Part of me

Unostentatious

I think that I myself am sometimes simple but sometimes luxurious. My life is in love and loving. The proof of their love and affection is me now. I am spoiled and immature enough in mind yet mature in age.

The simplicity of me that makes some people so captivated and also become envious. Some of them also even tried to knock me down in the sweet darkness for a moment. I once walked into the abyss of disappointment that still leaves a deep pain and a great trauma. Until I smiled through the physical while my mind and heart were still in great disappointment.

I who was initially easy to believe now became a suspicious me. I was initially honest now sometimes lie because who should I believe? which is truly sincere? and how can one keep my heart from getting hurt again?

Baffled. That's what I feel when I think about it or think about it.

I also once thought that life was boring while the reality was not that boring. I began to understand that adulthood is not seen through age but from the mindset and flow of life that everyone has gone through. I who was often pampered also have a childish attitude. But I also have a capable mindset and I always prepare for good and bad, succeed and fail. I had a bad experience of being overconfident - failure - and from there I learned to prepare for the worst of possibilities even if it ate up my own self-confidence.

I understand a little that life is not dependent on others but on self.

If you're saying that I'm a child and I don't understand the pain of being killed by someone I love, I just know how I like it? Haha funny. Of love? Likey? Two? Loving, I've loved someone, but I've told you in previous episodes, right? Love and love are similar but different. Huft don't be in the two of me ever betrayed even from the 5sd class I've betrayed my friend who was originally my best friend. Pitted against the waves, in slander even I was once exiled by them. Don't tell me that I was never betrayed or cheated on. I say being betrayed by your own best friend, by someone close to you or by your lover is just as sick! I say again with more clarity that it hurts! No matter if he is a friend, friend or lover if we have a relationship with him, the so-called betrayed is sick.

I have been disappointed and often disappointed but I try hard sincere although often complain not even rarely think to end. I may be the little boy in your eyes doesn't understand how you feel. I say it's wrong even if I'm a child or a child but I'm outside the house not me in the house. Like my grief, I am quiet but to be honest if my little heart has hurt even my chest is tight I give up and tell it to my mother or anyone I know. Not once twice have I told you the same thing maybe until they got bored and lazy to listen I might even start hating me I don't really care anymore. Wh why? Because they just want to know, not care. I just want to fulfill their desire to know more.

Since 3sd class every school I always cry sulking because I have no friends for group work. Until finally I was told to make my own he said so that the value I have is greater than them. Maybe it's true but since then I didn't have confidence when asked to work the group because I must be myself again and I know that. Although in groups I do not want to be a burden because I choose to be alone rather than a burden on others. I'd rather accept the fact that I'm not the same as them. I felt unwanted there. So why am I in it?

It's enough when I play without your vehicle refusing to take me that's enough to hurt my little heart. That's more than enough to make me not want to wish on anyone in the world because I know everything must be a lie. I prefer proof over promises and sweet words of man let alone man.

I am tired but I have to be excited because there are still people I have to be happy with.

I can see the stars but I can't hold and take them, like I love you but I can't reach you because you're far away.

Your heart is not there for me yet.

Sometimes we also need distance in order to understand the true taste. Such as words that need space in order to be able to read well.

For you who always ask for excuses and demand answers; excuses...

Reason is something you take when you refuse or respond, to do something and reason is also the basis of what we do.

Just as birth does not make you a great person, try to determine it. Many people are born into rich families but not necessarily they will be great people. All things need a process, all need sacrifice and all need a spirit from both within yourself and outsiders.

Maybe someone has a destiny to be a great person but to be a great person itself needs to face the trials first some are difficult, some are easy, and sometimes some are very easy, some are very easy, there are even very difficult. It all depends on how we judge our journey if we think it is difficult then it will be difficult but if we consider it easy then it will be easy. Why so? what we think will be what we do. No matter how hard you do something, but if you think it's easy, then everything will be easy depending on how you feel what you say and what you do all not out of the creator's observation. You can lie to everyone around you to yourself but you can't lie to your creator.

I'm just the simple one, having some problems because of the person who envies me. I'm the one who's silent they hate me. What would they do if I kept talking? I'm tired, I'm bored but I have to stay excited why because there are people who support me, there are people who still love me maybe even love me even though I don't know where he is at the moment? what are? and what does he feel? I tried to think positively about eliminating everything I felt even though it was difficult at first but I believed that everything would be fine because my creator made this path because he believed that I was capable of carrying it out.

I'm not sure when I'll be leaving. I can't believe that everyone likes me. I never even trusted the people around me. And here I am with my simplicity and my story