Part of me
May You Be Happy
Part of me may be you but how far you're anchored still depends on the sacrifice of love and affection you've made.
Many things that happen after our meeting that have passed more than three years two months 11 days we have been apart for these few years may be many changes to ourselves that we do not know so I try my best.
May the struggle we have been doing all this time bear fruit for the future between you and me or you and him.
Not much for me, just want you to be happy with me or with her.
I secretly pray that we can be together for a long time if allowed to live and die together.
I don't want you to know that I love you because I'm afraid it's going to be a burden on your life.
Honestly, even though I pretended to be in a very good state when I saw you with him, my heart was broken into pieces and this self cried in silence.
Crying in silence may sound ironic but crying in silence lets me feel that not everything should be expressed.
What is the point of crying in silence?
He won't know!
He won't understand what you're feeling.
So for what?
Why are you crying for her?
You know crying is useless.
How can it be useful, because after all he doesn't know your heart, he doesn't even know what you're feeling.
Just meeting with you he now turns his face as if to say that we are not as close as before.
Don't think too much that he will always be there for you because in his life there is not only you but there is him, he and they may even have a lot of things hidden from you but it's okay enough that even if he only told you once or twice doesn't mean you're special in him.
He was with me for about four or 5 years but it was enough for me to be grateful that he was willing to accompany me in my precious days.
It's a little bit understandable maybe we won't be together anymore but I hope you realize that I'm always with you.
Right now the lover in my baby is only you.
I never thought about other men, whether in front of you or behind you all I think about is you my beloved man who has now moved his heart on the grounds that he is not perfect enough for me to think like the sun.
The sun?!
Some kind of shopping place?
No, the sun here is what gives warmth in the distance and gives a wound when it is too close.
Somehow he could think so but I tried to convince myself that those were just words he said when he was emotional or he was drunk.
Drunken up?!
Drunk in love with him who now accompanies him.
He made you leave me alone in unparalleled pain.
It was myself that scared me even traumatized by the presence of another man by my side. I'm afraid they'll be just like you will be gone too in time.
Go leave me in a deep fear that makes me a loser and maybe even a real coward.
I hope you are happy with your choice and I will try to forget that you are also looking for the right place and time to let go of everything, looking for a shoulder that is ready to support me, a shoulder that can help me share the burden together to be my male companion.
^^^^^Warm salam,^^^^^
^^^Tangerang, 06 Apr 2023^^^
^^^Pemuja^^
