Not Ordinary Love

Secret Dating (3)

AIRIN

I wonder why Devid's changed again. Although not like anger and hate. But he used to shut me up a lot. Sometimes even seem to avoid me.

There are times when she looks very warm, attentive and in love. But he could suddenly become cold again. Especially if you get to the bed. Initially so eager to quickly could have stayed away. Sometimes I would fish and tease him. Although we finally did it, at first he was like trying to survive not being provoked and reluctant to touch me. But I don't give up, there's always my way to seduce her.

Yeah, maybe because now I'm no longer in a forced relationship and do it out of love. I don't seem to want to be far away from him. It feels like every night I want to be fondled by Devid.

At first I thought maybe he was too tired with his job at the hospital. Sometimes he wants to rest at home. But the longer I felt the stranger and the different. Mas Devid avoids me for bed problems. For everything else Devid remains warm and attentive. Like taking me and Syfa down the road. Play and joke with Syfa. Everything's fine. But not for that one thing. What is it, I want to confide in Mother is also embarrassed.

Today Devid Pulan is very late. I fell asleep waiting for him on the terrace. Thankfully Syfa now slept in her own room with her nanny. So I can focus on waiting for Devid to come home. I woke up when I heard Devid's car horn coming in. After the fence was opened and Devid immediately directed his car to the luggage.

As usual, I always welcome her home warmly. I gave my sweetest smile. But when Devid got out of the car, I saw his face was very tangled. There is no smile. I'm still thinking positively Maybe he's very tired.

I kissed her hand and I helped her carry her bag. Mas Devid didn't say a word pyn It seemed really tired, I thought. Arriving in the room as usual. I helped open his shoes and provide mineral water. Devid went straight to the bathroom. I immediately provide a change of clothes.

"Mas want then first ? " Ask me when Devid's changed clothes.

"Neither go to sleep." He finally made a sound.

And we were ready to go to sleep. Again Devid slept behind me. I also closed my body to him. I hugged him from behind. Tonight I didn't mean to seduce her. I don't know, now I'm a one-time sleep hobby while hugging him from behind like this. until dawn we can sleep in this position. Sometimes changing positions, Devid hugged me. I kissed his back, enjoyed the scent of his body that I really liked.

"Can you sleep ngk fishing like this. Don't let a little kid sleep in a hug." Devid got up and stood up. He spoke with half a scream. I was shocked and also scared by her attitude. Devid has never been like this.

Out of shock and fear, my eyes suddenly glazed over. Why did Devid behave that way. His eyes were sharp as if he wanted to pounce on me. It's not like Devid.

"Crying, crying.... Wear the mainstay weapon. The tears.????" Said again. Then Devid grabbed a pillow and exited the room. Leaving me alone. Finally my water got wet. My heart is sick and broken. What happened to Devid. Later that night I fell asleep alone in the room.I fell asleep after crying.

When he woke up, Devid had not yet returned to the room. I'm sure he slept in his study. Immediately I cleaned myself up, and prayed tahajud. As usual, it was God where I told the story. I really don't understand what's going on with Devid's mas. While waiting for dawn, I fill my time by reading the Qur'an. My crying broke again. I try to ease my sadness. While praying at dawn, someone opened the door. Devid, he's up.

Finish praying room. Mas Devid just came out of the bathroom and continued to do prayers. After tidying up the room and preparing clothes for Devid mas to the hospital later. I put on my hijab to get ready for the kitchen. More precisely, I avoided being close to Devid mas. Because I couldn't help but be saddened by her treatment last night. Than my tears spilled again I better avoid first.

But, when I'm gonna open the door. I felt Devid pull my hand slowly. And hugged me right away.

"I'm sorry dear, forgive my attitude last night. " She said while still hugging me. My chest tightened, my eyes wet again. I just kept quiet and cried, unable to say anything. Mas Devid let go of his embrace slowly. He looked at me inside.

"You'd like to say sorry.." Ask Devid again later. And I just nodded in response. Devid smiled and hugged me.

Days passed, weeks changed. Maybe Devid never got angry and yelled at me again. But his attitude remains the same. Cold and avoid me in bed. And we haven't done it for almost 3 months. I no longer dare to seduce or seduce him. Because ever since I got angry that night I didn't dare anymore. I'm afraid Devid's gonna be mad again.

But Devid was still touching me, even though he just hugged me while I was standing on the balcony of the room. Sometimes we still kiss. I can feel Devid's passion stirring as he sucks my lips. His hands could not stand still, creeping on every part of my body. But just that, suddenly Devid mas will stop when my desire also wants more. "I'm sorry, baby.." All our feelings stopped with one apology. Then Devid's mas passed leaving me still desiring.

What does it feel like to be made like that ? It hurts, it hurts so much. I can only hold back my tears. Sometimes I'd weep my tears in the bathroom under the shower running fast. I hope this chest tightness can be reduced a little. Because I don't want you to see me cry.

Today I'm shopping monthly with Mommy and Syfa. We went to the Mall where Mother used to take me. Goods needs at home have been exhausted. So the possibility of shopping today is quite a lot.

When Mother and I were choosing groceries, a mother came to us. It turns out that old friend of the Mother.

"How is Jeng. It has been a long time since we met. Last time since his late father Devid died. " Tell that Mother.

"Alhamdulillah good jeng, healthy. Yes, it has been a long time since then the family moved to Bali." Answer Mother. I was just a listener to the two mothers' conversations.

"Oh yes, until I forget. Meet jeng, this is Airin. Devid's wife." My mother introduced me to her friend. And I shook hands with that mother.

"Airin aunty." Say introduce yourself while kissing her hand.

" Loh, Devid isn't with Clarisa anymore, is he ? they're getting divorced anyway ?" She seemed a little hesitant to accept my greeting.

"Yes, Devid and Clarisa have been separated for a long time. And just over a year ago this married Airin." Said Mother. I just smiled in response.

"Then this cute cute adorable who's who." Mother's friend also caressed Syfa who was busy sitting on a grocery stoller.

" This is their son Jeng." Answer Mother smile.

"Masaaaaa.. Really Jeng.." Ask your friend, Mother,. From his expression as if he did not believe at all. Mother also smiled.

"God, Alhamdulillah.. Thankful then jeng. Turns out Devid was not barren like the one in gosipin was." Said a friend of Mother later. Mother was a little awkward with the words of her friend. Then Mother also shifted the direction of their conversation. I was silent for a moment, did I not hear wrong. " Mas Devid rumored barren.?" I repeated that sentence in my heart..

I don't know why my heart feels something is strange. Is it because of the gossip that Devid's acting cold to me...