Part of me

Only replacement

I'm not as smart as him..

I know and I understand.

What was I like?!

I'm not like him!

I'm so different from him!

But why is he always the one who takes precedence?

And I'm the one at the duakan number!

I know that I'm not as good as him.

I understand my achievements and he sometimes just exchanged my number 6 he 3 and I 3 he 6 like that keep changing and exchanging sometimes it feels like parting with him for not wanting to be the samesame thing.

Want to live to be yourself, not to be the shadow of others or covered by other shadows. I want to be perceived as existing, want to feel appreciated, and want my existence to be recognized.

Tired if you have to be a substitute role continuously.

Constantly being a substitute for my little heart felt sad.

I can't be myself because of it.

Disappointed?

I am obviously disappointed!

Why can't I be myself?

He and I are clearly different.

I belong to me Not him.

I don't want to be equated.

I don't want to be in his shadow!

I'm weary...

I want to feel far away from him.

I don't want to be her shadow or I don't want to shadow her but it's like I'm her shadow. Like I'm the cause of everything.

I'm sad.

I'm disappointed.

I'm desperate.

I feel alone.

I don't want to be him because I'm not him!

Please appreciate me!

I don't want to keep crying because it keeps being overshadowed by her shadow.

I know there may be similarities between me and him but I'M NOT HIM!

YES I'M NOT HIM!

I am me!

And he is him!

I'm tired if I keep going like this maybe I won't be myself, I'll be the other person you want to be, not me.

My existence means nothing to you. He is me and I am him.

Sad, disappointed, hurt.

How impressive! I was constantly compared to him as if I were someone else.

Haha...

I can't believe I'm crying about this ridiculous thing. But honestly I don't want to be compared or in the same because I want to be me.

I want to be me in my own way.

I want to live as me.

Not as someone else though indeed if I make a mistake and I considered him then he is blamed not me but it hurts if I do something good but he who gets the thing iwant.

Disappointed!

I'm really disappointed.

I don't want to feel like I'm staying here.

Want to go where no one knows that it's me and make my own name.

I want it to change my look.

I want to change myself.

I want to change everything that's the same as him.

I'm tired, really tired because it continues in the same right.

I was just a substitute when he wasn't around but nobody replaced me when I wasn't around, nobody missed me because there was him because I've never been considered.

Haha...

Funny when I hope my existence is something that others want but in fact my existence is nothing.

I want when I'm not there they're looking for me, asking where I am but everything is like dust nobody's looking for me, when I went missing no one asked me when I wasn't around.

It's obvious that I look tired because I'm really disappointed and really not expected.

My mind is empty, my soul is not completely with my body. I am like a puppet with life. Walk as desired by others. If anyone tells me to stop then I stop if told to be quiet then shut up.

Haha...

I am really disappointed!

Tired of continuing like this.

If you have to continue being a substitute role, it's better to just get rid of my feelings. So that I can say everything without thinking about the feelings or moods of others.

I'm tired enough to stay here with her identity. Want me to go far away to a quiet place without any interference from the outside world. I want to live in a place where I am free to express my opinions and be respected. Quite short but difficult to understand. A request like this is like wanting to kill yourself but not wanting to die. Do you realize there are still many things that have not been done or because you realize you still have many sins?!

Haha...

YOU'RE ALL AJIG'S HYPOCRITES!

AM I TOO NAIVE THAT YOU KEEP GETTING HURT?!

I'M TIRED!

WANT REST!

DON'T WANT TO BE DISTURBED BY YOUR PROBLEMS ANYMORE!

YOU'RE AJIG! BASAT!

NO ONE REALLY KNOWS ME!

BUT I WANT TO UNDERSTAND!

NO, NOT AKHLAK!

I HATE YOU GUYS!

TEMEN EAT TEMEN!

BASAT!

I DON'T WANT TO BE A SUBSTITUTE!

I WANT TO BE MYSELF!

I DON'T WANT THE IDENTITY OF LU AJIG!

I WANT MY OWN IDENTITY!

DON'T WANT TO BE EQUALLY OR COMPARED!

YOU'RE ALL BASAT!

I HATE!

I'm tired of having to be someone else.

I miss dad, I want to be hugged, I want to be watched, I also want to be loved, stroked his head. No papa kok klo is called a kitten as long as it feels noticed.

I want to cry but I need a backrest.

Mom try to give me a little subtlety.

Don't keep snapping me with educational reasons!

Mom from you know yes I also want to be hugged on someone else's cake.

I want to understand how it feels to be given something like a hug without having to ask. My mother wants to frown on your subtlety. I know you in your childhood were educated in that way, but I beg you this is different times. Not you give me a sport but there you make me down as if I'm constantly wrong in your eyes.

Okay I accept your high notes, but why when I accidentally use that high note to you I get scolded?! Whyyy?! I'm just following your way, but I'm wrong.

Whereabouts? Where is my mistake? I'm just adapting to you. I just followed you. I do not want to make you disappointed or hurt by my words. I also don't want to be called a bad boy.

Please understand me for a moment. You know that I am often alone and not infrequently alone because for me what is the point in going to the crowd if I keep my own ends?

I myself, the same alesannya cake I make this story is not too much intention to make this story into the top story, because I know the plot is not clear, the writing is like gur, gur, and also up her as I wish. No one asked to make a spit-up.

I don't think I have to write the plot to how, yes it's up to me later, I don't think what the impression of the readers even though I like if there are comments, like even vote my work.

I'm not complicated if they don't want to read it already papa it's your right, don't want to like, like, comments or votes do not matter you have read it can make the popularity of my story rise little by little. Yes, I have to ask you, whine so much, even cry before you guys?! Sorry is yes. In my mind, everything goes according to a predetermined destiny.

I have asked for help to share, like and comment on my story to my friends. Because I hesitated I asked to delete it back but said he did not papa already in share. Yes, it's the rice is already a porridge ngapain bothered too, which is already a lot of harm to me this ...

Haha..

As long as the profit does not matter but if it causes a loss, hold the answer to it is not difficult either. He can take care or not at least not destroy the order of my life in the future.