Lara My love
Chapter 2 School holidays
Today is the first day of school, there are no activities I have planned during this semester break. This morning the weather was cold enough to make me reluctant to get out of the blanket and do outdoor activities.
"Waking up in the afternoon called the mother, he said you have a lesson this afternoon! Ndi awake!" He knocked on my room door.
"So don't break down the room if it's not open!" It made me jump out of my warm blanket.
"Apaan sak, still in the morning know, anyways this is a holiday when there is a tutoring schedule as well si, Indhi will still be in a bobo."I said as I opened the room which followed the footsteps of a man into my room.
Kevin Ega Irvantara, 28 years old, surgeon at one of the private hospitals in my city. He is the best brother I have ever had. An older brother who can be any figure I need, this older brother who for the past year was transformed into a father figure after the departure of father due to an accident.
And yes, my father died a year ago, he died in a traffic accident after he came back from work. My father was an architect. He works at one of the best architectural firms in the city as well as my mother. They work in the same place since they are not married. The departure of my father made our lives all change, not only did my brother's attitude become more possessive of me, the change in my mother's attitude also made me feel more sorrow after losing my father. Mother became more reserved, more irritable and what made me most sad was the attitude of the mother who always forced me to be what she wanted .
"Don't you work?" My toot.
"Just come home, haven't had a bath already told mom to wake you up." He answered, raising his hand and bringing his armpits closer to my face.
"Ih, sister stinks, really dirty, pantes aja already this old is still a single hahahha."
"So big sister has a boyfriend continue to marry later who takes care of your same mother who?"
Deg, hearing the answer from Brother Ega made my heart ache for a moment, I feel guilty to my brother because after the death of my father, brother, who is responsible for me and mother. Although financially mother is still able to finance our life from the monthly salary of mother, but did not necessarily make sister Ega release her responsibility to us. As the oldest son and the only one in this house made sister Ega forced to bear the burden of being the head of the family. Although sister Ega did it sincerely but somehow I always grieved to find sister Ega gave up her free time to take care of me instead of going to play with her friends or start to organize her life by looking for a woman in his busy time.
"Udah hunt awake! Later brother Anterin to tutoring." He said as he stroked my head for a second and then changed to ruffle my hair.
"Koranaka."My screams were then followed by the sound of laughter from the mouth of Brother Ega.
After taking a bath I rushed to the dining room, from a distance I observed my mother who was busy preparing breakfast for us. Again sadness was in my heart
when I realized it was rare to see my mother smile. In the past when my father was still alive my mother would hum softly while preparing breakfast and provisions for us, even though she was busy working but she never neglected her main task as a wife and also mother. But now what I found, that sad face. Oh my God, please put a smile back on my face.
"No, later in the afternoon there is a promise with the client so the mother does not need to go to the office first" he replied while thrusting a plate of fried rice towards me.
"Why don't you resign, mom is not young anymore, I'm afraid I'm tired!" The voice of brother Ega who arrived appeared out of nowhere.
"Kalo mom at home Indhi is not lonely mom, you don't have to worry about sister's salary is enough to support the three of us and also Indhi school." Further.
"Remain, eat!" Instead of answering, the mother instead diverted the conversation by thrusting a plate of fried rice towards Kak Ega.
"Mother Ega is just.."
"Get enough. I'm done eating, you guys go ahead and have breakfast. Mom's coming home soon you don't have to wait for mom to have dinner."
"But ma'am." Said sister Ega still has not given up hope convince mom.
"Sister!" Prevent me while shaking my head towards Brother Ega.
After mom left, I saw a disappointed look on sister Ega's face. I understand very well the purpose of sister Ega is for the good of mother, but maybe according to mother quit her job will only make mother remember father more. I remember very well how devastated my mother was when I first left, and my mother vented her grief by working, working and working. Sometimes I'm disappointed with the attitude of the mother who is so selfish, do you think only the mother who is sad, only the mother who lost the father? No ma'am, I'm also sad as well as sister Ega, we all lost ma'am. We even feel not only the loss of a father but we also lose the figure of a mother, a mother who used to always smile, a mother who always cared for us.
Mom, I'm sad to see that mother now. Sometimes I get angry and frustrated with my mother's attitude so I think to let out all the anger that I'm feeling, but again when I see my mother's sad face, this throat felt choked so I couldn't get a word out to mom. And until months passed in the end the attitude of the mother and silence I became a high wall between the relationship of mother and child. But I am grateful to still have a brother who is considerate or even arguably too attentive to me, a brother who still took the time to accompany me on the sidelines of the busy schedule of operations, he said, and a sister who would do anything to make me smile.
After a very unpleasant breakfast I returned to my room to prepare for the additional tutoring needs that my mother had prepared from afar. Mother forced me to take additional lessons on the grounds that I was almost 9th grade, to prepare myself so that I could enter a favorite public high school and then continue to study medicine at the best University. Everything is planned without you asking me what I want and what my goals are in the future.
Honestly, I'm not interested in medicine. Born and raised from a pair of architects to make my art soul more alive, I was always excited when my father used to show sketches or drawings of projects that my father was working on, from that moment on, I became interested and wanted to be like my father. But now, I have to forget all my dreams for the sake of mom. Yes for mother's sake, at least those three words could slightly dampen my disappointment that had to bury deeply into my dreams. After all, what's wrong with being a doctor, can help many people and benefit others, is not it a good thing. You also might have your own reasons why you wouldn't let me follow in their footsteps in architecture. Well, that's how I think the words I always get out of my mouth whenever Brother Ega convinces me not to give up on my ideals.
Seriate...
