Lord, Accept My Repentance

Not Yourself

The car that Bang Rangga brought quickly finally reached the house, so that he just went inside the house.

Mama and I looked at each other, Mama quickly entered the house while Farhan took the key that was still attached.

I followed Mama, we left Farhan in the car. When Mama will intend to enter Bang Rangga's room.

My hand held back, "Biarin Bang Rangga himself first, Ma. Later that night, only the same Mama Bang Rangga chatted together," my advice that made Mama sigh nodded.

Mama also looked so sad because she saw Bang Rangga like that, I put my footsteps into the kitchen.

There was no food at all, I took my phone and ordered some food because it was about noon.

"You're not coming home?" farhan asked which made me take my eyes off the flat object.

"Ck! You kicked me out?" my ketus has a chest.

"I asked, not to throw out."

I looked back lazily, "Later home in the afternoon."

"Well, what's in the kitchen?"

"You check there's food or not, it's not there. Just order it."

"Yaudah, I'm going to go to the room first. Get changed."

"okay."

Walk into the living room, sit on the sofa while waiting for food to come. I looked around the house and was still thinking about what I would say to Bang Rangga in order to make the spirit of the man come back again.

Farhan came out of the room along with the sound of the courier calling my name, "Let me alone," Farhan cut off and walked towards the door.

'Mama must have not eaten, ' my mind walked towards the room to invite Mama to eat together.

Geck!

Geck!

Geck!

"Ma, let's eat!" take me from outside.

Chequek!

"Mama hasn't cooked yet."

"Udah Nazwa the order was Ma."

"Yaudah, Mama took Rangga to eat too, yeah." I nodded my head and let Mama walk towards Bang Rangga's room while I went to the kitchen.

Farhan had opened the food parcels to the bowls, "Once again do not pay for food if we also eat it," said Farhan glanced at me at a glance.

"meaning?" I'm not sure what Farhan means.

"You paid for the food?"

"It."

"How much?"

"What's the matter, anyway? How are you becoming a lebay now, you know? Food must be in trouble."

Mama came to make me end the debate with Farhan, even though it still feels annoyed with the man's words earlier.

"Well, where's Bang Rangga, Ma?" I stared back at Mama looking for her.

"She didn't want to eat, Mama's already invited from earlier," mama mama mamma.

"Mmm .. We eat first, Ma. Later Bang Rangga let Nazwa take care of it," cut me quickly so that Mama does not think too much.

Mama sighed and nodded, a smile was forced to be displayed and then sat on the chair to eat immediately.

Geck!

Geck!

Geck!

"Assalamualaikum Abang, Nazwa can come in?" greetings and knock on the door of his room.

"Waalaikumsalam, I have no interest in eating anymore" said Bang Rangga from his room.

"Hm. Yaudah, if so. Don't be alone for long, yeah, not good to know," break me up because it's useless if I have to force him to talk now.

"Sorry, Ma. Bang Rangga seems to still need a lot of time, Nazwa can not be fussy. Oh, yes, it was late afternoon. Nazwa says he's coming home, yes," I said, walking to the table and picking up the bag.

Farhan just stared at me, I pecked the back of Mama's hand. Because it's almost 5 in the afternoon.

I haven't had an afternoon shower because I didn't bring any clothes, the pickup car has arrived.

I waved my hand when I saw Farhan deliver me to the doorway, and he didn't reply, putting both hands in his pocket.

***

"So, how's dong?"

"Don't be his fiancee Well, we're all finally home." I told Dad about the incident last day and Mama over dinner.

"You're not a match, yeah, it's hard. Want us to be 100% sure also if not a mate mah."

"Yes, according to Nazwa is not a matter of soul mate or not really. But, it's the girl's fault that everyone's just playing with her."

"Oh, yes, Mama has never seen you bring a guy. What ... is your guy Farhan?" mama smiled by raising one eyebrow.

Uhuk!

I choked on hearing Mama's words just now, I quickly took some water to get my throat back to relief.

"Ih, where there's a Nazwa guy. We also have nothing to do, really," I replied as if.

"But Mama agrees that you're the same. He also likes you, "mama guessed that made me feel happy.

"Oh, yeah, where did he go to college? Father has not had time to speak four eyes with him, Dad also want to help his lecture," cut Dad put a spoon containing rice and side dishes into his mouth.

"He was like Bang Rangga, Dad. He went to college there and majored in the same subject."

"Well, why would he even want to be in the same field as his brother?"

I put both shoulders together because I didn't know about it, "Dad's known their family for a long time?"

"Lumayan, they're such a good family. In fact, her father used to be so good."

"Hm. Just a bad dad, huh?" my sindir raised an eyebrow.

"Haha, that's the past. Now you're gonna change even if slowly."

"Aamiin, may Istiqomah in his change."

"Aamiin's."

"Ma, we're going to Mama Farhan's cake shop tomorrow, yuk!" ask me who really wants to go there.

"Can you know the place?" mama asked with a warm smile.

"Or, dong! All of us will stop by Anggi's place, yes," I advise because we have never made a pilgrimage to Anggi's grave. In fact, I don't even know where it is.

Mama's face was happy, immediately moody because she heard my words earlier, "Sorry, Ma. If you don't want me to win, don't papa. Tell me where it is."

Mama smiled wryly and shook her head, "Father, Mama will meet you. Mom hasn't been there for a long time either."

I nodded in agreement to glance at the face of Father who was also following along wistfully, finished dinner.

I decided to go up to the room, I still want to know about Bang Rangga's news. Although I used to be a little hurt to her.

However, I already considered himself like my own biological brother. It's not wrong if I'm worried about him?

The ringing tone rang across, twice the call never lifted by Bang Rangga.

I saw the wall clock, it was not yet time for Isya, 'Did she eat, huh?' my mind when it's not connected.

"Asalamualaikum, what's wrong?" greetings from afar when the call finally connects.

"Waalaikumsalam Bang, where are you?"

"In the park," he answered briefly + flat already like his sister only.

"alone?"

"Hm."

"Did you eat?"

"Hahaha, you sound funny asking questions like this. Not a Nazwa who is as much stale as it is now," Bang Rangga said to make me clumsy.

For us far away, if next to each other, I must have been very misbehaved by his actions now.