My husband, Doctor Adrian

I'm waiting for you and..

LULA'S POV

I didn't know I could be afraid of losing someone, beyond my fear of losing Mama. He raised me with great affection. He's never had everything. A husband and son who loved her for decades, and also a treasure that was enough. It was all of a sudden taken from her when Papa died, when we were driven out of the house, and as if that was not enough, I had to conceive without any marriage.

I can only hope that God will give Mama a long life so that I can make amends to her. I'll try to make her happy, even if it's hard.

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Doctor Jonathan who suddenly came out of the operating room broke my daydream. It's been almost six hours since my surgery was performed.

"How's my mom doing, Doc?" my many. Nathan was standing next to me.

"The operation can be said to be successful. All this thanks to an expert doctor who was willing to come and operate on Ms. Luna." said Dr. Jonathan.

"Expert doctor? I'm willing to meet and give you the right kind of reward, Doc." Nathan said quickly.

"But I don't think he'll accept anything." Doctor Jonathan refused subtly.

"What.. My mom is okay now?"

"He'll be awake any minute. If Mom and Dad want to get into the room, I'll let you."

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A few hours later..

I was in Mama's room with Aunt Ine, Mama's distant cousin who lives out of town. Aunt Ine just came to visit a while ago.

Mama is still unconscious. While Nathan is out, probably taking care of his job. He has helped me a lot and Mama is in the middle of her busy life. I always encouraged him to do his job, though, often he was very adamant.

"Patience, yes, Lula. Mama you will be healed." said Aunt Ine.

"Yes, Aunt. Thank you." I replied.

Aunt Ine looked several times at my already huge belly, but she did not ask. Perhaps, he thought that I was divorced when I was pregnant. Or maybe he had bad thoughts about me. But I can only be grateful in my heart, he didn't ask me that.

My hand that was holding Mama's hand, felt a slight movement.

"Mama?" call slowly.

"Luna?" Aunt Ine helped her body move closer to Mama.

Both of my eyes moved slowly.

"Ma, Mama's just had surgery. Now, the chances of your illness to recur are very small. Mama rest first, yeah.. Don't get up yet." I clasped Mama's hand.

Mama brushed my hand slowly. Too slow, so I didn't realize that Mama was going to pull my hand away.

"Sir Ine?" Mama said hello to Aunt Ine.

"Yes, Luna? I just arrived. Sorry just had a chance to visit." said Aunt Ine.

"Can.. leave us alone for a moment?" mama said slowly, she set her breath many times to say one simple sentence.

Aunt Ine left us both.

"Leave.. Mama.." said Mama.

At first I still didn't catch what Mama meant. His voice is still so weak.

I didn't want Mama to put in so much effort just to talk. My mother is in recovery.

"Ma, better.. Mama rest first. Later, Mama can talk after Mama's condition.."

Mama looked at me sharply, with a remnant of her strength she said. "Mama. won't accept the child.it."

In that instant, reality blew me away. Apparently not a touch, but Mama's hand pulled me over earlier. In fact, he still hates me, hates the baby in my womb.

"Don't come here again." said Mama very slowly.

Tears came down my cheeks without me preventing them. I looked down, at my stomach. I realized my mistake. Any parent would find it hard to accept this kind of disgrace.

Why, son? It's all really heavy.

The door opened slowly. I don't care who comes. I just stood up, and turned my body. I set foot towards the door. Whatever your request, I will grant.

"Hispan?"

Nathan held both of my shoulders. He is a sensitive man. Even though I tried to hide it, he always knew.

"What's wrong?" He looked at me, then Mama.

I'm shaking.

"Auntie.." Nathan sat next to Mama.

I'm sure Nathan knows what's the source of my grief, and the source of Mama's disappointment.

"I hope Auntie can focus on recovering. About Lula, I will always take care of him. I will be responsible for the child he bears. I hope.. Aunty can accept and forgive Lula. He's been fighting all this time.."

"Enough" said Mama.

"Tante, Lula has no one but Aunty.." Nathan tried to defend me, but the sound of the machine next to Mama rang and Mama seemed hard to breathe.

I was crying so much. Nathan hugged me and pulled me out when Doctor Jonathan came in and started giving me treatment.

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"Lho, earlier.. Luna looked fine, could talk.. Now.. What's up, Lula?" ask Aunt Ine.

"Lula and Mama are in trouble, Auntie. Just pray for the best." Nathan said when he found out that I was unable to answer.

A few moments later..

"Mother Luna's condition has not stabilized properly. So, I hope that the family can help him not to stress, because that could be the reason for the recurrence of his disease." Doctor Jonathan explained when we were in the waiting room.

I can only nod.

In my heart, I blame myself. I regret my stupidity. All this happened because of me. My mother went to the hospital because of me.

"Lula, it's okay.." Nathan soothed.

I'm shaking.

"This is not okay, at all. I can only disappoint him."

Suddenly I felt a lot of pain.

"Akhs.."

I held Nathan's arm, focused my body on him. I've never felt more physical pain than this.

"Hawkins.." Nathan gasps. "You.." He looked at my feet that were not covered by anything.

Bloods.

"Suster! Help me!" Shouted Nathan.

A nurse approached us.

"Please.my wife!" Nathan reflexively shouted like that. I don't care anymore. All I feel is pain.

The faces of the two nurses looked worried. "Mom should be taken to the gynaecology department immediately. I'll get a gurney for a second.."

With a single bang, Nathan carried me a la bridal style.

"I'll take him. Please lead the fastest way!" Nathan sounded panicked.

I didn't say anything. I just feel pain. Every now and then, I groan.

"Patience, yes.. We'll be here soon."

Nathan keeps carrying me through this big hospital. He followed a nurse who was walking quickly in front of us. I tried to forget my pain by looking up at Nathan's face up close. This guy's. A man with a heart as good as an angel. I haven't even apologized to her for my mother's treatment.

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Upon arriving at the gynecology department, a nurse showed us an empty check room.

Nathan, gently put me in a gurney in the room.

A doctor came in and checked me out.

"Akh.." I cried when the pain came again.

"Sir, Mum.. According to the examination, the mother had severe bleeding caused by stress and high blood pressure.. This affects the condition of the baby in the mother's womb. In my view, it is best to have a caesarean section as soon as possible. If not, maybe Mom's and Mom's baby's lives will be threatened."

I'm really weak. The doctor's words were barely heard anymore.

"It looks like your wife has really lost a lot of blood.. We better have an operation now."

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A few minutes later..

I think I lost consciousness. As soon as I realized, I was in a gurney, pushed by a nurse and a doctor.

"Lula.. You're going to give birth now.." Nathan took my hand.

"Lula.. I know, this is not the right time. But.. Is there someone who should be by your side? When you give birth?"

I looked at him confused.

"Whoever.. Let's just say, I can bring in people from even the furthest lands. Is it?"

Maybe it's a painkilling effect, but I'm thinking of the father of my baby.

What does Nathan mean is he?

I'm shaking.

"All right.."

"You'll be fine.. You're powerful.. I'm waiting for you and your baby here."

"You don't have to wait for me.. There must be a lot of things." I said slowly.

"I'll be here." she said with a smile.

The nurse and the doctor opened the operating room and pushed me in.

I don't know why, that day I should have been scared, feeling safe. Maybe because I knew, there was someone waiting for me behind that door.