Lord, Accept My Repentance

Enter the Hospital

I was running down the hospital corridor when I heard that Mama Farhan entered the IGD because she was sick.

In fact, I just got to campus and chose to skip because I really wanted to see Mama.

"Where's mom?" I asked with panicked faces at Farhan and Bang Rangga who were already waiting in front of the room.

"Still in Nazwa, later it looks like he just moved to the hospital room," said Bang Rangga made this body slump.

"What pain does it hurt?"

Silence, no one answered that even they looked at each other made me suspect that there was something they were hiding from me.

"Why silence? Nazwa remembered, this is not the first time Mama has been to the hospital. At that time, Mama also went to the hospital even though she did not get hospitalized. What are you hiding from me?" ask me who feels that there is something I do not know.

As Bang Rangga was about to open his voice, the door of Mama's room opened and showed a doctor coming out of it.

"Family patient, may I come with you?"

"Good doctor."

Bang Rangga followed the doctor to his room, it seemed like there was something important to talk about about Mama's condition.

Screaming towards Farhan, he cupped his face which looked so extremely frustrated. I wanted to ask her, but I was afraid of being a burden to her.

Standing up and looking at Mama from the glass outside the door, she lay weakly and the nurse who was busy installing also checked her condition.

"Sir, can you be visited?" chirped me when one of the nurses came out of Mama's room.

"Sorry Dek, I can't. Wait until the patient is fully conscious."

"Is my mother unconscious?" I looked like I was stabbed by a knife.

I was told by Bang Rangga only limited to Mama entering the hospital and the address, not told how Mama's condition.

"Not Deck," answered the nurse and left me with legs again unable to support this body.

'What a pain mom is, yes, Allah.'

'Ma .. strong, Ma. There's Nazwa here Ma.'

'Mom definitely can, Mama is a great woman that Nazwa once knew.'

The clear thread I can no longer hold, I can only ask in my heart and maybe soon I will get the answer I want.

The ringtone of the phone shifted my mind, immediately got up and took the phone in the pocket of the game.

"Assalamualaikum, what's the matter Yah?" ask me to see the name of the father that is displayed on this flat object screen.

"Waalaikumsalam, where are you? This is Dad back at your college, your drinking water is missing," Dad said, leaving me speechless.

"I'm sorry, Nazwa isn't on campus," I was a little afraid that Dad would get angry because it was Dad who took me to college today.

"Huh? How do you mean?" firm Dad might be the one who's already angry over there.

"Farhan's mother went to the hospital and Nazwa is now in the hospital for Mama" I explained to Dad.

"When did he go to the hospital?"

"Today is Yes."

"Well, you're not lying to me anymore, are you?" look Dad might be scared if I go back rogue like I used to.

"No, it's Dad. Later Nazwa send a picture of him if I don't believe," I don't want to be called a fraud.

"Yes-yes, I believe it. Yaudah, Mama and Dad will be there, yeah."

"Yes, Dad."

"Oh, if so, Dad died first. Assalamualaikum."

"Waalaikumsalam Well," I replied and turned off the call. I put the phone back in and stared at Farhan who was still with the same face.

Choosing to walk towards the canteen, I wanted to buy a drink and food first so that Farhan would at least be somewhat calm.

"Thank you Ma'am" I said when asked where the cafeteria with one of the people in the corridor was.

Finished buying food and drinks, back to the front of the IGD and there was already Bang Rangga who happened to look at me.

"Where are you from?" bang Rangga asked gently with a smile. Although, that smile could not cover that there was so much sadness and fear on his face.

"This, out of the canteen. Brother and Farhan drink also eat first, deh. Let it be a little quiet," I suggested giving a bottle of drinking water first to Bang Rangga.

"Farhan," I called to make him look up when I gave him a bottle of water.

"I don't want to" he answered briefly with a flat face.

I take a slow breath, not the time to argue it's better to just give up. If he doesn't want to, then.

"What did the doctor say?" I was wondering what they were talking about with the doctor.

"Mama will be hospitalized" said Bang Rangga who sat down while I was beside Farhan with a considerable distance.

"What is Mama sick of?" I raised one eyebrow.

"Mama got typhoid," Bang Rangga replied making me shut up.

However, immediately Farhan looked so deeply at Bang Rangga as if he was staring at a liar.

I looked towards Farhan and Rangga alternately, "Why Farhan? How come Bang Rangga is so great?" ask wonder.

Farhan turned his eyes, I don't understand what's going on. Whether what Bang Rangga said was true or not.

In fact, Farhan was speechless from earlier. If it's just typhus, why make Farhan as sad as he is now?

The nurse who had just left turned out to have just entered again, she opened the door wide to make the three of us stand up.

"Mama's gonna be moved, huh, Bang?" I looked up with a face that knew nothing.

Bang Rangga gave a smile and nodded towards me, I replied to the smile.

Mama lay with a blanket up to her stomach, the infusion was already attached to Mama's hand. I shook my head and had tears.

"W-why does your types get as pale as that Bang?" I'm with a sob.

"The cold mama seems to be in the room, but it's as pale as that. Udah, you do not cry, yes," said Bang Rangga calming with his trembling voice.

I took a breath with a sigh, wiping away the tears.

"Don't be sad when you see a sick person, it just makes him feel less excited" Farhan said and followed the nurse who brought Mama.

I nodded and walked after Farhan from behind while hugging the crackle that contained food and drinks that Farhan had refused earlier.

Mama has been put into her room in which there is only Mama, the nurse re-installed and put the tool into the right position.

"We can see Mommy?" bang Rangga asked when the nurse was done.

"Already, but not much and please just for a moment. The patient needs rest" said the nurse, who we nod immediately.

Farhan sneaked in without asking if Bang Rangga wanted luan or me.

When Bang Rangga was just silent at the door, I put down the food and drink earlier and ran after the nurse earlier.

"Mom, wait!" call me a little quietly for fear that Bang Rangga will hear my voice.

"Yes, what's wrong?" the nurse looked at me and stopped.

"I want to ask you, dong. What's my mom sick, huh?" ask me with a crybaby to melt the atmosphere.

The nurse I asked looked at each other with the other nurse, it made me even more confused and curious about the condition of Mama.