Lord, Accept My Repentance

Fiancee

Today is the day where I will deliver Bang Rangga for fiancee with Kak Mawar.

Mama and Dad can't come along because there's other business, I was escorted by a driver to Mama's house this morning.

The show was at 11pm and we had to walk at 10am, it was bad to make them wait.

"Thank you sir, just go home. I got in the car with Mama aja," I said and replied with a nod.

I've worn a robe with so many beads in some parts, fixed with a veil that covers the chest.

I showed the bag out of the car, a small gift for the engagement of Bang Rangga and Kak Rawar.

As for the advice I gave a week ago, I don't ask how it went. Whether Bang Rangga finds out or not.

It's not good if you interfere too much, fearing that Bang Rangga will eventually become disliked by me.

"Assalamualaikum Ma," my greeting while knocking on the tightly closed door.

While waiting for the door to open, I saw the watch and the surrounding area, "Udah at 9," I muttered and stared at the door when I heard the sound being opened.

"Waalaikumsalam, who is here?" farhan asked making me stare fixedly at him for a moment.

Then I realized that I was looking at someone who was not my mahram, I quickly lowered my head, "Just like a driver," I answered briefly.

"Jude, comein!" I nodded and went inside the house.

I see Mama's not in the living room yet, it feels like I'm now a guest in this house.

"Eh, you've reached my dear" said the voice I so desperately missed from this house.

I stared straight at the source of the voice and hugged her, longing unbearable.

"You healthy?" asked Mama to cupped her face.

I smiled and nodded definitely, "Alhamdulillah, Ma's healthy."

"Where's the new cake you made?" ask Mama for an opinion. Mama recently released a new variant of the cake.

I was told to taste and give advice, it was also the cake was shot by Mama. It wasn't me who came straight there.

"Enak, ma'am. The ball is soft and doesn't drag," my praise made Mama smile.

"Thank you for that."

"Oh, yes, Bang Rangga where is Ma?" tanyaku circulated the view feeling not see it from earlier.

"However, yes, this is also what time it is. She, really long ago," complained Mama and left me to Bang Rangga's room.

Farhan was saying goodbye to the room because it was not ready, maybe not using accessories or others. I don't know either.

Every now and then I hum a little, looking towards a photo that looks like it's new. I approached the table that was for the decoration.

'Maa Shaa Allah, there I am, ' My mind smiles looking at the four of us in the frame. Photo at the time of graduation Farhan first.

"I'm sorry if it wasn't allowed or not on your picture, but I saw because you wore a veil so it's okay on display," someone's chirp made me stare at him who was already beside me.

Smiling and nodding at him, "Yes, no papa, really," I said.

"Have you been waiting for Nazwa?" bang Rangga asked from behind to make me turn my body.

"But, Bang."

"Oh, are we going right away?" mama looked at us one by one.

"Okay, we'll stop by first, yeah. Take the bouquet."

We nodded and finally got out of the house walking into the car, the four of us.

Mama said, if you are married, you will be invited by your extended family. If the fiancee is good there is no need.

Mama and I sat in the back seat, the car away from the house to the place to sell the bouquet first.

"Mama why?" I asked who saw Mama was nervous.

"Haha, don't know. Mama even deg-degan gini, but who wants Rangga's fiance," said Mama with a grin.

A smile that only I can display, because I am actually a little scared too. I don't know, from when I saw Sis Roses back then. I'm starting to feel like something's wrong.

Finished the bouquet of flowers and the money was taken by Bang Rangga from one of the lady friends who attempted it.

He immediately ran the car at medium speed towards the house of Sister Rose whom I did not know.

"Where's your school?" mama asked to break the silence.

Turning his gaze from the street to Mama, "Alhamdulillah smoothly Ma, maybe in a few days Nazwa will fill a motivational kayak that is for fellow children who homeschool."

"Well .. who did the show?"

"Mis direct Ma, he's also the one who invited Nazwa to fill it."

"You accept?"

I nodded, "At first I wanted to refuse Ma, but Mama Nazwa told me to accept."

"Mama?" ask Mama again.

"Yes, stepmom Nazwa."

"Oh, now you call her Mama?"

"Yes, Ma. Shouldn't we be able to accept what God has set for us? One of accepting what God set for Nazwa was to accept the presence of Mama Nazwa at home and in the lives of Father and Nazwa as well."

Mama rubbed her head covered in a veil, "You're growing up, baby."

"Thank God, thanks to Mama."

"Not, but thanks to you who want to take His direction."

I smiled and accidentally saw the rearview mirror, seen Farhan smiling while staring at us.

I shook my head as he felt drowned and turned his gaze away instantly.

"Farhan went to college where is Ma?" I stared back at Mama.

"Well, how about asking Mama? Kan, he's in front of the tuh," pointed Mama using the lips that are raised.

"Hahaha, Mama doesn't know. They're both bashful like cats. Perhaps, there will soon be an engagement as well" said Bang Rangga staring at me from the rearview mirror.

I even put on a smile as if justifying and pleased with the temptation of it.

"Haha, you know very well" I said with a laugh to cover up the embarrassment.

"Farhan attended college on campus ××× majored in law as well."

"Just like Bang Rangga, dong?"

"Yes, Farhan wants to punish someone who will come near you Nazwa" exclaimed Bang Rangga who again teased me.

"What a Bang!" ketus Farhan while hitting Bang Rangga's shoulder.

"Ciee .. sampe red so that cheeks," taunted Bang Rangga to Farhan who made Mama laugh while I put on a smile because it was not good to laugh too.

After traveling for about an hour, we finally arrived at a large enough house with the door shut.

"Well, how come there's no Bang show?" I asked when we all got out of the car.

"Is this really his house?" asked Mama with her eyebrows linked.