MY LOVE ENDS WITH YOU

EXPRESS FEELINGS

NARITA POV 

Suddenly my heart was beating faster. I don't stop smiling by myself. There was a strange vibe in his chest as he stared at the last message he sent me. What does this mean?? So has my love not clapped one hand? All this time he felt what I felt. Ooh God what should I do??

I repeatedly patted my chest. I feel like screaming as loud as possible bliss that feels like it's on my chest. Yeah, Davis likes me. Likes me? Suddenly I remembered something. Something that could not unite us. The gaping gap was very wide in front of us. Again I sat back down, limp down to realize the reality.

The two feelings were the same, yet it seemed to be mere futility. Hufh. Oh my God, why did this have to happen?

Suddenly a vibration awakened me. My phone screen showed me the name he was calling me. I set my breath so that my voice would not seem nervous.

“Hallo, Assalamu’alaikum” I answered by phone. The habit of greeting, made me forget about the belief of someone who was calling me at this time.

“Wa’alaikum salam” replied.

For a moment we were silent. But then he came back to talk.

“Na, ahem,, I've been thinking about this since long”

 

Hearing his opening words, honestly made me panic. I'm not ready to answer that yet. Maybe if Davis who used to express his feelings, I will firmly refuse. But Davis is now an adult Davis.

I didn't say a word, I was just waiting for him to continue his sentence.

“Since we parted 4 year ago”

“My reason for studying away from you. And as soon as possible finish it, it is solely for the sake of being able to return to being someone who deserves you!”

“Because I realized that the old me, really does not deserve to be with you”

He paused his sentence. We were silent for a moment. 

“Na, I can't hold on to my feelings any longer. I'm telling you, just want you to know that I've been putting my heart on you for the past 4 years. Since I am nobody compared to you”

“Na, please consider my heart. There may already be some people waiting for your heart as well, but please ask your deepest heart. Who is the person you most expect?”

He said very long, with a slightly quivering and stammering voice. An ordinary person who firmly leads the meeting, impressed fierce when commanding, it can be nervous also when declaring his love. Now what should I say huh? Suddenly, my brain fell. Just like the brain when I perform in public in a speech race. I forgot what I was going to say.

“A a me,, I did not expect what you just said, Vis!”

“A a me,,,----”

She seemed to understand my shock at the moment, until she cut my words.

“Na, I'm not asking you to answer right now. I'm just stating what I've been feeling all along, asking you to feel how real this feeling of mine really is. And asking you to give me a chance to prove that what I feel is sincere.”

“Please Na, give me a chance. Hmm?”

I am still confused as to what to respond with. I just don't know why Davis revealed it over the phone. This isn't a prank, is it? Even though a Daniel only dared to express it directly in front of me, when someone like Davis even just by phone like this sie?

“Owh yes sorry I delivered it over the phone instead of earlier when we met. Frankly, since our reunion, I've been nervous every time in front of you. Want to be in the office, want to be out of business hours. It's as if your presence has given me my concentration, Na!”. Well, he again said what became the turmoil of my heart. It was like we were telepathic. I smiled hearing this.

“Vis,, I can't promise you anything. But I also will not forbid someone to prove the sincerity and seriousness of his feelings!” After I thought about it for quite a while, I think this sentence is the most fitting for me to convey to him.

“Bye, Na. Happy break. Beautiful Dream. Luv you's. Assalamu’alaikum”

“Wa’alaikum salam” I dare not reply to Luv you words.

DAVIS POV

This was my first time meeting him outside the office hours and areas. Earlier I only dared to look at him and watch him from a distance. But since my meeting at the cafe. I'm starting to get upset. I know I'm not the only one who's put my heart on her. Asian girls with mature brown skin, wide eyes, small posture, smart and attentive seems to be the main attraction for us who are not at all interested in western girls. The European men are like the men in my office, surely many secretly like him, not only because of his appearance but because of his personality.

A cheerful figure, easy to get along with anyone, attentive, always have mature thoughts, independent, wise, and can very well put himself wherever he is like Narita, pinter cook is also a complete package that is rarely owned by girls today. Honestly, I fear someone ahead of my step, even though I have planned my future with him since 4 years ago. I'm afraid my sacrifices have been in vain. If I don't say it now, I'll regret it for the rest of my life.

But when I confronted him. It was as if all the sentences I had stacked up before, were simply vaporized. Suddenly I lost my concentration, nervousness struck, cold sweat all over my body, even what I was feeling at this moment I had never felt before, even when I just graduated from High School, dealing with him was not as complicated as it is today.

When I was driving, I saw a message from him. I could only read because I deliberately wanted to reply to her when I had really thought of the right reply.

When I got home, I read the message. Ahh it seems like all this time he's misunderstood my relationship with Alin. I tried to lure him. And it turns out that the rumor that Alin is my fiancee, has spread widely in the office. I have to be honest to tell the truth. I took the opportunity this time to find out the extent of his relationship with one of my directors, Daniel.

I was surprised by Daniel. Maybe if people think, why am I a Managing Director so panicked when he saw a manager almost drowned and even to give artificial breath, is there a relationship between us? I was also amazed by the attitude and concern of Daniel, who was a Director to Narita. What connection they have, why Daniel offered to hold Narita while he could get someone else to do it.

Honestly, at that time, I was jealous. But I tried to cover it up by putting on an ordinary face, as cold as possible, and relaxed.

At first I was quite happy with the rumors circulating between me and Narita, because with the gossip I thought it would help me more easily approach it. The truth is just the opposite. Narita was quite hit with the gossip. Finally with Rio's help, I asked him to put down the gossip and I started to arrange another plan to start approaching him.

Narita won't reveal his relationship with Daniel. OK. I knew enough and I finally concluded enough on my own, maybe Daniel likes it but there is no relationship between them.

We also sent messages. I long enough typed every message I would send him. Once I've settled in, now seems like a good time for me to express my feelings. Until finally, I sent this message:

If I pedekate with you, can't you???

I waited long enough for a reply. Check 2 has turned blue, but he has no sign of typing. This is what I'm afraid of, does she have a boyfriend? Or does he want to answer NO but feel bad?

Ahhhh,,,,, uh,,,,,

I sugar my head hair and end up with a little jubilant. I scooped my face violently. Nervous of what else to do, nervous about what he will say. I am usually brave, ready to move forward if given the challenge to present my business and convince my investors to take part in my efforts. But my real love when dealing with him, my first love, my true love, and hopefully my last love, the figure of an ordinary girl according to some people, Narita.

I waited a long time, there was no sign of him replying to my message. I took a deep breath and finally ventured to call her. When he answered my phone with greetings:

“Hallo, Assalamu’alaikum”

Suddenly my heart was pounding very hard. My brain cannot compromise. I seemed to be softly lulled in her voice, imagining she was here in front of me. I also re-regulated my irregular breathing. I'm trying to suggest to my feelings that I CAN. Do not forget I say a prayer in my heart hoping that God will give me fluency in speaking.

I felt like I had a miracle, the words that came out of my mouth were so slick and smooth. Although there were still jitters of nervousness, but the sentence I said was an expression of the feeling I had always wanted to convey to him. A long sentence I had said, and it seemed like he was the one who was nervous at the moment.

In my deepest heart, I was happy with his nervousness. Does that mean he has the same feelings as me???

My heart was so relieved when I heard him say:

“Vis,, I can't promise you anything. But I also will not forbid someone to prove the sincerity and seriousness of his feelings!”

YESS

I want to scream as loud as possible to express my happiness. Although he has not accepted me, but at least he gave me a chance to advance. I can end this call with feelings that cannot be expressed in words. I tried not to be nervous by learning to express the word “love you”. I promised in my heart to say it to him as often as possible. Besides being an expression of my heart, I hope Narita will also be shaken by the romance I build.