Lara My love

Chapter 24 What I want

" Where have you been." Mom screamed when I just got into the house.

" Go same Arum ma'am."

" Good yes, instead of studying even continue your work now." Snapped mom.

" Who is wandering bu, Indhi does go with Arum, but Indhi does not go play, Indhi came to the graduation ceremony om Fajar, om his Arum bu."

" From now on, I don't allow you to go to Arum's place again, you only bring bad influence to you. You often come home late, often go to play is not clear. You already want an exam, must focus on learning so that your brother can be rich as a doctor later." Mother's voice began to rise.

" Why the mother is always rich gini same Indhi, always maxain the will of the mother. Have you ever thought a little about what Indhi wants to do in the future?".

I began to be provoked by emotions, usually I would just obey my mother's orders, maybe because the incident on the road had made me feel unstable and could not resist the anger anymore with my mother.

" Mom only wants the best for you, for your future Ndi."

" Best according to mom is not necessarily good for Indhi bu."

" What's going on?"Brother Ega's voice sounded raucous.

Brother Ega came down from the stairs and approached us who were still standing in the living room. His face looks cute and his hair is a little messy, maybe sister Ega just woke up or woke up because of the noise caused by mother and also me.

" This is your sister Ega, now she likes to go on and on." Said mother while pointing to my direction.

" Indhi went with Arum ma'am, it was good with Ega."

" You were too pampering Indhi, now Indhi is so insolent and dare to fight mother."

" Who pampered Indhi bu, Ega just gave Indhi space to play outside, go with his friends. Indhi is not a child anymore ma'am, she started growing up a teenager and the attitude of mother to Indhi is not good at all for her mental mom." Bela sister Ega.

" Anyway, I don't want to know, from now on you can't go to your place anymore. After school you have to go straight home, all this time mom is too free you!"

" Will you be Indhi nemenin at home?" I asked softly while holding back the tears that had wanted to come out.

" Why are you silent? Indhi will fulfill all the wishes of the mother, Indhi will not play anywhere else, but will the mother nemenin Indhi at home?"

" Answer mom!"

" Do you know, Indhi always envied the same Indhi friends in school. Envy their bags, envy the braids of their hair, envy the little things they mention about their mother."

I paused my sentence, taking a slow breath.

" Do you know when you first menstruate?"

" Have you menstruated?"Ask mom surprised.

I smiled hearing the answer from mother, a smile full of sadness more precisely.

" In the evening, a week after the father left, Indhi get her period for the first time, Indhi scared mom, Indhi confused how to. Indhi knocked on mom's room but she never opened it. While crying Indhi went to sister's room. Brother jumped from his bed after finding Indhi crying, kakal kept asking why Indhi was crying, but Indhi was still embarrassed to tell brother. Almost half an hour Indhi cried, finally Indhi told her brother and sister instead laughed at Indhi. He said it was natural for a woman. Do you know after that what Ega did? Sis Ega went outside and came back with a big plastic sideboard that contained all kinds of foam pads. The next day Indhi did not go to school because of menstrual pain, Indhi again went to the mother's room but Indhi did not find the mother in the room, the mother had gone to work. Sis Ega painstakingly took care of Indhi bu, made Indhi ginger tea and brought a bottle of hot water compress. The thing that I should have done to Indhi was even sister Ega who did it."

I cried a sigh, for I finally had the courage to take all my heart out to my mother.

" But the working mom is for you, make your future Indhi." Mother's voice began to weaken.

" Indhi tau bu, mother worked hard for Indhi, for all of us and Indhi is very grateful for that. But ma'am, Indhi also needs a mother here, in this house. Indhi hopes that you can accompany Indhi to study, asking what Indhi is doing at school, what Indhi is feeling and what Indhi needs. Indhi also really hope that mother does not force Indhi to become a doctor, Indhi has her own dream mom, Indhi peng so ars.....

I haven't finished my sentence yet Mother cut it.

" Enough Indhi. What you do is best for you. I've worked very hard for your future, so you just have to obey my orders. Forget about your dreams, forever mother won't let you follow in our footsteps."

" Why mom, what's the reason?" This time it was Ega who asked the mother.

" Because the mother who wants it and the mother does not like Indhi denied it. And you Ega, mother doesn't like you too much to raise your sister!".

" Bad mother." My yelling.

I ran outside the house leaving behind my mother and sister Ega who were still standing in the living room. Several times Ega called my name and chased after me, but I didn't care. I was angry and I was disappointed with my mother's selfish attitude. I ran while crying, some people seemed to notice me but I didn't care anymore. I intercepted a taxi on the side of the road and boarded it. A few times the taxi driver asked me where I was going, I didn't answer because I didn't know where to go either. Finally I thought of a place, a quiet and peaceful look, which not many people knew.

I went down after I got to the place where I was going. I walked down a very quiet little street. Maybe it's because it's late so no one's passing by around here. I hesitated to step on my feet again, but my anger at my mother ignited my courage to keep going. After almost some time I finally arrived at this place again, a hill of sunflowers.

Seriate.....