Lara My love

Chapter 10 is not supposed to be

ZEAN POV

I drove my bike slowly leaving him still standing in front of his yard. The wind accompanied my journey this time , I suddenly smelled a scent that I did not recognize, the scent of a woman's perfume that stuck to my hoodie. Hmm fragrance jasmine flowers, warm, romantic, elegant, and classy aroma . I smiled happily for whatever reason. I pulled my bike over when I felt my phone vibrate, an International call that I made sure was my mama.

" Hello, why mam?" I started to open the conversation.

" why? Mommy can't call?" Mama's protest.

" It's not so mam, mamy would know it's late at night?" I reminded Mamy about the difference in time of almost 15 hours.

" Yes mami knows, but mami is also sure you must have not slept, right?"

" I'm outside mam again, I'll call you again yes, I want to go home first afraid of the rain because!"

" You're out on the bike again? Honey mami has already said it's dangerous, please don't make mami the same dady worry here!" her voice began to rise because of worry to me.

" Just go out for a while, not far from home. Yes mom I want to go home, by mamy. I love you." My words then turned off the call without my mother's consent, I knew my mother would definitely lecture me at length so I would rather end this call.

I put my phone in my front pocket of hood and accidentally touched a foreign object inside, I took it out of my pocket, I observed for a moment an object that looked like a hairband but looked like a rubber band. You careless bastard, surely he thought this was his jacket so put this hair tie in his pocket. I turned my bike around, intending to return her hairband, I was surprised when a sedan car passed me at full speed. What kind of crazy person drives a car at high speed on a complex road, in the middle of the night?

I stopped my motor when I saw the car stop at the same place I was going to, I observed from a distance, a man came out of the car half-run to the girl I left and hugged her.

I squinted one eye trying to look up who the man who was hugging the little girl, but the house only seems to be the back of the man because his position is behind me. The girl seemed to push the man's body but it seemed that the man was still reluctant to take off his embrace, watching this somewhat romantic incident, suddenly my chest felt crowded. I tried to slow my breath and continued to enjoy this scene that I shouldn't have seen.

Oh my God what I was thinking, maybe her brother was too worried about that girl, just look at her even still wearing a hospital gown. I abandoned my original intention to return his belongings, turn on my bike and leave those still seen talking to each other.

I was riding my bike with a feeling that I somehow explained. Angry, sad, agitated, but why? Is it because of that girl? Or because the girl was hugged by her brother? What kind of feeling God, I even just knew his name tonight, I shouldn't have this feeling, plus he's still very small. Or maybe I have a sexual disorder, why should I be interested in children. No, this can't, this shouldn't happen Ze, stop Ze, before things get complicated. I dissolved into my silly thoughts until I didn't realize the rain was starting to fall again. I sped up my bike, but still I got soaked when I got home.

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I shook my head trying not to remember more about what happened this afternoon. I got out of my bed, took the girl's phone to my desk. Trying to create busyness by fixing the girl's phone, rather than having to take her to the service center mending I use the little skills I have to fix it. Besides being able to save time, effort and money, maybe this way I can forget the shadow of the little girl.

I was so late in my work repairing the girl's phone, it was almost dawn when I managed to fix the phone. I turned on the phone to see if it was normal again. His phone and showing a photo that looks very beautiful, I smiled and rubbed the screen of the phone. Careless basic, again I mentioned the word when I found out that the phone was unlocked. My hands started to play the phone, there was no intention at first, I just wanted to make sure the phone could be used properly before I returned it to the owner. When I looked at the photo folder, suddenly my curiosity was so passionate, I held my finger a few times to not open the folder, but somehow got a push from where finally this traitor finger touched the folder and displayed some photo collages. I shifted, looked at the photos on my phone one by one, then again a smile rose on the tip of my lips, tonight it felt like I was smiling too much.

It seemed as if my courage was growing, I went back to bed and picked up my phone that was still on the nightstand, I sat across my legs like a hermit and innocently moved one photo at a time to my phone. What kind of madness God, isn't this so presumptuous, this is Ze's privacy, why are you so brave to take a picture of the girl without her permission.

I lay down while watching the girl's face on my phone screen, I closed my eyes trying to restore my sanity which seemed to have been disturbed because of the girl. Prilatia, Prilatia, why is it so hard for the one to say your name.

I throw my phone on the bed, I exhale violently and try to wake up all this madness. Already Ze, stop it, stop this ridiculous feeling. Ze's focus, Ze's focus on your dreams, Ze's focus on the future you've designed yourself, don't let a woman ruin your life again, Ze, enough of one stupidity, don't be fooled by your own feelings Ze, after all she's just a little girl, you can't possibly be attracted to her, you're just curious, just curious.

Finally until the sun came out of hiding I was still busy wrestling with myself, trying to convince my heart not to get carried away again. And tired of this battle, my eyes finally closed, I fell asleep with a feeling that still could not be resolved.

Seriate..