Part of me

Plea

God, I'm sick of it right now, I'm tired.

I was caught up in a problem that even I had never thought of before.

I don't know if I don't even understand how to solve it but honestly I feel confused, how can I go back? Yep. Back in time before I became greedy about all this.

I know I was wrong but to be honest I wanted to choose to go back on the road before. Where I'm still holy and fine.

Sacred in my mind, words, and deeds.

Lord, I ask you very much for help...

Please bring me back to a stage where I have not been as greedy and selfish.

Bring me to be a good girl, please make me a role model for my children in the future.

I don't want to be a bad example for him, so help me so I can accept him in my own way.

Even though he and I are not really close yet, in a while he will be my husband as my companion.

Sometimes I feel that this is a dream and I want to wake up so that I don't go too high and fall with deep wounds.

Unfortunately, this is not a dream.

It's real, real until I feel like it's really not what I think it is.

Few feel disappointed that this is not a dream but also few expect that this is real but it is still hard to believe that everything happened so quickly.

God was so good to me that I felt my life was too luxurious before I got entangled in a mistake that I could not yet make up for.

I'm afraid I'm also worried about all this stuff going on.

Ready to accept me with thousands or even millions of my insolent attitude that still have to and need the help of others to fix it.

God please help me to the one time I don't want to be brash but I'm running out of ways and thoughts...

I know I'm selfish but I'm really stuck right now I'm so scared I'm just trying to find a way I feel confused.

I knew at first I was too greedy to cause trouble for myself already a lot I went through because of my greed if I could after this was done I did not want to go back to this position because of me scared, so scared that I couldn't think clearly.

Of the many words that I wrote all is my complaint even this is not a story but the pain that I feel.

I didn't expect it to be popular but sometimes I dreamed that it would be amazing in the future because it made me a writer in my name.

I thank you and thank You,.

God did this, my parents made me tell you a lot of things, people around me who sometimes make me depressed and readers who impress me because they want to read silly reading that I write with no thought let alone deep estimates.

This writing is just an indisputable feeling in the real world, an unresolved difficulty in life, an unfinished story here.

See you next time, may you be able and willing to take care of me in your own way.

I thank you and apologize for what happened before and after I wrote.

^^^Sekian,^^^

^^^Wasalam^^

^^^Author^^^