Lord, Accept My Repentance

Towed Together

I got to the funeral, pretty close to our house. Scroll towards Mama, a clear circle that is ready to fall unstoppable on your eyelids.

"Ma," I said gently rubbing Mama's shoulders encouragingly.

Mama looked at me, held my hand and nodded as if she understood what I was doing.

We stopped at the navel where there was only a wooden board as a sign, I just found out about this. I thought Anggi's tomb would be ceramic or all sorts.

My body slumped and squatted in front of the person who used to be so close to me, the person who is now calm in nature there, hopefully.

"Nazwa, let's go to the cafeteria!"

"Don't skip Nazwa, don't go to class, you know."

"We're your best friend, so don't keep anything secret, yeah."

"Eh, I think Brother Farhan likes you. Frequently stealing."

"Nazwa .. call the teacher BK."

"So that girl, I'm gonna have to calm little Nazwa let that guy on want to be with you."

Instantly, my conversation with Anggi revolved back in my mind. He is known to be more active than my other friend.

In fact, I'm closer to Anggi. Before she knew that her mother was close to Dad, she accompanied me several times to sleep at home when I was in such a mess.

She never told me that she had a boyfriend, either I didn't care so much about her that I didn't even know anything about it.

Unknowingly, a clear feather had already dripped down my cheek. I'll immediately wipe off his tracks.

My hand came closer to the board with his name written there and his father, I didn't know about the Papa.

I know he was long abandoned by his Papa, since childhood because Mama and Papa divorced.

"Honey," called Mama made me look at Mama who was in front of me.

"Why you?"

"No papa Ma, so I want to meet the other Nazwa friends. I'd like to apologize if I ever made him hurt."

Mama smiled at my words, "Mama is proud to have a child like you, even though you were not born from your womb. But, Mama already considers you like Mama's own biological child.

Also sorry if Anggi is wrong with you, yes. Mama didn't know she had anyone's friends" Mama said, making me nod.

We decided to clean Anggi's grave by plucking the grass there is also not forgetting to send prayers and sow flowers that we happened to have bought.

"First, the first time Anggi slept where you and knew it was your father who nglamar Mama. She refused and was furious with Mama hehe.

He hates your father, he balked at that and he never even accepted your father's presence.

But my mother was too selfish. Not just Mama, but your dad too. He assured Mama that you could eventually accept and make up.

Apparently, all these allegations are wrong. Anggi got out of the gang for reasons not obtained and you know, honey?

When you asked to go to the bar at the time, he didn't really refuse. He came in a private car and saw you from a distance" Mama said of the past in the car as she headed home.

"Well, isn't that helping me Bagas Ma?" I remember talking to you a few months ago.

"Yes, it's true. But, in the middle of the road Anggi who brought you home. He's the one who told the driver to take the bike and he's the one who brought the car is also you."

'Meaning, Bagas knows my house because he followed the time between Anggi dong, 'my mind frowned.

The ringing noise made me startle, took my phone and saw the name on it. Scroll towards Mama at a glance.

"Who?" mama asked a little.

"Bang Rangga Ma," I said confusedly. Because, it's not usually Bang Rangga wants to call me.

I nudged and pressed the green button, "Assalamualaikum, what's up Bang?" ask me when the phone is connected.

"Girishalam, Nazwa. I'm bothering you?" tanya Bang Rangga.

"Mm .. no, really."

"Can you accompany me tomorrow?"

"Where's Bang?"

"Me with the Rose."

I was silent for a moment, afraid if later Sister Rose even angry with me or even think no-no to this self.

"Hallo, is there still Nazwa there?" asked Bang Rangga with a bit of pangs.

"Gee!" my jolt when it dawned just daydreamed.

"Where? Can or not? Are you afraid if he thinks nothing of you? Or ... Are you afraid that you might be accused of all sorts of the same thing as him?" said Bang Rangga who seemed to know what I was thinking.

"Yes, that's Bang. Nazwa was afraid if he thought that way," I was nervous because I was a little afraid.

In fact, let alone women, men I was never afraid even to fight.

I smiled, remembering once slapping someone because he did not help the person he made fall.

As a result, I was completely expelled from school because of her complaining. Ck! Basic complainant.

"Okay Bang, what time is it tomorrow?" I asked quickly, "celebrity Nazwa, yes, Nazwa would like to see you."

Mumpung there is Bang Rangga, what's wrong all you ask to deliver and accompany to meet one of my friends first.

Although not necessarily he will want and can later, maybe he has other activities in his home.

"May, tomorrow you pick up at 4pm."

"Okay Bang."

"See you."

I closed the call first, staring at Mama who was looking at me with a different look than usual.

"My mom, why?" ask me with my eyebrows linked.

"Cie .. Do you have any relationship with Rangga?"

"Huh? No Ma, people have nothing to do."

"So, why would he even ask to accompany you? Why not Farhan?"

"Yes, maybe Farhan is busy or something else" I said indifferently with a shrug while throwing a look out of the glass.

"Cowok if it's like that, be careful. There must be a similar feeling to you" Mama whispered into my ear that felt terrible.

"Ih, Mama whatan, anyway! Bang Rangga's people had already considered Nazwa as his own brother as well," ketusku stared at Mama by advancing the lips.

"Yes-yes, uh, or maybe you mean the future husband ... Rangga, again?"

"No, Mom, what the hell!" I saw Mama flirting nonstop. I got out of the car first when I realized we were there.

'Why am I being invited, huh?' my inner self felt that there was indeed a little something strange.

'Hmm .. maybe, so that Bang Rangga can be more patient later to face Kak Rawar, ' connect me and open the entrance immediately without waiting for Mama first.