MY LOVE ENDS WITH YOU

UNCOVERING THE DARK TIMES

NARITA POV

 

We were in my hometown for a week. Our relationship is still a little tenuous, although we never miss making love day, afternoon, night, and early morning. Davis who never gave me an explanation made me a little upset with him. I'm not asking for anything excessive, I'm not leaving him even if he's done something wrong in his past. I just want honesty and openness in this relationship.

Many things remain a mystery to Davis Narendra Oxley. As long as I knew him, he only introduced Dandy and aunt Melati as one of his mother's relatives. He never told me who and what about his siblings? Mommy and Daddy? There is not a single wall in the house that shows their family photos.

Although she always said that I was her first love, but I was curious about her love life. Has he ever dated abroad, how far have they lived their courtship, ala walkah? What made him decide to convert? There are so many questions in my brain.

One one I'm going to start asking, because I'm not sure he's going to tell you everything at the same time. I'm sure he hasn't told me there must be a reason for it.

My heart was disappointed that he would not answer my first question, and then how would I ask another question. It's been a week since I've asked that question, not the least he wants to answer, it makes me even more so.

Husband and wife activities we went through blandly, only limited to fulfilling obligations only. I am still very disappointed with the attitude of silence, indifference, and pretending not to know.

Air travel to Jakarta is taken for 1 hour. We are busy with our own activities. We only spoke as necessary, though I occasionally felt that he was stealing glances at me.

We got home at 10:00. Davis opened the car door and grabbed me and we walked into the house.

“Capek no, Darling?”

“Sikit”

“Yuk!” who initially embraced, now he linked our fingers and pulled me and took me to our room.

He sat me down on the sofa while he squatted on his knees and his hands still held friendly both hands.

“Honey,,,” he paused the sentence.

“I'm not strong you were cuddled for a week”

“Darling, you promised me that if I told you about my past, you wouldn't miss me, you wouldn't leave me!”

“The worst of your past, I will still accept you as you are, as long as you are not going to repeat it again”

“I asked because besides you never told me but also because I want to know you more deket” I saw him nod his head.

 

DAVIS POV

I deliberately delayed the explanation until we went home, to be more awake privacy. Unimaginable if we tell stories in the village and accidentally someone hears it, can berabe his business, can be spread throughout the village ntar.

When I got home, I immediately took her to my room. He did not refuse. I sat him on the sofa. I began to organize my heart, thoughts, and words, so that the sentence that came out was really right.

When he said that he asked that because I never told him. I feel stifled. I feel guilty because there are so many things I haven't told her.

“Darling, I'm sorry. I can't tell you everything yet. Little by little I will tell you. Are you patient?” he nodded slowly.

“Mas, don't do this!” he wiped away my flowing tears. Immediately I stood up and sat next to him.

 

FLASH BACK TO 1

One fine morning, in a very clean, neat, orderly country, I began to live a new life. Living my days as a student and in between college I took the time to help out with the family business. I flew into this land purposely wanting to occupy myself, to live the days with joy, so that I would forget the person who had rejected me before I expressed my heart. I had to treat her disappointment by making myself much better than I was before.

(Actually all conversations are in English)

“Hai, Vis. Ready for presentation later?” ask a beautiful girl with round eyes, long and pliable eyelashes, a pointed nose, thin lips, body well like a Spanish guitar, long round blonde.

“Yup” I answered without looking at it, I was still busy preparing my laptop and material.

Today is my turn to present the assignment of my Professor. I have been in college for 2 months and all this time I have known friends in my class. Some people take the same classes. The beauty I knew named Alice was the one who always took the same courses.

After the class, I still have my next class. In between waiting times, I would usually spend time in the park to read lecture materials or look for final assignment materials. This time I decided to take a sunbathing and sit back in the park.

“Hai, Vis. Alone?” greet Alice and sit beside me.

“Ya.” I answered while looking at him and smiling.

“Can I accompany?”

“Iya. Please.”

Then he began a conversation about college materials. I who at first never cared about his friendly greeting, became engrossed when we chatted.

Since the day that happened, we have become familiar. We were always together, even though I had some male friends who were also always together.

I began to enjoy my days with a new atmosphere, new friends, new surroundings, and other happiness. I really enjoy college, work, sightseeing, clubbing, and traveling. Like the time when I was in Indonesia, here too I have a fun road friend. Even I can have 6 friends who can be compact in activities.

I introduced Alice to my friends, so that not infrequently we eight consisting of 4 guys and 4 girls often go together. Although we have never declared as friends, but we have a busy life that is almost similar and the same hobby.

At first I felt our friendship was mediocre, like teenage friendship in general. College, road, eating together, traveling together. But one incident, made me finally get into the Western-style promiscuity environment. A relationship that I used to consider it a thing that is “GAK”, especially when friendly with Narita, I admire him so much as a person who is very self-preserving, but when I am here, I am very happy, it is as if free association is a culture.

Alice, who I thought was a beautiful and fun girl, was able to tease me until we did what should not be done over and over again. There is no status between us, but we do it on the basis of enjoy as well as enjoy and as if it becomes a necessity.

I live alone in a luxury apartment, making us more free to often meet and do it in my apartment.

Actually in this country, my family has a main house, which is more often occupied by Mommy and Daddy when they are here and occupied by my brother, who did settle here. But for the sake of independence, Mommy and Daddy asked me to stay alone.

At first Alin lived in my apartment, but when he was away from college, Mommy decided to rent his own apartment not far from the college where he was studying. Alin, who is an orphan, is financed by Mommyku, both the cost of living and the cost of college. So unfortunately Mommy on Alin.

Back to Alice. I started to get to know Alice's free association. Enjoying the beautiful paradise of the world without thinking about anything else. I consider Alice not only a love partner, but also a fun friend to be invited to discuss about college, work, traveling, or anything. I feel happy and connected with Alice. However, for some reason there was not the slightest intention in my heart to make her a boyfriend. Alice did not mind our relationship without this status.

TO BE CONTINUED