Part of me

Helpless

I don't know what to do, at a time like this my heart does feel sorry but I don't know what and how to make everything good.

I feel sorry but I can't really show it.

I may look heartless but how should I behave? I don't know. I was confused and worried to see my mother sick I could only do what she told me to do but could not show concern for her.

Sad to see someone else who told me to take care of him.

What can I do?

I'm trained to pretend to show emotion. I'm not used to having to show what I'm supposed to. I may be baper (brought feelings) when telling stories about my personal life but to show emotions to others is a bit difficult because I sometimes choose to harbor feelings that I feel.

I am too afraid to show my emotions at certain times even not infrequently I feel bad when it comes to good and evil behavior.

I'm powerless. Totally helpless when it comes to being alien to those closest to me. Not once did I feel alone when I was in a crowd.

I know it's hard for me to join the outside world but I don't want solitude either.

I want to live in peace without worrying that I will be left alone.

Sad, scared and disappointed as if to haunt my mind, make me look for a place that can give me what I want.

What am I looking for?

There is a hug I miss...

There is a heart that continues to adore...

There is a puja that is difficult to say through speech...

There is a 3-word sentence with a thousand flavors of "Dad I Miss"

If you ask me what I want. Just one answer for now I want his warm embrace. Not a sneer or scorn that continues to ring like a mosquito that continues to buzz near the ear.

There are a thousand stories in 12 years of school.

About romance, insults, insults, life that goes up and down like a road to the hill, there is a dike at a difficult time if it turns around then it falls if it is pierced forward wound there is no better choice but at least forward more reliable because it will not necessarily fail. But if you turn around, be sure to fall and enter the abyss of death because of a desperate decision.

Easy to say difficult to live but underestimated when it has happened and has been passed without thinking what to do if it repeats?!.

Being careless and reckless in taking action is not a good thing because there is a law of cause and effect that will occur either yourself or his descendants in the future.

Envy and hate are the reasons for not being able to accept what he should be grateful for.

Coming or going without permission is like a headscarf being surrounded with crime and personal grudges involving others to get what they want without looking at it let alone caring.

Right or wrong is no longer a provision but who has more then he will be the winner.

Let alone 2 twin hills attached to the body even ghost hauntings become more often heard.