I'm The One You Throw Out

Side Story Seira's

"I came here on purpose to propose to Seira as my wife, Mom. If I give you permission, I want to marry Seira this close, Mom."

The words I heard that night, the night that Mas Zafran came home with his mother to propose to me in front of him, it sounded so sweet in the ears that the flowers of love that I had been caring for and caring bloomed in the heart.

I smiled to myself in my room which was not so wide. From behind the door I peeked at him who was sitting so dashingly opposite Mom. Right, that handsome guy over there is my future husband. My lover who a few days ago brazed the taste in the heart.

Not seeing a nervous ripple on his face, he looked calm and dignified. Many girls are crazy about him, but he chose me. Just an ordinary girl and nothing.

I saw Mom still flinching, leaning on Dad's rattan chair. It is weathered indeed, but the word Mother is still sturdy and can still be used.

"Sir Zafran knew Seira was an orphan, not from a family. This is all we have, the only hut left by Sei's father. Are Nak Zafran and Mom okay to have a wife from a mediocre girl and besan from our ordinary family?"

Mother's voice faded the smile I had carved since her figure sat there. The living room is not far from my room. Unconsciously I looked down, anxious heart was not feeling, waiting for an answer from the idol.

"I don't have a problem, Mom. Before I came here, I thought of everything. I don't care about the status of the family, which I know I love Sei and want to quickly marry him. Did you give us permission to marry?"

Mas Zafran's stern reply made my head look up by itself. Once again I saw no hesitation in his handsome face and it always made me miss.

Just answer 'yes', Mom. Let your son be happy, but the old face seems to be worried and much thoughtful. He must be afraid that this child will not be happy, he must be worried that the caste differences between us will make me suffer with the man.

Mother's breath even redeemed the door that blocked me. I forgot about the old woman who confronted Mom there. He had no reaction throughout their conversation. Could it be that my heart is worried about it?

"I understand, but does Nak Zafran want to make a promise to me? It's nothing, I told you Sei was an orphan. His father died when he was a teenager, and all this time I kept his smile. I had enough of all his needs, and as a parent of course I was anxious. I was afraid that my son would become a burden, and my husband and family were impatient, which eventually caused my girl to fall and suffer."

Speech that ejected from the wrinkled lips was successful in making my eyes heat up. The liquid suddenly fell down on the cheeks. I know and I see how Mom struggles to make me happy.

"I promise you, I'll replace Mom's job to keep Sei's smile. I will also accept all the shortcomings of Sei because I love him equally" Mas Zafran replied firmly.

The ripples I like, there are no lies, let alone doubt. At once my heart was convinced that he was indeed the good man that God had made for me. Just accept it, Mom. What are you worried about?

"I believe, Sei also often tells about Nak Zafran. I cannot deny the soul mate that God has tied up in your hearts. Just one message, please take care of Sei. Replace the role of his father who left to meet all his needs. Later, if he does something wrong, advise without snapping. If there is a lack of him that you do not respect, talk carefully with him. Her tears are precious to me, can you do that to me?" say Mother.

I was so excited to hear that, Mom was just worried about my future. He just wants me to be happy with whoever marries me. Whichever man is pleased with all my shortcomings. Rest assured, Mother. Mas Zafran can certainly do what I asked. He's a responsible man and won't waste Mother's daughter.

"I promise, Mom. Wholeheartedly, I will carry out the role of husband well. Take care of Sei, love him, and accept all the shortcomings that exist in him. You don't have to worry, I promise to make your child happy" Mas Zafran promised at the time.

The strong words spoken from her sweet lips successfully made me float in the clouds and do not want to go down again. All that was proven, and in front of the body of Mother he poured the same promise. Will take care of me, love me, and accept all my shortcomings.

However, after five years of marriage, my womb never visited the baby. Mas Zafran is not demanding, but Mother-in-law is increasingly cold to me. Every moment always makes my ears ring to hear his insinuations about children.

Just when I was declared pregnant, everything was revealed. I thought I could fix everything and restore the state of my household. In fact, Lita's pregnancy was known earlier than I was.

He reneged on his promise. Promise in front of Mother, in front of her stiffened body. That day, he even let my tears spill over the earth. The faint of heart he made for no reason he threw me out and divorced me.

A stool? Is that what they thought all along? Then, whose seed is now planted in my womb? Kulirik Lita, I just want to skin her shameless face. However, I realized, maybe this is already the path of destiny that I have to go through. I left the house with the man who had been keeping my smile for five years. Maybe the job's done here. I don't care if he's looking for me or not.

It feels like my heart and soul don't want to linger near them. I was also reluctant to bring anything from there even though Mother's legacy interfered in her success.

I dropped myself between the two navels, crying, spilling all the pain. Blend everything Mas Zafran did to Mom. I'm sure, he was crying to see the baby who during his life he guarded came to bring suffering.

"Mom, she's breaking a promise to Mom. He lied, Mom. He kicked Sei out, he turned Sei off. Mother ... Sei needs Mom, wants to hug Mom. Please take Sei with Mom. Sei's not strong, Mom."

I dropped the body on the mound that locked Mom up. Squeezing the red earth poured down the pain, not knowing if it would all end my suffering. A hug I felt from behind the body, a soft sobbing also blurred with sedu that came out of my lips.

"Don't say that, Non. Inget, there's a fetus in the womb Non. Non Sei has to be strong for her sake" said Bi Sari, My second mother. The woman who has been looking after me, loving me, strengthening me from my mother-in-law's innuendo.

However, all that did not dampen my tears, he continued to flow soaking through Mother's navel.

"But I'm not strong, Bi. I want to come with you, I don't want to live anymore, Bi. I'm going with Mom."

"No, Non. Nope! If Non goes Auntie with whom? Aunty will be alone in this world, Non-Same Aunt, yes. We both take care of the fetus that is in the womb Non Sei. She must be beautiful and strong like her mother. Don't waste a child willing to live there, Non. No!"

The cry of Bi Sari slashed my heart, perhaps Mother would also be like that if only she were in front of me now. Hugging and advising with his powerful words calmed my heart.

"Bi Sari, really, Non. There are still many who love and care the same Non. There is a Jago who responds to our nolong, especially if not because he cares about the same Non." Mang Udin's voice also echoed in the ears.

Besides Bi Sari, the man who was no longer young had an important role in my life. He was like Dad, always advising me what salt acid life was like.

Thanks to those people, the presence and the advice they gave, I was strong until this very moment. Even with the presence of men who slowly remove wounds in the heart. The attention, affection, and love he gave me, eroded all the pain that tore my race apart.

Until he was born, and I watched him grow. With regret at heart, if I had chosen to die, I would not have met him, I would not have kissed him on the cheek, I hugged him. He is the remedy for all the pain that the man has given me, and I will forever not proclaim his presence.

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