Look At Me Once

L.A.S.S

An hour after Azkiya's funeral took place, but Lathifa refused to move from her place. In all black clothes he sat down in front of his daughter's navel, next to him was Hana's mother who always faithfully accompanied the princess. Bram and Ayu stood watching from a distance.

Lathifa continued to look at the small mound in front of her, she still clearly remembered the face of her daughter who was silent in her arms this morning. The first and last hug he could give Azkiya.

“Let's go home, Fa!” take Hana's mother while gently stroking Lathifa's back.

“Lathif still wants to be here, Mom. Mother go home first with mas Bram and mbak Ayu,” replied Lathifa without turning away from her daughter's navel.

“Mother knows you're sad, Fa. But remember, your sadness will not change anything. Remember, there is still Azka who needs you, Fa.” Hana's mother never gave up trying to seduce her daughter.

“Azkiya was calm there, he was not in pain anymore, Fa. Do’ only Azkiya happy on his side.” Hana's mother continued to caress Lathifa's back, hoping to channel a little strength to her daughter.

“There are grandfathers and uncles who will always look after your daughter, Fa. Your job is done here, you've tried everything you can. Sincerely yes, son .. I know you are a great child, you can definitely go through all of this.”

Hearing her mother's words, Lathifa quickly twisted her body and hugged her mother tightly. Her tears broke again, she cried again in the arms of Hana's mother.

The cry that was so heartbreaking to anyone who heard it, Hana's mother was unable to hold back her tears, so they both cried hugging each other's bodies and giving each other strength.

From far away Ayu was unable to hold tightness in her chest, she hugged her husband and joined in crying in the arms of Bram. Not long ago they knew each other, but their relationship was like their own family.

Hana's mother let Lathifa shed all her sorrow, before long Lathifa's cry stopped after the burden of her heart was slightly reduced replaced by tears.

“We go home yes, Fa,” take bu Hana with a hoarse voice. “It's almost 5 hours, pity Bram and Ayu waiting for us from earlier, tomorrow we can come again to visit Azkiya.”

Lathifa just nodded still in her mother's arms, her lips tightly closed no more sounds coming out of her mouth.

Ms. Hana led Lathifa to walk away from her daughter's meal, all the way to the lathifa, occasionally looking back, at her daughter's grave, which was flanked by the graves of her grandfather and uncle. At Lathifa's wishes, they buried Azkiya flanked by the graves of her father and brother despite being quite far from where she lives today.

‘Jagain princess Lathif yes, Sir, Mas ... Lathif and Ibuk say goodbye first.’

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In the evening, many relatives came to visit Alwi because the news about him who had died had spread to all relatives and extended families.

Although this morning Alwi had opened his eyes, but until the afternoon there was still no more response indicated by Alwi. Doctors appealed to the family to continue to invite Alwi to communicate to help the development of Alwi, although Alwi was only silent and did not answer, the doctor said if Alwi could definitely hear what the family was talking about.

Inside the VVIP room where Alwi was treated, several families were holding prayers together for Alwi's healing. Everyone looks solemn reading the chants of the verses of the Qur’an led by Ustadz Hamdan, Alwi's two in-laws were present and participated in praying for Alwi's healing.

Other families prayed in front of Alwi's room because not all of them could enter the room. After praying together with some of the relatives say goodbye after previously seeing the state of Alwi, they feel happy because Alwi has made progress.

Currently in the room there are only two parents and in-laws Alwi and Raiyan and Zahran. They again discussed the search for Lathifa which has not yet yielded results.

“We've been looking for 7 months, Mas. All efforts have been made, but the traces of Lathifa and her mother can not be found at all,” said Mr. Akbar has started to give up.

“Do not give up, we must be sure someday Lathifa we can definitely find. Maybe we should try more,” said Abi Husein.

Not because they did not mean to look for traces of Lathifa, they did not even bear the responsibility of deploying many parties and hiring some people for the search. However, perhaps God had not allowed them to meet Lathifa, especially Lathifa was very careful in her hiding and in removing all traces of her.

“Umi worries about her and her baby, Bi,” timpal Umi Hanifa who is sitting next to Alwi's bed.

“Are they okay? Does Lathifa eat well? Where have they lived all this time?” asked Umi in a row made everyone speechless, because they knew that Lathifa left without bringing anything.

The old room was filled with silence, occupied with each other's thoughts.

“Later Zahran try to ask for help with her husband Zahra, Pa, Bi .. Hopefully Zain can help us,” said Zahran broke the silence.

“Iya Gus, hopefully your sister-in-law can help us. The more the search will be better, soon surely Lathifa will give birth, pity if we do not find it soon.” Umi Hanifa was very worried about the condition of her former daughter-in-law, still stored guilt and regret in her heart.

“Good, Umi. Soon I will talk to Zain,” replied Zahran.

“The plan if until the end of this month Alwi has not recovered, I will take him to Egypt with us,” said Abi Husein. “I have left Egypt too long, and we could not stay in Indonesia longer,” added Abi Husein.

After causing his sentence, Abi Husein fell silent followed by everyone who helped sharpen their hearing when faintly heard a groaning, soft and very slow voice.

As soon as everyone exchanged glances then simultaneously turned their eyes towards Alwi lying down.

He saw Alwi's eyelids move slightly even though his eyes were still tightly closed. Everyone seemed to be focused on waiting for the next move, afraid that the voice they had just heard was their delusion.

“Fa ...” one word that came out of Alwi's mouth managed to resuscitate the people around him.

“God's Assya!”

“Allahu Akbar!”

“Alhamdulillah!”

“Quick Call Doctor, Ray!” the Umi Hanifa command is fast, forgetting the emergency button function next to the patient's bed.

“Fa ... Ma-af ..”.

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At the same time Hana's mother sat pensively staring at Lathifa's back who had just fallen asleep, long enough she calmed down and tried to strengthen Lathifa.

Many of the messages he gave to his daughter until unconsciously Lathifa fell asleep in his lap. ‘You're a strong boy, Thif. I'm sure you can go through all these exams, which is patient ... Mother will always be beside you, mother will always be your encouragement.’