Lara My love

Chapter 115 Just a Dream

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"Dear wake up." Brother Zean's whisper in my ear.

I opened my eyes slowly, as my eyes opened perfectly, relief filled my heart because when I woke up I was in Zean's room.

I wiped the sweat away, I smiled and breathed a sigh of relief because everything that happened was just a dream, I was terrified when I married Brother Zean leaving me with a body drenched in blood.

"You're awake." Said someone so softly, when I turned my head I saw my mother smiling at me.

"Hemm, I had a nightmare ma'am, I dreamed all the things that I had been through with Brother Zean, and before I woke up I saw Brother Zean's body drenched in blood, fortunately it was just a dream ma'am." I answered while telling about my dream.

Mom just smiled and stroked my face gently."Go back to sleep, I'll wake you later."Mom said, then put me back on the bed.

"Where's Zean ma'am, why am I here, are we getting married?"

"Zean is downstairs, rest again, you must be very tired." My mother answered me with teary eyes

"But I'm not sleepy ma'am, I'll go down and see Zean." I rushed to get up but my mother held me back. "It's late at night, meet Zean tomorrow morning."Mother's soft words.

I just nodded and obeyed my mother's orders. I returned to my body, while mother sat back on the sofa which was not far from Zean's bed. I kissed the blanket that now wrapped my body, the distinctive vanilla aroma of the body of Brother Zean imprinted in this blanket, it felt so warm under this blanket, as if I was being hugged by Brother Zean.

Suddenly my throat was dry, I glanced at the nightstand and saw a glass of water on it, I opened the blanket and lowered my legs until I touched the floor so cold. "Aww."I screamed, my feet ached as I moved my feet on the floor.

I lowered my head and observed my legs, I twisted my ankles. "There are so many wounds, what have I done with this leg." I murmured in my heart.

Ngiyingg, my ears were ringing, and at once my head felt dizzy, as if someone was playing a movie in my head. I held my head as fragments after pieces of that horrible memory filled my head. Zean's voice echoed in my ear, I looked back as if Zean's body had slammed so far away and his body was covered in blood. "It's just a dream, none of this is real."My frown covered my two ears. Tiiiiiiiiiiiittt, the shrill voice of the ECG machine is now playing in your ears, I close my ears tightly, but the shadow of Zean's pale face makes me realize from my dreams.

"Tidaaaakk, no way, this is just a dream." Shouts tight.

Ceklek, the sound of the door opening, I turned to the door and saw brother Ega, Dita, Arum, mamy and mbok Yem entering from behind the door. Their faces panicked and they rushed up to me. I stood up and taught them. "It's all unreal, I'm just a dream." I asked as I looked at them.

"So, why stay quiet, I replied, I just had a dream, right, where is Brother Zean now?"

Sister Ega just pecked, her mouth was tightly closed, but I did not give up, now I stand in front of my two best friends. "Where is Zean, answer me?" Instead of answering, the two of them hugged me, I let go of their embrace and asked. "Where's Zeanku?"I said softly, my tears came back, I was afraid if my dream turned out to be a reality.

"Don't cry Zean downstairs, mamy's coming down." Mamy's words calmed me down.

I wiped my tears, and then mamy led me down and found Brother Zean. Mother, sister Ega, mbok Yem and my two best friends followed me down.

I stopped my steps when I saw a coffin in the middle of the living room.

"Let's go see Zean, he'll want to see you and say goodbye to you." Mamy softly said, both of his hands pushed slowly on my body so that I could continue my steps.

I was stuck as soon as I arrived next to the white coffin, my throat dried up, and my eyes began to fall apart from the tears in my eyes.

In the chest, I saw a face that was sleeping peacefully, the smell of formalin that was so stinging that it finally helped me realize, my Zeanku is dead, my love is gone for good.

"How is my life now brother, how should I continue my life now, how should I face my next days, why are you so selfish and leave me alone, how can you renege on your promise to continue with me."

Everyone cried to hear my words, Brother Ega immediately grabbed me in his arms, I buried my face in the chest of Brother Ega and I began to sob again, I don't know how many tears have come out of my eyes, but to this day they are still breaking and wetting my face.

Brother Ega grabbed me and helped me to sit down, again my memories with brother Zean revolved around my head, the sofa, where we used to joke, but now only the memory is stored, but now only the memory is stored, no more brother Zean will accompany me to sit on that couch, no more he will accompany my days.

"Save this." Mamy gave me a red box. "Maybe it's the gift that Zean prepared for you."

I took the box and opened it, a diamond ring perched in the reddish box, in the middle of which was tucked in a rolled up piece of paper. I unrolled the paper and read the message inside.

***Darling, sorry I wrote it so small because I had to save this paper.

Congratulations on your graduation and will you marry me, Prilatia? Right Prilatia, I'm afraid I'm wrong again to call your name.

Answer yes, when you open it.

I Love you.***

"Yes, I want to." I said in a hoarse voice, then I grabbed the ring and pinned it on my sweet day.

****

The next morning I was ready in my black suit and downstairs was filled with mourners, while I was still sitting pensively on top of Zean's bed, I turned the ring that was now curled in my sweet day, my mind looked far away, there was only one thing on my mind, how I could meet my Zeanku.

The funeral will begin as soon as we get home. Before the closing procession, I looked back at Brother Zean's face, I satisfied myself to look at his face, and for the last time I kissed Zean's forehead gently. "Sleep in peace, wait for me, let's meet back in heaven."

I cried again as the coffin entered the pit, slowly it was covered with reddish-colored earth. As soon as it fills my chest, after this, I will not see it again, I will not hear its chatter again, I will not scold it again for being so jealous of me. After you are gone, all the moments we have passed become so precious.

After coming home from the funeral I prefer to lock myself in a room, not even two days after your departure and I miss you so much.

**

"Sweety's awake."

again and again, the whisper again woke me up from my long dream. When I opened my eyes they were all in my room. Mother, sister Ega, Arum, Dita, brother Dion, all gathered in my room, they were looking at me pity.

"You're awake."Ask Brother Ega while stroking my head.

"Hmm, how long have I slept?"

"18 hours, aren't you hungry? I made you fried rice."

I just shook my head weakly, my stomach did not feel hungry at all.

"Two days you don't eat, what if you get sick? Eat just a little, brother will bribe you" Persuaded sister Ega.

"Hey, don't worry us all, do you want something, talk, I'll buy it for you."Brother Dion tried to persuade me to eat.

Now it was Arum's turn to sit next to me, she looked at me with teary eyes. "Don't worry us, eat a little, you forget your life motto, you say whatever your problem eating is number one."Arum said, holding my hand.

"That motto applies only to the living, while I, my soul is dead and buried with Brother Zean."

"Don't talk like that, we all understand how you feel..

"No, you don't understand how I feel and how I feel because you're not in my position, you're not me."

"I don't have to be you, I just look at you and I know what you're feeling, 10 years of friendship, you don't think I know you very well, I know very well how you are when you are happy, sad, disappointed, I know enough to see your face. Stop torturing your body and eat a little."

"Rum, do you know what's more painful than being left for dead?"

Arum shook his head weakly.

"When I saw death right in front of my eyes and I couldn't do anything about it, I wasn't torturing my body, I was just reflecting on my mistake of not being able to do anything to save it."

Until the sun rose and rose they took turns to show me to eat but none of them managed to persuade me.

Until I finally saw Brother Zean's face standing between them, he brought a plate filled with food, then he sat down next to you and smiled at me.

"Zee, you're coming."I said as I touched his face.

"It's Sam."His words were soft, but it made me realize that the one who was beside me was not Zean's sister.

"Open his mouth, brother, Sam will feed brother, Sam does not want brother sick."

Like being hypnotized with her face so similar to that of Brother Zean, I opened my mouth and Sam started to bribe me. Everyone breathed a sigh of relief after Sam could persuade me to eat.

***

A week after his departure, I still restricted my activities and locked myself in my room more.

Today, accompanied by Dion's brother, I went to visit Zean's sister. I sat down next to that still wet mound of earth.

"Sister."Saying bitter.

"I came, I brought you sunflowers, you used to love bringing sunflowers for me."

I was silent for a moment, I elus the tombstone bearing his name and my tears escaped from its place.

"I'm sorry I kept crying, I forgot that you hate to see me cry. From now on I'll try not to cry anymore."

Raindrops began to pour down on the earth, Brother Dion led me away from his place of residence, I turned and looked down at the place.

"Welcome to my first love, you used to come during the rainy season and now you go in the same season, in the future every rainy season I will remember you with a different feeling, happy and sad will accompany it. Thank you for 8 such wonderful years, I love you."

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