Lord, Accept My Repentance

Darinya Gamis

[Sorry, Guys! I'm not going down the road like that, next time, yeah! All our touring,] I sent the group after I got home at 12 noon.

"Honey, let's have lunch!" call Mama at the door.

"Yes, Ma," I said and got out of bed putting a cell phone on it.

The veil that I had forgotten had been removed from my head and the clothes had also changed into more casual clothes.

Mama looked at me gently and smiled at me, "Yuk!" Embrace Mama walking together to the dining table.

When he arrived, there was only Farhan there, "Where did Bangga go, Ma?" I sat in front of Farhan.

"Go, don't know where."

I took enough food and did not forget to pray before eating, there was only the sound of the clanking of spoons in this room.

At last, lunch was over and Farhan and I cleaned the food and the dishes at the dinner table.

Farhan put the leftover food back in place and I was part of washing the dirty in the sink.

"If you're ready, take the ablution directly, yes, dear," said Mama who just came out of the bathroom. I immediately nodded 'yayat' his words.

After performing the prayer, Mama chose to take a nap because she claimed to be exhausted while I chose to go to the park where there is now a stool.

Bang Rangga bought a bench so that Mama and I could relax in the afternoon or evening, he said.

"Hottest, what's here?" ask someone who is next to me.

"Sit down, what else?" I answered a little and turned my eyes back to the park.

A sigh rang out from his lips, let alone him. I'm just tired of all this.

"You happy?" farhan asked for a moment which made me look in wonder at him.

He glanced at me, "Why?"

"You're the one who's why? Why would you suddenly ask me that?" I asked who felt strange.

"Yes .. I think your life is too heavy with what's happening to you right now."

"Hahaha, you're right. Sometimes I wonder about God. Why wasn't I called quickly, I was too scared to kill myself.

About what I said to Dad at that time, there's no way I really did it. I was just kidding and didn't intend to.

But, they immediately thought that it was real. Sometimes, I feel like there's no point in this world.

A lousy, wayward kid, can't be proud of. I don't know what use God made me" I said, who told him.

"I did not create jinn and men except that they might worship Me.

(QS. Az-Zariyat: Verse 56)," said Farhan who made me stare at his face.

I fell silent after getting the words from the man earlier, for some reason it felt like being stuck.

"What do you want to be? Isn't your life God messed up? Do you know why? For you to complain to God, God wants you to come to him.

Without coercion, without encouragement from others but from your own heart. Allah will not test his servant beyond the limits of his ability.

One more thing, a woman can't get along too much with men. Do you know why? Because ... Satan could have incited them to do nothing to you."

"You mean them, who?" ask me by knitting eyebrows.

"I think you know who I mean, keep your marwah as a woman" Farhan said as he placed the bag beside me and got up from his seat.

I saw the back go into the house, I saw him long enough to be invisible again.

The deg!

My heart felt touched when I saw the set of gamis with a veil that was similar in color to this mocca.

"When did he buy his shirt?" I muttered as I looked back at the open door with no one there.

I was pensive, put back the game that was given to its original place and stared straight ahead.

***

"I guess we can't wait any longer. It's been too long!" grumpy Arpan with clenched hands.

"Yes, we immediately take him camping," Lio said.

"Really! His brother is also getting more and more so, he has dared to make our gang's good name tainted!" said Bagas staring sharply ahead.

"Huh? Meanin?" tanya Arpan stared at Bagas who was sitting on the sofa where they were gathering.

"Lu see this," said Bagas while looking at his phone.

Arpan's hand clenched reading what Bagas was given, Lio and one of his friends also read what Bagas had told them.

In the status of Silang, he wrote that the Bagas gang is a gang that is not good in everything.

They often do wild racing and also cheat funds, when their gang will start a wild racing game.

Geng Bagas said that their money will be taken to the bank first, it turns out they did not return again until Gilang tried sincerely.

Not only that, Bagas also cheats with bets using fake money also often do other cheating things.

"Bangs*t this guy!" angrily Arpan cursed after reading what was in the sosmed.

"Let's see, we'll make him kneel down and beg us," growled Bagas with a sinister smile staring intently ahead.

"What plan will you make?" ask the curious Arpan.

"Haha, there are. Wait for the play date!"

***

"Bang, you shouldn't have created that status on your social media!" reprimand Farhan who was on the phone with Gilang in the room.

"Biarin, aja. You don't have to worry, they won't mess around" Gilang said in a relaxed tone.

"Can't be Bang, Nazwa is close to them. What if they do something to Nazwa and we don't know?" asked Farhan who was already worried due to the decision made by Gilang.

"You just plug the GPS back into his cell phone, is it hard anyway?"

"Bang, I'm disappointed in you brother! I thought that all this time Brother was a figure who cared about Nazwa, but it was not at all. Brother instead put him in the zone that makes him dangerous.

What did brother say? Just see the GPS? His brother checked his whereabouts 24 hours? And do you think he won't check his cell phone?

He will also be amazed if his GPS is alive, what if he is taken to a place that is not-not with them and we do not know at all?

They must have done it because of you too! They did it for revenge because of the brother who humiliated them!" farhan said in a firm voice, a little snapping.

He had been pacing around like an iron due to the actions of Gilang who seemed rash, pretending to know the existence of Nazwa.

In fact, during Nazwa in Farhan's place he never came to visit even he did not know if Nazwa worked part time because the money was no longer given by his father.

Gilang was silent to Farhan's words as if he had just realized the mistake he had made, a mistake that not only affected him but Nazwa as well.