Look At Me Once

L.A.S.S

Lathifa got the good news when the Doctor visited her this morning, she was allowed to go home after finishing the infusion that was still attached to her hand.

Upon hearing this, Ayu immediately told her husband to pick them up. Without waiting for long, Bram immediately skated and he arrived at the hospital in less than an hour.

“Alhamdulillah you have been allowed to go home, Fa. At least you can be calmer to rest at home,” said Ayu while helping pack Lathifa's clothes, the gurney next to Lathifa was filled by another patient at midnight yesterday.

“Alhamdulillah, Ma'am. But I came home alone leaving baby twin.” Lathifa's voice sounded softly resisting the grief.

The news of his return does not make him feel happy, but Lathifa is increasingly agitated to leave the baby twin who is still struggling in his absence in the hospital. Moreover, she had not had time to see them up close, just like Ayu and Bram, the nurse only allowed Lathifa to see her baby from the glass window outside.

“You can visit them every day, Fa. This is also for the good of baby twin,” said Ayu calming.

“Iya, Mbak.”

“Oh, yes ... have you decided on a name for baby twin?”

“Already, Mbak,” replied Lathifa quickly. “Azka and Azkiya.”

Lathifa smiled after saying the names of her two children, her eyes closed remembering the tiny figure confined in an incubator to sustain their lives.

“I want them to be a holy light in my life going forward, Ma'am. They will always be the lights in my life,” said Lathifa sincerely.

While Hana's mother stared fixedly at her daughter's radiant face from a distance, something was troubling her mind.

“What's their long name, Fa?” ayu asked again answered with a small slit from Lathifa, meaning he had not thought about the long names of his two children.

“What Mbak Ayu wants to propose a name for them?” tanya Lathifa made Ayu glance at her husband who had been sitting on the sofa busy with newspaper in his hand.

Lathifa who caught the doubt on Ayu's face, she made a sound again. “I'm happy if Mbak Ayu would like to give a name to them.”

Ayu hesitantly proposes her opinion after getting a small nod from Hana and Bram's mother. “Eehm... What if Zhafran and Zhafira?”

“What does the name mean, Ma'am?” lathifa asked to make sure, he wanted the name to bring good things to his children later.

“Lucky, hopefully baby twin will get luck in his life.”

“Good too,” says Lathifa. “Azka Zhafran and Azkiya Zhafira.”

Lathifa smiled as well as Ayu. Hana's mother approached her daughter and sat down beside Lathifa.

“Do you not want to pin their father's name, Thif?” mother asked Hana slowly, not wanting to hurt her daughter. However, their father is entitled to his children.

Lathifa fell silent, thinking back to her ex-husband. He had not yet defeated his heart to forget Alwi.

“Sorry, Mom. Lathif doesn't want to have her name on the children's name Lathif.” Lathifa lowered her head not daring to look at her mother's face. ‘Lathif is afraid that he will not be able to forget his shadow from Lathif's life, Ma'am,’ he continued in his heart.

“It's okay, Thif. Mom is always behind you,” said Ibu Hana while gently rubbing Lathifa's back.

Hana's mother could only nod her head, agreeing to the decision Lathifa made.

After taking care of Lathifa and Hana's belongings, the four of them immediately left the nursery which had been the residence for Lathifa for a few days.

Before going home, they took the time to visit the baby twin in the NICU room to just say goodbye, even though the two babies did not understand it.

Long Lathifa pecked in front of the window glass room NICU, no word bored for him to look at his baby, it feels heavy he had to leave his children.

‘Honey, your name is Azka Zhafran Ibrahim and Azkiya Zhafira Ibrahim, Mother wants you to be the light in your life forever. You are the most beautiful gift that God has given you, keep you there, as you have been fighting with Mother. You must be strong, you are always there for you, sorry ... Mommy can't visit you there yet, sorry mother left you here, mother promises will visit you every day.’

Lathifa allowed herself to be dissolved in pseudo-happiness despite the pain. He looked at his heart as much as he was happy, he was not willing to have to part with his children.

“Fa!”

A light pat made Lathifa wake up.

“Come, Mas Bram and mom are already waiting in front,” invite Ayu.

Lathifa did not realize that she had been standing in place for more than half an hour, with a heavy heart she dragged her feet away from the NICU.

All the way home, Lathifa just sat quietly in the back seat while staring outwards, ignoring the conversation between Ayu, Bram and her mother.

“I have got a rented house for you, Mom,” said Bram while focusing on the wheel. “But the house is not so big,” he continued.

“Alhamdulillah ... I am very grateful to both of you, no matter how big the house is the most important one worth living in,” replied Hana happy mother.

“Home is close to our house, Mom. There in the alley next door, even Ayu could see the mother's house from the back door. Mas Bram deliberately looking for a house that is not far from our house, so we can still communicate easily, Mom,” explained Ayu with a smile on her face.

“Thank you, Son. You two have helped us too much.”

“Oh yes Ma'am, we have paid the rent for the next year. May mother and Lathifa comfortably stay in your new home, there are two bedrooms, there is a living room, living room, kitchen and bathroom.” Ayu explains and makes Hana's mother moved and grateful to be reunited with people as good as the two of them.

“Later mother change the money if there is sustenance yes, Nak.”

“No need, Mom,” Bram reply quickly. “We sincerely do everything, mother and Lathifa we already consider as our family. So, do not feel hesitant to ask for help to us in the future.”

“But, Nak-”

“Mother just save the rest of the money yesterday for the purposes of baby twin later, the savings you collect should be used to open a business at home later.”

Hearing the words of the two, without feeling the tears had wet the cheeks of Hana's mother. Hannah's mother was grateful for all the blessings and sustenance that God gave her family.

Although all his family's property was lost in the hands of his nephew, now God presents His servant who had only met for a few days, but without a second thought they were willing to set aside their property to help him.

And Allah is Most Just, Most Merciful, and Allah is with those who are patient.