Lara My love

Chapter 18 You caught my attention

Arriving at Villa kak Zean drove me to the door, either I was too confident but I felt tonight sister Zean just kept sticking to me. It's the most important thing now that we're friends and that makes me a little happy. A little bit, just a little.

" Till." I said while pointing at the door. I took off Zean's jacket but was immediately stopped by him.

" Just put it on!" The order that I then dikayakan and cancel removing the jacket.

" Yes, I went in first, brother." I said a little awkwardly.

" Hmm, what a dream!" He said, patting my head gently.

I immediately turned around, opened the room door and entered. I leaned behind the door, slowly breathing in and holding both of my hot cheeks while smiling gleefully. I recalled the scene when Brother Zean patted my head, the rhythm of my heart grew fiercer with a smile that was still painted on my face.

I jumped on the bed and stretched my body, stretching the muscles that had stiffened from nervousness close to Zean's leg. I sniffed my body which was now filled with the scent of perfume attached to Zean's jacket. I smiled again, tightly hugging the jacket that now gives warmth not only in my body, but also in my heart of course. The night was getting late, sleepiness began to attack me, finally I fell asleep with a feeling that if described would be full of color beauty.

ZEAN POV

It was past midnight and I was still awake. My feelings were complaining to each other, raging against my stance. Today I tried to avoid him, trying not to get too close to him and I just intended to turn my phone back after that I really did not want to see him again, but in the end my heart was betrayed, my stance faltered and I crossed the boundaries that I created myself. Seeing his closeness to the brother made me feel so unhinged, what kind of crazy feeling was this, they were just worthy brothers if they were close, or maybe I'm just bothered by the chattering of my friends who say they're like lovers.

My heart grew increasingly confused when I passed him and his brother, especially when he really ignored me and passed me just like that. I don't know what's inside that girl, she's like a magnet that just keeps pulling me, keeps me from getting away and her behavior always catches my eye.

I wondered where they were going that afternoon, I quietly followed them, watching them from a distance. I smiled to see the girl playing in the sand with laughter adorning her cute face. My gaze never escaped all his movements, suddenly a feeling of envy infiltrated my heart when I saw a pair of brothers and sisters were chatting and joking, it felt like I wanted to be there in the position of her brother, she said, you can get close to him without worrying about anything. But what am I really worried about?. Afraid of people looking at me is weird about being attracted to a little girl or I just hide behind other people's eyes to cover up a wound that has not healed completely.

This time, just today. No, until tomorrow, just let me be around him and enjoy the moment together, after that let me build boundaries again, fix my stance and live as I had planned.

Unable to sleep I grabbed the laptop on the nightstand, turned it on and decided to finish my script so I could graduate soon and catch up with my parents to California. I couldn't focus on my laptop at all, again the sweet smile she rarely showed disturbed my mind. His neckline that looked beautiful when he tied his hair height made my male instincts stir.

Oh my God what I think, I really don't know shame. But I also can't blame myself completely, he doesn't look like a boy his age when wearing ordinary clothes, his posture is ideal, not too thin and also not too contained and high looks fit to be embraced.

I shook my head many times, trying to bring out the dirty thoughts lodged in my head. I closed my laptop, I completely lost focus, I moved to the bed, broke down and hoped sleepiness would come right up to me. I have to go to bed soon, tomorrow afternoon we have to go back home and I promised to take her home. I have to rest enough so that tomorrow I can get him safely. Finally, after almost dawn, I closed my eyes and I dissolved in the cradle at night.

I wriggled as I felt something caress my face, I opened my eyes slowly, as my consciousness fully returned I was shocked to see who had earlier caressed my face, I jumped and moved away from the reach of his hand.

" Why are you here?" I asked with a hoarse voice typical of people waking up.

" Why are you so shocked, instead you're so happy if I do something like this." Said Natasha who stroked my face again.

I took his hand off my face, I got up and sat on the edge of the bed, grabbed a bottle of mineral water on the table and drank it to the ground.

" Everyone is downstairs, Dawn told me to come here to wake you up."

" Dajar told you to?" I can't believe Dawn would.

" Yes." Shift her seat to get closer to me.

I stood up and moved away because I was feeling uncomfortable.

" Why, are you afraid your little girlfriend will get angry?."

" Friend?" I'm rattled.

" yes. The little girl who was with you last night by the beach!."

" Oh, so now you're watching me?"

" Is he the one who teases you first, have you guys kissed, what's it like with a kid?" Natasha's asking irritated me.

" Stop Nat, she's not that kind of girl and we're just friends!" I raise my voice, making me angry.

" One more thing, we're over, Nat, so please don't just walk into my room and stop watching me as if I'm your prisoner." I made it clear that our relationship had ended a long time ago.

" Get out, I'll take a shower, I'll catch up with you later!."

I left Natasha who was still sitting on the bed. I splashed my body with cold water, it was so refreshing and it cleared my mind. I came out of the bathroom using only a towel wrapped around my waist, I was shocked again when I saw Natasha was still in my room. He smiled smrik at me. I took my clothes and took them back to the bathroom. I came out of the bathroom after it was tidy and I took her out to join the others below. Again Natasha frustrated me, she hooked her arm on my hand, as she was about to take off her hand suddenly heard the door open from behind me, I turned my head and saw the little girl with Fajr's bangs coming out of the room. They looked at me, I saw the girl watching Natasha's hand still lurking in my hand and I immediately let go of Natasha's hand for not wanting her to misunderstand.

They walked towards me, passed me and just nodded politely without greeting.

I followed them from behind. It felt like I wanted to call her and explain to her what was really going on, but I realized we were not in a relationship that required explaining the conditions to each other.

This morning we gathered together for breakfast before noon we returned home and were busy with our activities. We had breakfast quietly, without any chatter, once in a while I looked up at him, he just looked down and focused on his breakfast. While I was, I was still busy with my own thoughts. Was after this I really able to let go, whereas currently seeing it was already like an opium to me.

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