-loss considerations?

Heart hurts. Suppose he had more courage to oppose his father. Suppose he had the courage to choose his own destiny and life. Could things be better? Could it be that not many people would be hurt?

Indeed, he is too afraid to return to his past life, where he did not know his father and lived with shortcomings. He was afraid that if he failed his father, he would be banished.

Suddenly Darrell was stunned. Did ya? Is that his father? Did his father really throw it away? Wasn't it just his father who loved him? Never once had his father hurt his heart since they were introduced as father-son by his mother. Why did he doubt his father's love for him?

Darrell clenched his hands, clenched his jaws, and gritted his teeth. Soon he finished his meal even though there was still something left on his plate. He must act while he has the courage and before his decision changes.

In a hurry, Darrell stood up and carried his tray to the tray. He did not care even if his actions attracted the attention of people in the cafeteria, including Celine. In his head there was only one goal, meeting his father.

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