MY LOVE ENDS WITH YOU

BETTER TO STAY AWAY

NARITA POV

 

This morning as usual after the dawn prayer, I rushed to the vegetable garden. Harvest anything that can be harvested, fertilize, then water the plants. Not bad also today I can harvest cassava and leaves also want me to make vegetable lodeh.

When I turned around and was about to return to Pavilliun 101, from a place that was still quite dark and a little hidden I saw someone holding a laptop. From the light of the laptop, I could tell who he was. For a moment I was still glued to the spot and stared fixedly at him. I still feel guilty about what happened yesterday.

The moment I remembered all of that, surely my regret ended with a long sigh. Until something crept slowly at my feet shocked me and I screamed.

“Aaaaaaa I tiptoed around trying to release the caterpillar that was firmly attached to my feet. I was so afraid of caterpillars that I had no other idea but to scream and wag my feet. 

I felt someone suddenly holding my body and the other hand holding my leg, holding it so that my leg would not move and then swiftly throwing the caterpillar. So scared and panicked I subconsciously hugged her to express my infinite gratitude. I cried in his arms remembering the trauma of a caterpillar's leg. I was so crybaby when it comes to trauma and fear, even if it's just a caterpillar.

I suddenly regained my senses as I felt a soft pat on my back. I immediately pushed his body and untied my embrace.

Idiotically

Idiotically

Idiotically

Idiotically

I am so ashamed. I dare not look at him.

“Maaf” said I was short and ran away leaving him just like that. I don't know what he's thinking right now.

-- Dining Table----

This morning was very different from the previous morning. There was never or rarely any activity in this dining room, but now the dining room looks rame. There's Davis and Jess, there's Dave and Karen, Teddy. I was helped by two chefs arranging food at the dinner table. 

Unknowingly I stole a glance at Davis, though I was still careless, did not care about me, and was engrossed in looking at and joking with his fiancee.

I saw them sitting next to each other, with faces facing each other. I don't know what they're talking about, but every now and then their little laugh breaks out. Gently, Davis occasionally tidied Jess' hair behind her ears, and Jess responded by stroking Davis' jaw with her mesra. Even had a few times, Jess boldly and awkwardly kissed Davis' lips. The gaze of the two of them eyes was never interrupted, they did not hesitate to show the friendly scene in front of everyone, as if there were only the two of them there.

The look in those eyes,

That sweet smile, that,

That soft caress, that,

And those sexy lips, though,

He used to give it to me.

My God, my heart is still a little sore at this sight. Am I strong at seeing this every day?

Even if this is a signal from You that I open my eyes and heart wide, please help me to become a strong woman like before. Two occasions she expressed love for me and twice she left me without news. Now, you have brought us together again, is it worth me to cry just to see her affection with another woman.

I just didn't think he was going to be like that.

Is that how quickly he forgot me?

Is that how fast he turned away from me?

Is that how fast he fell in love with the others?

Realizing my silliness daydreaming in the present situation, I immediately looked up so that the water that had gathered in my eyes did not flow, I threw a glance in all directions while holding tightness in my chest.

It's not easy for me to fall in love with someone.

When I fall in love, it's not easy for me to turn away from it.

“Mr. Dave, there's something I'm going to say, is Mr any time?” ali's arrival made me come back from the stupid daydream, making those at the dinner table who were talking to the subject themselves, speechless. Everyone turned to look at Ali.

“Sit Al. Do we need to speak four eyes or do you just say it here?” Dave ordered Ali to sit down and then he sat down in front of Mr. Dave.

“Mr. I ask permission to return home to my home back” said Ali later.

“Why?”

“Na, this food has been served all yes?” Mr. Dave looked at me and I answered with a nod of my head.

“Come please eat! You're also Al!” the conversation halted for a moment as they were still busy picking up food.

“Owh yes, why do you want to go back to your house Al? You say you're happy and at home living here?” Mr. Dave asked that again.

I was still standing there, waiting for them to eat until they were done. Without any intention of eavesdropping, I heard their conversation. When without a plan I looked up, turned to him, it turned out that his eyes were looking into my eyes as well. For a moment our eyes met, silent, as if looking at something. I felt like what he was going to say had something to do with me. ‘I'm sorry, Ali!’.

Immediately I turned my gaze in another direction, from the tail of my eyes, he finally cut off his gaze.

“There are things I cannot say, Mr. But rest easy Mr, occasionally I will come here to continue teaching.” Hearing such an answer, I felt very relieved.

“I feel guilty if you're not comfortable in my house. Say Al! I'll definitely ask Drake to fix it!”

“I just want, Little of Al Aqsa is getting crowded and lively. As it is now. There's me, you, Davis, 2 assistants, Narita, Karen, and hopefully Jess overtook” Dave glanced at Jess who was busy feeding Davis. Hearing his name being called, he only turned a glance and then returned indifferent.

Ahhh yes, even at the time of eating Jess spoil him. He's feeding Davis. Davis seemed to enjoy it.

“Mr, I can't stay with someone I love while the one I love never wants to repay my love” hearing Ali's words, now everyone stops eating and all eyes are staring at Ali, I was shocked to hear it and subconsciously glared at him. While he was now looking at me with a facial expression that I myself could not translate.

“The only way for us is let me stay away from him. When we stayed together, I was afraid that I would turn into a selfish, reckless, and or even make me a weak-hearted man

DEG

He said it was all still looking at me. Oh my God, everyone who was looking at him at this moment, suddenly slowly followed his eyes and now they all turned to look at me. They looked at Ali and me in turn. The look in their eyes were all like arrows raining down on my heart. I'm trying to neutralize the heartbeat in light of my guilt. I was only able to bow and was unable to comment.