I'm The One You Throw Out

A Letter

I'm sorry about you, Lita. I'm sorry about your mother-in-law too. You know, I didn't think you had a pretty, smart kid like Naina. Open your eyes, look carefully at the little girl in front of you.

She's pretty, isn't she? If she grows up, she will be the most beautiful girl, and you should see that. If you torture yourself, I'm sure you'll never see him grow. Awake, Lita. Make yourself useful, if you don't want me to take Naina.

I know you love that little girl, but you have to torture her physically and mentally. You have to let him see you slumped, you have to let him run around in the heavy rain.

For the sake of your son, for the sake of that little girl, get up! She's too special for a weak mother like you. If you feel you deserve to be her mother, you have to be stronger than Naina. You have to be a lamp for his path, you have to be a wise teacher for him to complain about injustice in the world. You should be a comfortable home when she comes back from the tiredness of life.

Wake, Lita! With you torturing yourself like now, you have unknowingly tortured your own child. You know what he said? 'I don't want to lose Mom. Nai doesn't want to leave Nai.' She loves you, Lita. Eat, and don't let him down.

I'm sorry about you, I'm sorry about all of you. Knock on the door of heaven, so that your heart may be at peace.

*****

The handwriting was not as beautiful as hers, but every word contained in it, made Lita realize that she indeed had a beautiful and smart little girl. Lita wept dumbstruck as she held a piece of Seira's handwritten paper on her chest.

Naina who saw Lita hysterically, turned disappointed. Seira's words were all lies and it was not proven that her mother wanted to eat. For almost an hour, Lita wailed in bitter tears. The little girl before him did not speak, only quietly cried without a sound.

Even the mother who saw was unable to endure the grief, she wanted to read the letter as well. He wanted to know what his ex-daughter-in-law's handwriting sounded like. However, there was nothing she could do, other than cry alone in her life-sustaining wheelchair.

"Say, I won't be sad anymore if I see that. She said, I must have eaten that, but why did you cry?" muttered Naina while sobbing.

His two hands alternately rubbed the watery eyes, sobbing and spilling sadness. Lita who was listening, slowly eased the cry. Looking at her child who looks beautiful.

Seira, you're right. She must have grown up to be a beautiful girl. I need to be healthy and keep her growth company. I don't want you to take Naina from me. I promised Naina I wouldn't be a girl like me. I pledge.

"Darling, Laper's mom. What cake did you bring?" asked Lita softly and stammered as the taste of haru overflowed in the heart.

He swept away the water that was again falling uncontrollably, especially when Naina's cries immediately stopped hearing her mother's voice.

"Why, Mom? Do you want to eat?" ask Naina while having a lot of fun.

Lita smiled, her lips looking pale without shining. His eyes were soft and lethargic, his face was a mess. He nodded slowly, enduring the pain that had plagued his head so that Naina would no longer feel sad.

Naina took the small bag and took out the contents while naming the cakes one by one while putting the food in front of Lita.

"It's all delicious, which one do you want?" her tanyanya was enthusiastic even though the rest of the crying was still heard.

"May I eat it all?" Lita smiled, then nodded as Naina turned her head towards him while winking in disbelief.

"Nai bribe." Eagerly, Naina opens a cake wrapped in banana leaves and feeds it to Lita.

Although her tongue was bitter, Lita had to force her mouth to swallow the food. He did not want to make Naina sad because of his regret for past sins.

"Can, baby. I'm full, this is for Nai and Grandma, yes. Nai also has to eat," said Lita as she rubbed her hair gently.

Happiness for you, Lita wants to heal quickly and invite them to move. It's okay, isn't it, to use Naina's money to find a better contract? Given all the words Seira wrote, she was jealous because as a mother did not know that Naina was that special.

*****

While at the Seira cake shop, Fatih could not be separated from staring at the beautiful face that was breastfeeding their child. His heart was still wondering what Seira had written to someone who had incised a wound in the course of his life.

Really, Fatih was curious.

"Darling, what did you write for him? Why do you think your mom wants to eat?" ask Fatih for the second time.

Seira smiled, feeling anxious herself. Why her husband wanted to know so much about her writing.

"Mas wants to know, do you want to know?" his god made Fatih impatient.

"It's an emergency level, baby. Want to know why you're so sure he wants to eat?" ask Fatih again. His forehead creased deeply, impatiently wanting to hear.

Seira sighed again, smiling anxiously at the impatience of the husband.

"I wrote that if you don't want to eat, I'll take Naina away from you. That's it."

Fatih frowned in disbelief, just that short, but she wrote long and long enough.

"That's all?" Asked while staring into the wife's bead.

"Well, that's the point, Mom. When I should call it all, I forgot myself." Seira sighed, because it was the essence of the letter. She knew, Lita would not willingly have hers taken.

The biggest fear in his life was losing what he had. Lita was once positioned to seize and make others suffer consciously and deliberately. Know very well what the pain of the radiance of the bead Seira first.

A deep disappointment was clearly visible there, the look on his face was describing a great sadness. Lita knows what Seira's suffering will be like when she seizes her world. Today, Naina is her world. It was certain that he would be destroyed the moment Seira took it, and would definitely never return.

Fatih mangosteen understood, curiosity began to evaporate from his face. Calm down after getting an answer.

"Mas, I think it's gone. The store also wants to close, we just go back, yuk," said Seira after seeing the situation outside became calm again.

Fathiya had fallen asleep, there was nothing the baby did but suckle and sleep. Play, just for a little while, then suckle again and sleep again. Sometimes Rayan likes to ask, is she the same as Fathiya when she was a child?

Fatih looked at the sky, the rain was no longer falling, the lightning and thunder were no longer heard. Only the water that pooled in the streets remained and bore witness to the persistence of the little girl. They returned to the restaurant, the temporary home they occupied. Bi Sari's face looks more cheerful after meeting Naina and apologizing to her.