My husband, Doctor Adrian

Go away

My days just walk by. I tried to forget Adrian. Although it's heavy, I should know that it's all over. It's not mine anymore. I have to break it.

I was in my office when a message came to my phone.

I'm goin. Take care.

- Aldrian

I realized that very second, I had lost her. I don't know when I'll see him again. Maybe never will. I analyze my raging feelings. I don't know what to do. I hate him, but I am not willing to go.

I walked around in my room. Suddenly the phone in my room rang.

"Hello?"

"Lula, please deliver the financial statements this month to my room, yes." said the voice across the phone.

"Good, sir."

I tried to focus and retrieve the financial statements and then rushed into Mr. Richard's room. I tried to relieve my anxiety, but it turned out to be very difficult. My whole body was shaking withstanding the crying.

From behind the glass door, I could see Nathan and Mr. Richard chatting in his room.

Tok tock..

I'm welcome to come in.

"This, Sir.." I put the financial statements on Mr. Richard's desk politely.

"Lula, you seem to be sick?" said Mr. Richard. Nathan was silent but he didn't take his eyes off me.

"It's okay, sir.. Maybe just a tasting.." I watched my trembling hands, holding my body back from falling to the floor.

"You sure?" Nathan looked at me worriedly.

I was just about to nod when I felt my head throbbing. I propped my body against the wall, the two men in front of me looking at me worriedly.

"I drove to the hospital" Nathan said.

"But.."

"Nothing but. Excuse me, Om." Nathan helped me walk out of Mr. Richard's room which seemed to support him to take me to the hospital.

Now I've been sitting in the passenger seat of Nathan's sports car. Before he started the car, I touched his arm for a moment.

"Can you take me to the airport?"

"Hm.. Okay. But.. Wh-wh-what for? Where are you going?" ask Nathan.

I'm shaking. "Not anywhere. I just. I want to see someone." I said slowly.

"How are you? You okay?" tanyanya attention.

I'm nodding. Nathan didn't ask any further, he drove his car to the airport.

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As soon as we arrived at the international departure terminal, I rushed out of the car. The situation at the airport is really crowded today. I didn't find him I was looking for. Reflex, I ran towards the check-in. But there, a security guard stopped me and forced me to show tickets.

I pulled out my phone, opened an online ticketing app. I picked out any ticket in origin and suddenly someone pulled me over.

"Please, stop." Nathan looked at me worriedly.

I didn't answer, refocused on my phone.

"Lula, stop. You know that guy's flight number?" tanyakanya.

I'm shaking.

"Why don't you just call the person you want to meet? Make sure he's here and hasn't left yet?" ask again.

"I. I need to see him." I focused back on pressing my phone.

"Don't buy it first. Let me try talking to the security guard first."

He then spoke to the security guard for a few seconds, then he nodded at me.

"I'm here, yeah.. Careful.." she said while hinting me into the check-in section.

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I was half running. Seek and seek. But not met. I don't know what I'd do if I met him. Begging him to stay?

I pulled out my phone, called the guy I was supposed to call. The number is out of range. Has he gone?

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I went back to where Nathan was waiting while wiping away my falling tears.

"Not seen?" tanyakanya.

I'm nodding.

He led me to the parking lot. I know there must be a lot of questions on his mind. He remained silent until we were in the car. Suddenly from the radio came a very famous song when I was in high school.

I look at your two eyeballs

Implied what's going to happen

You want to get away from me

Leave all the memories

Closing the story sheet

Oh, my dear, I don't want to

I knew it would all be over

But I'm not willing to let you go

You asked me why I

Don't want to leave you

And my mouth was silent

It's wrong for me

Loving you?

Don't ask why

Because I don't know

I don't want to, either

You leave me

Is there any desire

'Do you love me again?

Queen - Is It Wrong I Love You Too Much

Obviously, I love Adrian too much. While he didn't. He easily forgot me, left me.

Without warning, my tears just fell. I covered my face with my hands, feeling ashamed of the man next to me.

"Why? Why did he leave me?" Isakku.

Nathan took me into his warm embrace. He rubbed my back.

"Who?" tanyanya gently. But I was too sniffling to answer.

"I'm sorry." I said when I realized he might be bothered by my crying and our physical closeness.

"For the thousandth time, you don't have to apologize."

"I'm not a teenager anymore, but instead cry like this because of trivial things."

"Love is not a trivial thing." His words rebuked me. Love's. I didn't even dare confess my love to Adrian.

Silent

"Adrian, right?" ask Nathan.

I was confused by the question. I mean, did I just look for Adrian at the airport or did I love that guy?

Nathan scrunched his eyebrows. "What did you want to meet?" inexplicably.

I'm nodding. "He went to Africa to set up an NGO there."

Nathan nodded. "When did he come home?"

I raise my shoulders. "Maybe.. Fastest two years."

Silent

The lyrics of this sad song came back clear, making me sad again. Nathan wiped both my cheeks. He was so kind to me, for a moment my pain was a little lessened by his presence.