MY LOVE ENDS WITH YOU

UNCOVERING THE DARK TIMES 2

DAVIS POV

FLASH BACK ON_CONTINUED

One time, one of the eight of us held a party at his house located on the beach. I don't care what order he has this party. All I know is, he invited a DJ and decorated his house like a club on a beach. The house is crowded by teenagers in ala-ala beach clothes and for girls are only wearing bikinis, the more the night gets excited and crowded.

Like a party at the club, here also presented a variety of wine and alcoholic drinks from various brands. For me, women and drinks are an ideal blend for a party. Although I do not like the frenetic atmosphere of music played by DJ, but I like drinks and now also like women.

Starting from this party, became the turning point of my moral destruction. In a state of mutual confusion, with a state of semi-consciousness, me and Alice bc**ta in the open and unthinkable when there are others who see it. At that time I was not ashamed to do it, because the other couple did it in a public place.

That's me and Alice. Although without status, but our relationship increased so drastically. Not only in closed places but we also do not hesitate to do it in the open

-- on campus ----

Once upon a time, when I was in college.

“Hai” Alice patted me on the shoulder and then sat down on the bench next to me, I replied her greeting with the word ‘Hai also’ and smiled.

“What are your plans for next semester?” Alice asked me.

“I want to condense college, because I want to graduate faster” I explained. 

“Yahh, we can't be with dong?” Alice said it in a disappointed tone, I just smiled.

“But can still play to your apartment?” ask again. 

“Sure. Come anytime you want”

“Hmmm,,, you don't mind doing it without bonding?” I cringed hearing his question.

“It should be that question I ask you, usually girls need certainty”

“No. I prefer it like this. Not tied.” Said later. I was a fool for what he liked. For me what we're doing is more than enough, I can't involve feelings in our relationship.

That's how Alice and I ended up having this statusless relationship. Entering the new semester, I have rarely met Alice, but not so with my party friends. Even though we never went to college together, but when there was a party, we would always take the time to attend it. 

This time, my best friend who has a villa in the middle of the pine mountains held a party.

“Hai, Vis. Saturday come to party ya!” bring a guy friend.

“Alice can't come. Males no da partner”

“Quiet aja, Vis. Many other Alice”

“Males. Alice is the best”

“What? Where is the best but no status?” he laughed off.

“Come, Vis,,hemm hemm hemm!” keep persuading.

“Although we do not have any status, I still feel unworthy to do it with others” I actually do not like to do that if it does not feel suitable with his partner.

“Davis, Alice is the queen of the party. If he doesn't come to my party, he's got a party somewhere else!”

“You mean??” my tone was as if he couldn't accept her accusing Alice.

“Later you will also know!”

I also fulfilled my best friend's invitation. It turned out to be true he said, in the party this time, many more young people came. We easily get to know each other, talk, and then go on like that. The influence of the drink and the passionate young soul, made us crazy. At an event, there is a game where we***** freely anywhere, with anyone, and then change partners. That's how we young people enjoy this party until morning.

Like a opium. I and my friends held a party just for our internals, filled only with events, drinking,****, and changing pairs** until morning and we were tired.

At least we do it once a week. The place alternated, even once held in my apartment.

I enjoyed my free life like this for 2 years, until something happened to make me a deterrent.

Yes, 3 of my friends have hiv. Alice, who I know as the most fun partner, also died from contracting hiv. I cannot deny that I am very sad for the calamity that befell my friends, and also Alice.

Although Alice introduced me to the free world, to me Alice is a person who will always be remembered throughout the history of my life. Although I never had more feelings for Alice, I was very sorry for her fate, dying young due to promiscuity.

Daddy and my brother, who were aware of the incident, immediately checked my health thoroughly. All my gestures are always under the watchful eye of my Daddy's men. I can not dwell, even just contact my other friends to also give sympathies is not allowed. Let alone attending Alice's funeral, can't.

As long as the examination results have not come out, I am only allowed to do activities outside for college and to the office. Even since that incident, Mommy had me move from the apartment to the main house. They regretted their decision to give me the freedom to be independent turned out to make me free uncontrollably.

“Davis, do you remember, have you ever done it without a safety?” Mommy is excited when it comes to her children.

“Mom, trust me. I'm not that stupid!”

“Review yes if you reach the contagion! Mending you to ***** just aja!” scream Daddy.

“Dad, please!” I was sulking too.

“How long have you guys been party-party?” ask Mommy to be angry.

“Long time Mom.” I lied and slowly.

“Long!” mommy shouted in disbelief.

“Have Mom, Mommy and Daddy calmed down before the health results came out” said my brother.

“Don't be too speculative!” continued.

“Ihhhhh can be crazy Mommy thinks of it!”

“What would it be if she-” Mommy couldn't continue her words. In between her anger, she cried bitterly.

I, who loved and loved Mommy very much, could not bear to see her crying because of my stupidity. Mommy was indeed an easterner, but she gave me the freedom to live my life as long as I was able to account for my actions. But not the same as the incident this time, even though this is my life but also my family's life, free if only myself is responsible for it.

Negative thoughts started haunting me and scaring me. Although I always use safety, but we are always changing partners do not rule out the possibility of contracting it as well.

What if I get infected?

How do I deal with Mommy's grief?

Is Mommy's sorry door gonna open for me?

Then what about my future?

What about my dream of becoming someone better than then?

How will I be happy?

Hows it?