Living Dead's

Chapter 44 - Guilty or Not?

"Don't look at me like that."

Honestly speaking Xi Zihe was extremely dislikeful of being stared at like that by Shen Yuan. Shen Yuan's gaze was extremely cold and deep, as if he could see into the real you. And this made Xi Zihe very nervous.

He took a deep breath and continued. "You know too. Xiao Fei's body could fight this virus. We might be able to use Xiao Fei to make antibodies."

Using?

It was a pity that Xi Zihe chose a word that Shen Yuan hated so much. It was as if his daughter was just a tool to be utilized, not a human.

Shen Yuan interrupted his words firmly. "I don't want my daughter to be used as an object of research."

Of course once in a while the thought would come out in Shen Yuan's brain. If a cure to ward off the virus could be made, it would be good. But he did not want his daughter to be hurt. To make antibodies, I don't know how much blood to draw from her daughter. Although he knew that they were unlikely to make his daughter lose her life, yet as a father, he was very unwilling to see his daughter in pain.

"Dad, they wouldn't stupidly get Xiao Fei killed! Conversely, if his research is successful, mankind-"

"We'll see later." Shen Yuan cut his words again and stepped out of the warehouse without turning his head.

Xi Zihe exhaled tiredly. Of course he understood Shen Yuan's behavior. Feifei was the only family he had right now, the only thing his loved ones had left behind. So he had guessed that it would not be easy to persuade him, but he did not think that it turned out to be this difficult. He hasn't even spoken much.

If I were Shen Yuan, would I hand over my daughter easily?

Xi Zihe sat on top of the goods chest and dissolved in his mind.

***

Shen Yuan went back into the room, she saw that Feifei had already fallen asleep by himself. In the past, his daughter would not have been able to sleep without him by his side. But it seemed that his daughter had become more mature without him noticing.

The kids are growing up fast...

She had no parents, so she never knew how the parents felt as she watched her child slowly grow.

While Shen Yuan was still a student, she saw her lecturer crying during her son's wedding, saying how her daughter could leave her and go get robbed so quickly. Back then Shen Yuan simply laughed at him, completely unable to understand the feelings his lecturer felt. But now he understands it. A little anxious and worried when his daughter over time began not to depend on him. Perhaps, someday when her daughter starts flying by using her own wings, she will be lonely.

Shen Yuan shook her head, exactly what I was thinking...

It will still happen in the next few years.

Shen Yuan slightly fixed it to Feifei's blanket which was a little messy due to his kick. He slipped carefully, so that Feifei would not wake up.

Shen Yuan put away the hair that slightly blocked Feifei's forehead. She looked at her daughter's very cute sleeping face for a while, before giving a kiss on her forehead and then exiting the room. She was not sleepy at all, and her conversation with Xi Zihe was a little disturbing to her.

He decided to slightly cool his head on the roof of the dormitory.

***

Today was Song Yi's schedule for night patrol. Even though it is almost dawn, they still cannot neglect their duties.

After touring the dorm area, and feeling that nothing was wrong, Song Yi decided to go up to the roof and observe a further area using binoculars. But when he got there, there were people faster than him.

Song Yi looked at Shen Yuan leisurely sitting on the edge of the roof with her legs hanging in the air. From behind, he could only see his slightly bent back, like he was looking at something.

He approached her slowly, yet suddenly Shen Yuan had already turned to look at her. Song Yi was very surprised, but she was very sure that she did not make any sound at all, besides that there was still a distance of five meters left between them.

"Did I surprise you?" Song Yi carefully asked. But to be honest he was a little afraid of Shen Yuan's level of vigilance.

"No, I already knew someone was coming."

"That's it," Song Yi tried to find a topic of conversation. "Isn't it not your patrol schedule now? What are you doing here, dad?"

When he first saw Shen Yuan, Song Yi felt that Shen Yuan was like Mount Everest, so unreachable and cold. He was like a mismatched existence, and the aura around him was like threatening people not to approach him.

Several times, Song Yi saw Shen Yuan secretly taking care of the others. Despite putting on a cold face, he still took care of Lu Lin's injuries periodically. Or adding food rations discreetly for Yao Yue who had a larger portion of food than men. As well as caring for He Zhao, who is malnourished for being trapped in his apartment.

Moreover, even though Xi Zihe had always given him a job, he had never protested, solely to ease the burden of Xi Zihe's mind as Captain.

Deep down, Song Yi had great respect for Shen Yuan.

Shen Yuan frowned after listening to Song Yi speak, "Why did you call me father too?"

Because you are the father of all of us, Song Yi thought. But he did not dare to answer that loudly.

He could only reply, "Because everyone calls like that, I'm getting used to it."

Song Yi heard Shen Yuan sigh, "Up to you."

Song Yi immediately smiled when she heard her cold answer. This father, only his mouth sounds cold.

"I can't sleep, so I'll be here for a while." Song Yi finally heard the answer to her question.

Song Yi then walked over and sat down next to him, she then realized that Shen Yuan was looking at a photo in her wallet.

Out of curiosity, Song Yi continued to look at him. He saw a woman, who was very beautiful with light brown eyes like Feifei's eyes. Song Yi instantly realized that this woman was 100% Feifei's mother.

"That's..."

Shen Yuan immediately gave him a sharp look.

Damnit damnit! Why are you always open without me telling you, O mouth!

"Ah no... I just..."

"This is my wife."

Song Yi was trying to defend herself that she was not peeping, but Shen Yuan answered her instead.

Song Yi was stunned for a moment. But soon he heard Shen Yuan say,

"He mutated as a zombie, and I killed him with my own hands."

Song Yi's breathing stopped, and she looked at Shen Yuan with eyes of disbelief. How could he say it so casually!

However Song Yi caught that Shen Yuan's fingers slightly trembled. He's not relaxed at all.

In fact Shen Yuan also did not understand why he was telling this child. But he recalled the conversation he had heard on the roof that day. Conversation between Song Yi and Xi Zihe. Shen Yuan had no intention of eavesdropping but they did not realize that there was someone on the roof before them. Shen Yuan wanted to leave, but broke her intentions and ended up hearing the whole story. Don't blame him if he finds out.

Song Yi spoke with a trembling voice, "How about... How can..."

Shen Yuan did not answer him, he simply said, "We need not be bound by the past. Maybe, right now death is better than being a zombie."

After hearing Shen Yuan's sentence, Song Yi realized that Shen Yuan knew about her past.

Seeing her come to a realization, Shen Yuan continued, "I can't say your actions were wrong or not. And you're sinful or not. However, if that person loves you, he won't blame you."

Shen Yuan looked at the sun that was slowly starting to appear, warming up each of his cooling fingertips. He recalled every word Jiang Qinian had, every expression he made before his death.

"Maybe the man was relieved that his death could save you."

Shen Yuan did not know, he said that sentence to himself or to Song Yi.

Shen Yuan slowly stood up, gently patted Song Yi's shoulder which shook violently from crying, then left room for Song Yi to vent her feelings.