I'm The One You Throw Out

Decisions

After the death of Hendra who took Naina away, Lita roared uncontrollably. Mother cried in front of Zafran pleading with her son through the eyes to let go of all the mistakes Lita made.

If Mother could speak, she wanted to tell Zafran that what Lita had done was solely to meet their needs even though it was not justified.

Unfortunately, all of this is said only in the heart. Never been told through oral.

"I'm sorry, Mas. Excuse me. I was confused at that time where to find money to eat, "please Lita while sobbing.

He sat down at Zafran's feet, squeezing the air withstanding the bitter heart. Zafran was unmoved, too reluctant to stare at the playful Lita behind him. Don't you remember she played with Mala when Lita was pregnant with Naina just to stir up her business first? Oh, you forgot again, Zafran! Does pain make you forget about sin?

How is Zafran different from Lita? Or Lita with Zafran?

Mother's trembling hands moved slowly, painstakingly trying to reach her son's body, touch him, reassuring her that Lita had changed since the incident.

"I was wrong, Mom, but I was framed by your ex. I'm .. I'm sick, too, Mas." Lita was getting deeper when she remembered the incident.

Where Mala set him up, makes him have to get disgusting and painful treatment from those who are inhumane. Her cries were more and more bitter, making Mother heartless.

Mother's hand landed on the surface of Zafran's skin after a while of battling incompetence. Sensing the touch from Mom's cold hand, Zafran raised his gaze to look at the extraordinary woman in front of him.

Mother glazed through the gaze of her watery eyes, shook her head slowly giving Zafran understanding without going through words. Wanting him to say, all that has passed, let it pass leaving a trail of events that must be taken as a valuable lesson.

However, Zafran's heart was too sore to accept that reality. Destroyed his life, ruined his world. There is no hope of rebuilding it. Zafran turned away from Mother's face, but the weak grip of Mother's hand expressed his disassociation with the attitude Zafran took.

Hearing and remembering the affair he had committed, and also Lita's acceptance of it all, Zafran realized something. Neither he nor Lita are perfect humans.

"Mas, I know I was wrong. We make the same mistake for a different purpose. I've lost it all, Mas. I want us to repeat everything from the beginning, I don't want to split with you, Mas. Let our lives be without treasure, which matters to us equally," said Lita sounding sweet tickling.

Zafran was closed, he had not uttered a word since asking about the truth of the news brought by Mala. His breathing was heavy, Zafran's chest was rising and falling rapidly, Lita knew she was holding a rumble in her chest that wanted to explode.

Lita looked up, ventured to hold Zafran's hand tightly. He dropped his forehead on the back of the hand, crying out for forgiveness.

"I'm sorry, Mas. Excuse me. I confess wrong, I confess sinning with you, but can I get a chance like Mas first? I've received all the punishment, if Mas wants to punish also who will I make a backrest place to complain, Mas?" please Lita.

Already stuck, Lita is trapped in her own feelings. He was not confident anymore if he had to part from Zafran. There was a fear of its own that kept haunting his heart. It's a secret that only he knows.

"I need some time to take it, Lita. I want to be alone first. All this time I thought you were loyal, I thought you had given me everything I did first. You have your revenge and you have it all. You forgot I was in jail, Lita. No more messing around, but you instead .. ah, I want to be alone first," said Zafran as he pulled his hand held by Lita.

Mother is getting hysterical, her plea to Zafran is not heeded at all. He looked disappointed at the only child. If she is able, she wants to take Lita away and not come back to her. Let him live alone until the end of his life.

"Stay alone, Lita. I'm sick of seeing your face!" ketus Zafran increasingly tore the feelings of Mother as a woman.

He could only shake his head, hoping in his heart Zafran would see Lita's sacrifice.

Hearing that, Lita strengthened her heart. No more begging a hard heart like a stone. He stood up, shrinking tears quickly. His eyes glanced at Mother who was incessantly crying.

"good. I promised myself I would accept whatever happens in my life. Now, if this is what you want me to accept, Mas. I'm handing over Mom to you, I'll live with Naina and won't bother you anymore. I'm sorry, Mas," concluded Lita firmly.

He glanced at Mother before taking a step back and leaving.

Oh, naw! It's not like that, it's not what he wants. He just wanted to be given time to accept everything. I couldn't accept it, wanted to chase after her daughter-in-law, but I couldn't. Can only look at him pushyly and full of regret.

"Wait, Lita! Don't you understand what I'm saying? I just need some time to get it all," Zafran said, turning to face the back of Lita.

The woman stood by the door, drawing the air deeply to strengthen her heart. He turned to face Zafran. Staring sharply at the weak man who was increasingly looking weak.

"I understand, Mas. I really understand. For that, I will be gone from your life. I give you all the time you want. I know, no one wants to accept a dirty woman like me. I'm also aware that I don't want to be accepted anymore, but you should know that I only do it to treat Naina to your mother. If you feel disgusted by me, sick of seeing my face, I'll go with Naina." Lita turned.

This time he did not stop or turn his head as Zafran called out to him. Feeling contemptible and unworthy of acceptance. Let him live alone with Naina, the child he raised.

"Lita?" doctor Hendra reprimanded when he saw Lita coming with tears that were breaking.

"Hey, what's wrong?" ask her again confused.

Naina who was next to him was confused to see Lita crying. He approached the woman and hugged her.

"Mother why are you crying?" tanyanya vibrates.

Hendra was still staring at him, he knew what had happened. Lita was getting more and more upset when she heard Naina ask.

"He doesn't want to accept me, Doctor. I'm going with Naina. I tipped Mom," said Lita, holding Naina and leaving quickly.

Doctor Hendra wanted to prevent it, but he couldn't. His hands were raised and his mouth was open, but he was still motionless.

You stupid Zafran! Why is a fool still in the air, anyway?!