Look At Me Once

Uneasily

Anisa stared fixedly at her honey face sitting opposite to her, she did not want to be hypocritical. The more Anisa saw the tiny face of Lathifa who was beautiful and also young, and a cheerful and independent person made Anisa increasingly feel jealous and riled up on her own.

While Lathifa who feels noticed becomes misbehaved and increasingly feels guilty afraid if he makes a mistake.

Anisa looked at the face of her husband, Alwi Husein Ibrahim. The figure of the man he loved so much, who was now sitting between Anisa and Lathifa was enjoying his breakfast.

On the one hand, Anisa is very grateful that her husband has complied with her desire to receive Lathifa. But on the other hand, it turns out that all this is not as easy as he thought.

Anisa is just an ordinary human being who is far from perfect, she can still feel jealousy and pain. Anisa turns out not to be fully able to see her husband share her love, too poignant for her.

Anisa remembered her meeting yesterday with the Doctor who handled it.

“You have to do a re-examination, Anisa,” said Dr. Saris.

“For what, Doctor? Isn't the diagnosis enough?”

Doctor Sari breathed heavily while fixing the location of her glasses. “Symptoms that have happened to you lately are signaling. Chances are the cancer cells in your stomach have spread to other organs.”

“Mbak, why look at me like that?” tanya Lathifa made Anisa wake up from her daydream.

“Eh, what are you talking about, Fa?” Anisa seems to be less focused.

“Why did Anisa look at me?” ask Lathifa again.

Anisa smiled sweetly then briefly answered her honeymoon question. “You are beautiful.”

The two words that came from Anisa's lips managed to make the two people in front of her surprised, they did not expect Anisa to say that.

Alwi choked on his food to hear his first wife's confession, while Lathifa was confused to respond.

“Drink first, Mas!” Anisa offered a glass of water to her husband. “His delicacies, why did you choke on my words, Mas?”

Seeing Alwi not reacting to anything made Anisa smile and again raised her question. “Isn't Lathifa beautiful, Mas?”

“I'm done eating, you guys just continue the breakfast.” Alwi stood up and chose to dodge, he did not want to answer the trick question of his first wife.

Anisa smiled at her husband's behavior, she then continued her breakfast that had not been touched.

Lathifa stared at her husband's departure with her tail in a disappointed heart. ‘What do you expect from that cold man, Fa? You expect him to praise you? Be aware! You're just a dust grain to him.’

After breakfast Anisa and Lathifa clean the dining table, they both work together to clean the tableware they use without wanting to rely on everything to mbok Ijah.

“Sunday tag along to pesantren yes, Fa!” take Anisa.

“Eh, um .. sorry, Ma'am. I have an appointment to work with a friend,” replied Lathifa slowly. He had to lie and could not tell the truth.

‘Sorry Ma'am, I didn't mean to lie to Anisa. But, is not lying allowed for good.’ Inner Lathifa to calm his heart.

“Oh, yasudah. Though I want to introduce you to a large family of pesantren,” said Anisa makes Lathifa feel guilty.

“Sorry, Ma'am.”

“It's okay, Fa. Maybe next time I'll take you with me, Fa. And make sure you won't reject it!”

“I tried yes, Ma'am.”

“Oh yes, how's the game, Fa? Does it fit your size?”

“Gamis?” ask Lathifa confused.

“Yes, has Mas Al not given you that game yet?” ask Anisa.

“Eh, already Ma'am, but I haven't tried it yet,” replied Lathifa in an implied voice of her disappointment.

‘What do you think, Fa? It's obvious you don't mean anything to him, of course it's not just you that guy bought the game. Don't get your hopes up!’

“And I want us to wear the game together at the Thanksgiving event at the pesantren next week, but yes you have to.. You also can not attend it.” Anisa was silent for a moment. “Mas Al bought the same robe for both of us, Fa.”

While in his study, Alwi sat pensively. He was confused and confused with his own mind.

“Hold, baby. I beg!” racau Alwi who sat beside the hospital gurney while tightly grasping the weakly lying hands of Anisa with various tools attached to her body.

“I promise I will always love you, Nis. Wake up! Until when are you going to sleep like this?” Alwi wiped the tears that he could not bear anymore.

A week ago Anisa was lying in a coma due to a disaster that made the woman must be willing to lose the opportunity to become a perfect mother and wife for her husband.

As a result of the accident that befell her, Anisa had to lose the baby she contained even doctors were forced to remove her uterus because of bleeding that never stopped.

“Honey, wake up. I'm sure you can listen to me, I love you, love you so much,” Alwi said sounding very heartbreaking to anyone who heard it.

“Honey, I promise I will always love you and there will only be you the only woman in my life! I don't care if we don't have children, we can live happily together until old age, Nis! Wake up! Fight, don't give up!”

“Astaghfirullah!” Alwi is interested in remembering the events that managed to make it worse a few years ago.

“What should I do, Nis? What do you really want?” alwi asked even though he knew there was no one else in the room, and he knew very well what Anisa wanted. The son, the heir in his family.

Alwi said in his heart, he then stood up and came out of the room after taking some files that he needed.

In the kitchen, Lathifa said goodbye to Anisa to immediately leave for campus.

“Mbak Anisa, I said yes.” Lathifa carried her favorite backpack on her shoulders, the backpack her late brother gave her.

Anisa held Lathifa's hand before she passed from the kitchen. “Bring this up in case you get hungry later, Fa.” Anisa put in a box of fried rice for Lathifa.

“Thank you, Ma'am,” said Lathifa while smiling warmly.

“You are not together with the same mas Al?” ask Anisa.

“No-”

“Come, Lathifa. I was in a hurry,” said Alwi who walked down the stairs, he then took two boxes of food on the table that had been prepared by Anisa and then kissed Anisa's forehead, nose and cheeks.

“I ti-”

“Bareng Mas Al only, Fa. Will definitely be faster and so as not to be late.” Anisa kissed Alwi's hand and did not forget to tidy up her husband's tie and suit. “Be careful, yes, Mas.”

Although a little hesitant, Lathifa finally obeyed the wishes of a husband and wife in front of him because he did not want to argue anymore.

“I said goodbye, Ma'am.” Lathifa kissed Anisa's hand and then followed her husband to his car.

Lathifa felt that her cold husband was a little more friendly to her, just a little. Not to talk at length, Alwi did not refuse if asked Anisa to take Lathifa to college.

Alwi started the car and drove it out of the housing complex. The streets look crowded and crowded in the morning, many vehicles from two-wheelers to more than four-wheelers fill the city.

“Today you lecture what time?” tanya Alwi was still focused on her steering wheel.

“Jam ten to three o'clock in the afternoon,” replied Lathifa.

“Later when you're done you can call me, I happen to have a meeting later near your campus. If you want, we can go home with.”

Lathifa slightly tilted her head to look at the husband. Lathifa seemed to be in disbelief if her husband asked her to come home together.

“Sorry, but I have an appointment with friends,” reject Lathifa smooth. He had an appointment with his friend to discuss their work.

Not feeling they had reached the front of the Lathifa campus, Alwi pulled his car over.

“Thank you for the ride, Assalamualaikum.”

“Wa’alaikummussalam warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.” Alwi thrust his hand at Lathifa before her young wife got out of her car.

Lathifa kissed her husband's hand and Alwi brought her closer and kissed Lathifa's forehead and managed to make Lathifa feel a shock in her chest.

Lathifa immediately pulled her hands that were still shaking hands with her husband, she rushed down from the car and entered the campus without looking back.

While in the car Alwi stared at the departure of his young wife with a difficult gaze to interpret. After making sure his wife disappeared behind the gate, Alwi again drove his car to his office.