Lara My love
Chapter 23 Do you like me
" S." Ze." The name spontaneously came out of my mouth again.
I saw Brother Zean's lips slightly raised hearing me call his name again.
" What's up?" I asked while trying to escape from Brother Zean.
" I'll drive you!"Brother Zean pulled my hand and walked towards his car.
I am still a little surprised by the attitude of Brother Zean just like that and tailed behind him.
" Deliver!"I said as I began to master the situation.
" Why?" Brother Zean asked without the slightest guilt.
" Excuse. You know me?"
" Pril, I just want to take you home, I'm afraid you're home alone."
" Where do you know my name?"I'm getting irritated by Zean's attitude.
" Come on Pril, don't get rich in gini." Brother Zean began to get frustrated with my lies that purportedly didn't know him.
" I'm sorry, then." I left Brother Zean who was still standing near his car.I was really annoyed and wanted to go home soon.
" Pril, why are you. My intentions are good, I just want to take you home." Zean's voice began to rise, probably because our distance was quite far.
I stopped my steps, turned around and walked back towards Brother Zean.
" I why. It's not like I should be the rich one to you. You why, why suddenly not clear, no news at all. I sent a message a few times and you always ignored it. Last time, you offered me a friendship, gave me a bracelet, took me to your secret place, and without me knowing my fault where you suddenly avoided me. And again, just now at the restaurant, did you have a little intention to greet me. No. kan. Not because your boyfriend is there. Then now what, you ask me why?"
I shouted out all my heart, expressing all the questions I had been keeping.
" Sorry!" Said while looking down.
" Sorry? For what, for which part? I don't think we have anything to forgive each other!"
" Pril, I know I was wrong. I was busy at the time, I didn't have time to get a message from you." Brother Zean pulled both of my hands and held them.
" No time, huh?" I smiled sinisterly and took my hand out of his grasp.
" Had it. There's nothing we can talk about anymore. From now on, act like we don't know each other, never say hello if you happen to cross paths!"
" And this." I took off Zean's bracelet and returned it to him.
" Do you not want to be friends with me anymore?" Brother Zean squeezed the bracelet.
" Wear it again yes, I purposely made it for you. Don't be like this Pril, I don't like you rich gini, I beg you."
" What do you like about me?" I am back to getting emotional.
" You were like that time, a few months ago."
" What right do you have to set me up to be like you used to be, who are you? Do you like me?" I regret saying the last sentence.
Brother Zean just fell silent, his eyes reddened, he was like he was holding back his tears.
" Don't you, obviously you won't like me. Because I'm nobody, so I beg you, don't bother me anymore, let's live quietly, without knowing each other."
" But what's the reason why we should pretend not to know each other?"Ask pretentiously, or maybe he really doesn't know what my anger means.
" Because I never thought of my brother as a friend, I saw him as a man. Because I like you feet, and brother doesn't like me at all maybe even brother doesn't realize my whereabouts. And I hate that fact. So please, let me forget this feeling by not seeing me again."
I don't know what kind of madness I'm expressing my feelings to Brother Zean. He was just speechless hearing the love statements of a little girl like me. Not getting a response from Brother Zean, I ran away from Brother Zean before I grew embarrassed to get a rejection later. Brother Zean is still glued to where he stands and has not tried to chase me again.
My body trembled, I sat in the chair available on the sidewalk, I could no longer walk. I set my breath slowly and did not feel the clear details escaped my eyes. I rubbed it rough.
" Fool, why am I crying over him. Good Ndi, good, at least you have dared to express feelings that you have been quieting, there is no burden anymore, right? now let's focus on your school Ndi, forget brother Zean, assume he never existed and you never knew him. It's true what first love people say will never work." I try to strengthen myself.
After feeling a little calm, I decided to go home. I smiled in remembrance of my sad story. The story I finished before I even started. How sad my first love story was.
ZEAN POV
I was still standing where I stood, still not believing what I just heard. The girl boldly expressed her feelings for me, whereas I just kept quiet and let her go.
I looked at the bracelet she had returned, I came back to curse myself, why I didn't have the courage when she asked me if I liked it. I should have shouted back then, I should have said, Yes I like you, really like you, so much that I don't know what to do with you, until I'm afraid I'm going to hurt you. I was attracted to you the first time I met you, and then at the next meeting I wanted to get to know you more and be closer to you. I was so happy when I was with you, my heartbeat always excited when I was close to you, I was upset and angry when I saw you close to another man, even I was jealous to see your closeness with your brother. I like you so much. I can't help my feelings, but I don't dare to tell you either. I'm afraid I'll hurt you someday. Sorry, I'm sorry for being so cowardly and not being honest with you.
I drove my car back, down the road and hoped to see it again.
" Meet". I said when I saw him sitting on the sidewalk.
I stopped my car, I gathered up my courage and wanted to get to him, tell him everything I felt for him. I lowered my car glass and watched it from across the street.
I pared my intention, I was not that brave to meet him, I froze when I saw him wiping his tears.
What I did to that girl, I've even hurt her now, I've made her cry. It might be true what he said, I should stay away from his life, let him be happy with his day without me. I like you a lot, but I don't like watching you cry because of me.
Be happy, my sweet girl.
Seriate.....
