Lord, Accept My Repentance

Frustratingly

I rebelled when Lio started the game, he held my nape and forced me to retaliate.

However, instead of retaliating, I rebelled even more with what he was making now.

"Baj*ngan!" a familiar voice shouted in my ear.

I looked towards the sound, Farhan with a flashlight in his hand pointing towards us. Lio distanced her body, rubbing the corners of her lips and mine using her thumb.

"Ck! You really messed up a lot" Lio said with a smile as if he had won.

Farhan looked so furious, he must have seen even for a moment what Lio had done to me.

Not staying still, I supported Lio's body by using my legs to make him fall into the grass.

I wanted to fall because he was still holding my hand, quickly running towards the back of Farhan.

Farhan gave the flashlight he was holding to me violently, he came forward and held the hard shirt Lio was wearing.

The withdrawal of the clothes made the man rise due to Farhan's actions.

Buk up!

Buk up!

Buk up!

Buk up!

Unmercifully and on cue, Farhan punched Lio's body to make the man's body droop back into the grass.

In fact, his face was also targeted by Farhan. Blood came out of the corner of the man's lips as a result of Farhan.

I closed my eyes and mouth several times because I saw this, never saw Farhan that angry before made me surprised.

Feeling that Lio was already sprawled, Farhan distanced his body from Lio who was already sprawled on the grass.

He stared at me, I just sobbed shut my mouth. Farhan approached, I retreated backwards.

His hand stretched out before me, "Don't Farhan! Stopit! I'm a bad woman, don't take me Farhan!" larku.

"Son, he just took your kiss, didn't he? He didn't take the others, did he? No need to be afraid, come closer!" tell Farhan with a sad look at me.

I shook my head with a hand that kept telling him to stay away, a face filled with sweat as well as tears and hair that had somehow gone.

Quickly, Farhan pulled my hand and made me enter his arms. Sobbing and let out all the fears that had been hidden.

Don't know what it would be like if Farhan hadn't come here to save me. Perhaps, not only was my first lost kiss made by him but something else.

Long enough I was approached by Farhan, until he released a hug and cupped my face to make me look up to look at his face.

"Listen ..heard this one thing, you're still a good woman. There's no need to think that you're not holy or anything. Calm down" said Farhan, while my body felt cold, trembling and confused.

I was like a fool and a fool, not understanding what just happened. I bit my fingers and looked at the trees.

"Nazwa! You why?" farhan asked frantically looking at Nazwa's unusual body and behavior.

Farhan frantically saw the change from Nazwa, he glanced at Lio who was still lying weakly on the grass.

"What's wrong?" tanya Gilang who was coming with Farhan earlier.

However, he cleared the other three Lio friends first. While Farhan he ordered to help Nazwa.

"Huh? Yaudah, let's get him to the fucking car!" yelled Gilang who was no less panicked.

Farhan carried Nazwa's body because the woman no longer responded to anything, while Gilang prepared a car.

***

They searched the nearest hospital, with high speed Gilang brought his mother's car.

While Farhan was behind by inviting Nazwa to constantly talk so that the woman would respond.

"What did they do with Nazwa?" asked Gilang who could not resist asking.

"What I saw, the man just kissed Nazwa aja Bang. I didn't know what he was doing to Nazwa before" Farhan said, staring at Nazwa.

The woman was like a frightened person, "What are you doing? Don't hold me! Please ...!" nazwa shouted in rebellion as Farhan held his hand.

"Quiet Nazwa! It's me Farhan, not them!" lang Farhan held Nazwa's shoulder.

"Farhan's? You Farhan?" nazwa asked with a sad face.

Farhan bit his lower lip to avoid sobbing, "Yes, it's me. I will protect you" said Farhan wiping the edge of his eyes quickly.

"Why did you come so long! I've seen you at the musala before, why won't you ban me instead?

Hiks .. hiks .. I want to be raped by them .. hiks .. This is because of Bang Gilang! I hate men who are as jerks as they are!"

Nazwa released Farhan's hand on his shoulder, wiping the tears on his cheek earlier. He pointed towards Farhan with a sharp look.

"Don't you, you're gonna do it like they did, too, huh? Ha's? Da? You're gonna do something as depraved as they were?

Am I wrong with you and them? Was my birth in this world a mistake? What have I ever done to you?

Why should I? I've never bullied you, I've never done anything? What am I wrong?!" nazwa yelled in frustration and cried sobbing so heartbreakingly.

Gilang who felt guilty for what happened to Nazwa cried without a sound, 'I hate myself, forgive Brother Nazwa. This is all because Brother, you should be able to take care of you more, Gilang's mind cursed itself.

While Farhan was beside Nazwa, he shook his head and held back Nazwa.

"You're not wrong, they're the ones who wrong Nazwa. Calm down, don't be like this I beg you. I am a bad man who hurt you.

I'm a fool so stupid that you're victimized by that jerk, don't be like this Nazwa. I beg you," pinta Farhan lirih.

"What's wrong with me, God? I got what wrong? Why is my life so ruined?

I pray, I never fight Mama, I never have a big fight with people.

I go with everything, Brother who never paid the slightest attention to me I just take it for granted.

I got kicked out by Dad, I got slapped, I got slandered, I wasn't given money by Dad I took it all!

WHY SHOULD I? WHAT AM I WRONG? WHY IS GOD UNFAIR TO MY LIFE?"

Nazwa rebelled to the point of hitting his own head, as far as possible Farhan held the woman's hand to stop doing so.

The car stops, Gilang helps Farhan to hold Nazwa's hand so that he no longer beats his own head.

"Nazwa! Don't you go crazy like this!" snapped Gilang and threw out Nazwa's hand which he had already held.

Nazwa gasped and stared intently at Gilang, "What are you saying? Crazy one? Indeed I've been crazy for a long time, do you think anyone in their right mind would survive with a family like this? You think there is? Nah! No sane person would survive like this!"