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About Me2

I almost forgot to introduce myself I am the one who is close to you but also far from you. I'm almost 19 and I'm out of high school soon. I like to play, travel and sometimes I like art. What I hate is traitors.

Please betray me or not to death I will remember you.

Almost 8th I live without Dad. 8th anyway I often inner conflicts I often cry before falling asleep I often wish the best for myself.

In this 8th has been a lot of things that happened from accidents while learning to ride a motorcycle, accidents when I came home from play, accidents due to running out of gas, associations that make me change, and, the path of life that makes me not want to continue to be denigrated, I who always give up for him, I who am disappointed, I who go without direction, I who go without direction, I wanted to leave home angry but didn't know where to go,.

Will anyone care about me out there?! I am always looking for affection and the figure of a father, I am always looking for attention from teachers at school and I am thirsty for the affection of a father.

I'm trying to be nice but you're telling me imagery, I'm honest but you're lying, I'm the one you betrayed, the one you've never appreciated, the one you've always been an enemy of, I'm the one you've always been, I am the one you consider a threat, I must fight to gain your trust but you are wasted.

Now that I am tired, I will stop fighting and hope that you will accept me, I will wait for the current where you look for me and make you depend on me. I don't care if you betray me again if you accept me but I'll say maybe you'll be shocked and don't recognize me. Whyyy?! because I was prepared for the worst possibility of being betrayed again. Although I might be hurt even more, I just hope you realize that I am still there for you even if you behave like that.

And REMEMBER I said in the beginning that I don't like being betrayed! then your own responsibility as a result of the traitor you have committed...

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I have something special with myself whether it's a feeling or a mindset. I'm a man who has a habit of governing but doesn't like to be ruled. I'm easily close to anyone and can take people's hearts my way. My weakness is too good and feeling, when I treat people as I like I always look for ways that he can forgive me. I'm the one who always thinks that if I do that, I'm sure that what I plant will be harvested, every action I do has a reward. Whether to be reciprocated in the world or in the hereafter depends on your heart.

I once wanted something that others thought might be strange but I thought it was a gift. I want to know who I am in the past or in the future.

I don't know what I was like in my past life, all I know is that I've seen one big black tiger and there are many smaller ones that look like its followers and one big green snake. They seemed to protect my family, and I once went somewhere and saw a man standing near a tree, just say like a swordsman. I say they're all supernatural beings who show themselves to me. The swordsman came home with me somehow I don't know. Two animals protect my family one warrior protects me wherever I go.

Before and after her, I also often de javu, I often speak the origin but it is true, he said, I was often surprised by myself as if I had been to their place but in fact I had never been there.

In the end I told them what happened to me, I don't forget to apologize first for accidentally hitting him luckily just reflex power is not like when I was angry if it's not possible his nose bone has been broken, hehe.

After I finished telling my friend, whose hand I was holding, said that he had gone to that place before. Ah yes I forgot to say that my sick friend did not like to take medicine, but after that he recovered the next day.

I suffered from fear at night, because the night I dreamed of going in there again and seeing my sick friend being held captive by a black creature that I did not know what but after I approached and pulled my friend to run away and scream so that he keeps running because what the black creature wants is not me.

And then what happened?

And yes after that I was woken up by my mother for screaming indistinctly in the middle of the night and while sleeping.

Mm the other reason mom woke me up is because of the noise. Hehe I still sleep with my mother because sleeping alone in this cold place makes me uncomfortable because I have an allergy to the cold that can make me bump like a mosquito bite but a lot and in certain areas here is usually called gabag.

After I woke up, I just said that I had a dream on my mother and was pensive for a while and then fell asleep again without realizing it. I'm lucky my mom woke me up at the right moment when I was scared. If I didn't know what was going to happen, maybe I would have been hurt mentally rather than physically. Mm maybe more precisely my wounded soul and probably going to swap places with my friend who was taken prisoner.

I have not said that I often sleep talking even when I sleepwalk when my father is still alive, I sleep with my father and mother. It just so happened that mom wasn't in my room I just slept with dad. When I wanted to walk to the exit of the house, Dad asked me where to go? he said I was talking about someone waiting for me outside. Then he said he told me to go back to sleep and I went back to sleep and let the ones outside go home.

While when I woke up the next morning I did not remember anything I remembered just dreaming that I was playing with someone it was not much.

Sometimes I feel like I am out of my control. I look back on some events, I feel I wasn't me when I was unconscious.

It is I who am astonished at myself.