Lord, Accept My Repentance

Obviousness

Farhan and Gilang finally take Nazwa to the hospital, waiting outside with their parents.

Mama Farhan will come with Rangga later, while Ms Nazwa is already on the road with her driver.

The two of them sat on a waiting bench in front of the room, making a prayer so that nothing happened, especially Nazwa's psychology.

Chequek!

The open door of the room featured a female doctor with glasses perched on her nose.

"Family patient?" ask by closing the door of the room.

Sontak Farhan and Gilang immediately stood at the same time, "Yes, doc. I'm his family!" in unison they answered making the doctor stare one by one.

"Are you ready?" ask the doctor towards Gilang who glanced at Farhan.

She flinched, "I'm a doctor friend, yes, she's a patient's family" Gilang said smilingly looking at Farhan.

Farhan was stunned to hear Gilang's words earlier, he wanted to say something but a reluctant voice came out.

"Well, let's go to my room" said the doctor and walked ahead, leaving the two of them.

Puk!

Puk!

"Gue sure, you must be very curious about the state of Nazwa. So let you know first. After all, you must also know more about this than I do. Yes, sana!" tell Gilang.

"Bang ...," pause Farhan who felt bad.

"Udah, just relax. Sono!"

Farhan nodded and followed the doctor who had started to stay away, occasionally running small so as not to lose track of the doctor.

'Lu's lucky Nazwa, got such a good family as you,' Inner Gilang took a rough breath and sat back down.

Nazwa was given a sedative injection by a doctor before, now there is a nurse who accompanies the woman.

He blames himself for beating his own body, the doctor is unable to withstand it and the way for the woman to calm down is by injecting her.

Inside the doctor's room, Farhan was sitting in front of the doctor who was only blocked by the table.

"Did he just experience something?" the doctor looked at Farhan and fixed the position of his glasses.

The dewy eyes from earlier looked down and nodded weakly, a sigh sounded so heavy from the doctor's lips.

Making Farhan raise his head and look at the doctor, "He won't be admitted to a crazy hospital, will he?" asked Farhan who was panicking.

"No, if he can control himself, make peace with what happens and the family helps him" said the doctor with his hands tied to the table.

About an hour and a half later, Farhan was in the doctor's office, he came out and walked back to Nazwa's room lethargic.

It was as if what happened to Nazwa could be felt by him, his slumped shoulders and slow steps.

"Dear, how?" mama asked when she arrived and saw Farhan walking towards them.

Farhan stared at the voice, all looking anxious even there was already Father and stepmother Nazwa as well.

"Have you not been given anything to see Nazwa yet?" tanya Farhan looked at the person who was there.

They all shook their heads including Gilang who had been in front of them.

Chequek!

"The victim is conscious, please don't talk to the heavy. After feeling he was able to calm down, can be invited home," said the nurse who came out of the room.

The nurse left after saying this, because Nazwa had no physical injuries. So, he was allowed to go home.

They were only told that the woman entered the hospital, but the cause has not been told.

Gilang who was sitting looked up and looked towards Farhan, the man could only speak a thousand languages.

"You know, just tell me what the doctor said inside" told Gilang and was taken weakly by Farhan.

"Nazwa, it's not sick. She ... became a victim of sexual harassment," said Farhan who made them except Gilang shocked.

"Huh?"

"So!"

"Why can?"

Mama Farhan immediately cried while Nazwa's father clenched his hands when he knew his daughter was experiencing it.

"He was harassed by Bagas and his friends. They invited Nazwa camping, but they had other intentions," Gilang said.

"Bagas? What about your enemy?" ask Gilang's father and get a nod from the man.

Bugh!

Instantly hit the stomach Gilang given by his own father, those who passed by in the corridor immediately stopped because of this.

Quickly Gilang's new wife detained her husband while Farhan petrified Gilang and separated the two of them.

"Based on shit*n you! Because you're your sister to be a victim like that!" snapped Gilang's father in anger.

Gilang just stayed on the floor, he did not fight and did not look at his father. He felt guilty and felt that it was all because of his fault.

He shouldn't have let Nazwa go with them and he shouldn't have posted anything that made his enemy even more angry about him.

"Om-om, it's best to calm down. Don't make a fuss, this is a hospital especially if Nazwa hears there is a commotion. Fearing, he felt increasingly depressed," said Farhan looked up at Gilang's father who was still passionate about his anger.

With a hunting breath and held by his new wife, Gilang's father tried to be patient and people who had stopped to see them finally scattered away.

"The doctor said, how to cope with the trauma of sexual abuse we need to take him to a psychologist or psychiatrist.

Then, he also had to be able to accept reality even though it would definitely be difficult. But, yes, this is the reality.

Nazwa can also tell other people and maybe psychologists one of them, or if indeed he does not want to be with psychologists can be with Father, Mother, Brother or anyone who is wanted by Nazwa.

Even if he still does not want to tell stories with us, writing in a diary also does not hurt. He can vent that frustration, sadness or something.

Then, we help him not to blame the situation. We assure him that this is fate.

If he is willing to fight to do all that and we can help him, hopefully the trauma he is now experiencing can disappear or diminish.

The psychological impact Nazwa is feeling now, he is experiencing stress, trauma, emotional changes, filled with fear, and reduced interest in socializing because of embarrassment to meet others."

Everyone was silent to Farhan's explanation that he knew from the doctor. Gilang's father was sitting limp in the chair.

While Mama Farhan again sobbed by holding her mouth, Rangga brought the Mama into the man's arms.

"Why didn't he fight back when they did something like that?" firmly, Gilang's father looked towards Farhan who was still holding Gilang's shoulder.

"Doctors say, victims of sexual abuse do not fight because they feel panic and severe shock that makes their bodies stiff or called tonic immobility.

Nazwa fight, really. Although, the brengs*k already had time to do that to him. He was about to do the no-no if I found him too late," growled Farhan staring intently at the floor with clenched hands.

It was as if those who did this were in front of him, right. If there was Lio now before him, he would not just stare.

Perhaps, it had already consumed the life of the man directly at that very moment.