Lord, Accept My Repentance

Expressions Feelings

We ate our lunch in silence, with no one to open their voices to either me or Farhan.

"Never accept someone just because of someone else's orders or orders, accept him because you like him," Farhan said, making me look at him.

I know, he must be talking that way. She heard what I and my mom said.

I nodded my head slowly and looked back at my food, as soon as my appetite diminished.

"Nazwa," Farhan called back to make me stare at him again.

"Yes?" I raised one eyebrow.

Farhan was silent without looking at me, while I waited for what he wanted to talk about.

"Do you like me?" The sentence that escaped Farhan's lips made me startled to the point of unknowingly choking on his own saliva.

Uhuk!

Uhuk!

Immediately I took a drink of water to relieve the throat, I put the glass slowly and a few times opened my eyes.

"I don't know when, but there's a feeling I've been wanting to express for a long time. Anxious feeling when you knew you were going with them.

The feeling of not accepting when you know you are being abused by them and the feeling of pain when you see people who intend to hurt and hate you.

At first ... I also thought that why should I take care of your life? I had to move into your house just to take care of you.

In fact, I could have rejected your father's submission. And have him hire a bodyguard for you. But, that I can't do. I still want to take care of you whether you accept it or not" said Farhan who made my eyes dewy.

"I want to propose to you, I want to take care of you, I want to protect you," Farhan continued back and managed to make my inner circle drip down profusely.

I shook my head, as the events of the past recollected, "Son, you deserve a better girl Farhan! Don't be with me, I'm an inappropriate woman with a man as good as you are" I said, wiping away the rough tears and intending to get up from my seat.

"Wait!" farhan's words stopped me by standing up, "I love you without caring about your past, I know everything. You don't have to think back to tell me that."

Farhan stood up to make me look at him, the net we met each other. Don't know how the canteen is. Whether the visitor is staring at us or not.

"I. .. just need you to answer, whether or not to be my wife. Perfect my religion, if you don't love me and like me. Then you can get out of here" Farhan said in a tone as firm as ever.

I stared at the brown nanar, there was no coercion and lies emanated in his eyes.

I nodded my head slowly in response, my lips unable to make a sound because they were so happy.

The eyes that had been displaying anxious expectations were now rounded with an expanding smile.

"You .. accept me?" asked Farhan stammeredly.

Rome red may be radiating on my cheeks, I stare at a smile and look down at the floor with my hands intertwined.

I nudged once again this head, feeling Farhan a little lazy to keep asking when I was holding back my shame and happiness.

I hold my head staring intently at him, "Ngapain nanya mulu, anyway! Very bummer!" my ketus has a chest.

"Wahh .. congratulations! Soon someone will step on me, nih," chanted the familiar baritone voice in my ear.

Bang Rangga with both hands put in his pants pocket walked over to us, a fluffy smile displayed on his face.

"Congratulations, yes, take good care of Nazwa. Because ... many want a woman like her," said Bang Rangga patting Farhan on the shoulder and staring at me.

I smiled in response to her gaze, "Ready Bang! Brother also hurriedly find a companion, let Mama's house immediately crowded," taunted Farhan who made Bang Rangga stare at him flatly.

I just chuckled at the debate between my sister and brother in front of me, we finally went to Mama's room after paying for the order.

Arriving in the room, Farhan immediately told Mama about his plans in the future with me.

At first glance, I think that Bang Rangga was looking at me who happened to be sitting next to me.

"Farhan, minjam Nazwa for a moment, yes," said Bang Rangga made me, Farhan also Mama staring at him.

"Why what?" farhan asked with a knit eyebrow.

"Don't, just a minute. Relax, I will not be anything," said Bang Rangga staring at me.

"Ck! Yehudah, not long!"

"Not yet a husband is already jealous of you, what if you have become a husband?" gerutu Bang Rangga and stood up from the sofa.

I was still sitting and staring at him with a look, "Cock!" bring Bang Rangga to me.

Rise up and follow him from behind, the garden. Yes ... he took me to the park in this hospital.

Sighing and sitting first, staring at the flower in front of the bench happened to be covered by the tree so that it was not exposed to heat.

I sat down beside Bang Rangga even though with a considerable distance, he did not look at me while I looked at his face from the side.

"You're in love with Farhan?" The question that came out of Bang Rangga's lips so suddenly made me a little shocked.

"I-iya Bang," I answered stammeringly.

He smiled without looking at me, "You fit in, Farhan is such a nice guy and it's not easy to fall in love with women. Unlike the brother who is easy to fall in love can even love with people without being sought out for his background first.

You're a good boy, worthy of Farhan. She will guide you to become a better woman and will take care of you, she is also a responsible person.

So ... I don't think you need to worry about yourself after marriage. Because, you're married to the right person," Bang Rangga said staring at me.

"Lantas, why would you cry if Nazwa was going to marry the right person?" I asked to see her reddened eyes holding back tears.

Bang Rangga laughed crisply and wiped away his tears quickly, "It's happy tears, because it's happy Brother-sister is getting married," explained Bang Rangga who is either lying or honest.

However, it was as if there was something he was covering up from me. I don't want to guess too much, whatever he says may be true.

About twenty minutes when Bang Rangga and I spoke, he decided to go inside first.

I chose to sit first on the bench and let the wind blow my face, I closed my eyes and looked up at the clouds. I opened it up slowly looking at the blue sky.

Long ago .. I thought my life would be over after my parents decided to split up. There will be no more happy future as bright as now.

Broken home, ignored, disregarded, impingement, burden, hatred and various harsh words and swearing I always get.

But it turns out everything changed. God is good, he can change the storyline of a servant anytime and anywhere.

I met someone I had never imagined before that he was so big of an impact on my change.

'Patience' yes, if I was impatient with all the trials that God gave. Maybe, I'll never feel a happy ending like this.

'Closer to Him' if I get further away from Him first. I don't know what I am now, even this second it could be that I was already in the ground instead of resting on the ground.

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