Lord, Accept My Repentance

Fall asleep

Finished from the hospital and bought food, we ended up going home. There was a little worry about Mama especially after leaving the hospital she just closed her eyes until home.

"Mama take a break, let me arrange the food," cut me as Mama helped walk into the room with Farhan and Bang Rangga.

"Please bring the purchased porridge to Mama's room, yes, Nazwa," pinta Bang Rangga I replied with a nod.

"Udah let me do it" I said as Farhan closed the door.

They went into Mama's room, I locked the door and went into the kitchen to tidy up the food purchased earlier.

I put into the bowls of food bought by Bang Rangga but this Mama's order. I was confused and still had no answer.

Mama actually hurt what and why it got like that, if soy sauce. It could be, especially this week I never helped him.

It's the first day I've just started again, and I'm not sure today is the day I started a new chapter of my life.

I brought a special bowl of porridge for Mama to her room.

Tok tok tok tok

The door closed, making me have to knock first. Although I have lived here long enough, but I still do not feel good if you have to go to your room without permission first.

Chequek!

Farhan opened the door, "Eh, you want to send Mama's porridge, huh?" I nodded hearing his question.

"Jude, comein!" farhan's word got me into the room. There is still Bang Rangga here.

Her eyes I saw a little red as if crying, Mama smiled at me with her body leaning on the headboard.

"What's wrong?" I stared at Mama and Bang Gilang in turn.

Bang Gilang got up from his seat, "There's nothing," replied Bang Gilang shook his head.

"Why did you cry?"

"It's just a flickering," cut Mama with a smile that doesn't fade. I looked towards the room, very clean.

"But, it's clean here. Where there may be dust," I said strangely with the answer of Mama earlier.

"Not dust, but Bang Rangga's own eyelashes. Kan, you know that Bang Rangga's eyelashes are long!" timpal Farhan is now beside me but still at a distance.

Bang Rangga smiled with Farhan's words, indeed Bang Rangga's eyelashes are quite long as well as flickering.

Even in the past, I was so envious of her eyelashes. If she is a girl, maybe there is no need to clamp the eyelashes also wear mascara let alone false eyelashes.

"Yaudah, you two eat there. Let Nazwa bribe Mama," Mama said, making me look at the woman, "want you?" Mama raised one eyebrow asking for approval for what she said earlier.

"Yes, certainly not Papa Ma," I explained while nodding.

"Okay, we're going to the kitchen first. Lunch, laper already very," complained Bang Rangga.

They both came out of the room and closed the door again, I sat on the edge of the bed facing Mama.

I took off the backpack that had remained on my back, put some drinking water on the nightstand next to Mama's bed.

I spooned the porridge and put it in front of my lips, the woman raised her hands and prayed before eating.

He smiled at me and put food in his mouth, "Darling, tonight you want to, yes, sleep with Mama," Mama said to make me a little surprised.

"Aren't you Papa Ma?" I asked who felt strange.

"Grandfather, dong."

"But I can't be put to sleep."

"Gak papa, later Mama hugged let diem haha," said Mama with a little chuckle.

"Not Ma, not papa. I'm not hungry either."

"You're happy to live with Mama?"

I looked at Mama's face which was also looking at me, I nodded my head because that's how I felt.

"Mama .. can you ask for one thing with you?" ask your mom this time carefully.

Cut my eyebrows because this first time Mama said like this, "You don't want to be papa, anyway," cut Mama who saw I never answered her words earlier.

"In Shay Allah, if Nazwa could. Surely Nazwa will do what Mama asked for."

"Alhamdulillah," Mama said with a sigh.

"What is Ma?" I asked who was curious.

"Not now Mama tell you, the time will be right."

"Huh?"

"You'll also know later," Mama's cut rubbed my head.

Finished helping Mama eat and take medicine to fall asleep, I came out of the room not forgetting to bring a bowl and empty glass and my backpack earlier.

I put the backpack down by throwing it on the bed first and then closing the door back.

Walking towards the kitchen, there was no one, 'Bang Rangga had already gone to work like that, huh?' my mind doesn't hear the car coming out of the garage.

I ate alone at the dinner table, there is still a lot of leftovers because it is this meal plan until later tonight considering Mama is still sick.

'Oh, yeah, why don't I ask Mama, yeah. Mama is sick what exactly, 'my inner by inserting rice also side dishes using hands into the mouth.

The food on my plate was gone, I sipped a drink and immediately washed the dirty dishes I made.

Ring the dining table again and put the leftovers in the closet, I think the clock is 2 pm.

Taking a broom, to sweep the house even though this morning it was broom by Mama. Because, it is usually the house will be swept twice in one day.

I do my homework even by ironing clothes that are not too much actually.

Clothes that are ironed and not that different, usually will be immediately folded by Mama and the iron will be placed into the basket until Mama diligently iron it.

I also went out to sweep the yard and water and throw flowers and leaves that were dry.

Feeling uneasy with the neighbors who usually never gathered staring at me, I accelerated the work outside the house by sweeping the last terrace.

At the middle of four in the afternoon, I had finished cleaning the house and bathroom of course. Get on the couch with my feet and my hand-picked head and the television I turned on.

Intending only to fall while watching cartoons, it turns out my eyes can not be lied to that drowsiness has attacked from earlier until finally the work is finished. I fell asleep accompanied by the cartoon I had chosen earlier.

"The nazwa!"

"Nazwa!

"The nazwa!"

The voice that called my name was a little disturbing to the dream, I opened my eyes reluctantly and saw who had called my name earlier.

"Udah Asar, prayers" said Farhan, whom I have now seen clearly.

He got up in neat clothes and did not forget to use the peci, "Don't sleep again, yes. I want to go to the mosque first, Mama I woke up too. Assalamualaikum, "greetings and pass from before me.

"Waalaikumsalam," I answered turning the body to see him who was about to leave the house.