
Today I made spicy squid-filled grilled rice. I am a squid lover. I cooked it using a set of cook pan given by his patient Mahfudz. In the kitchen, Ummik helped me. Roll the rice with a banana leaf wrap to then burn. I did all this just to persuade my dear husband who was sulking. Ummik said the way to conquer a man is to pay attention to his stomach. That's why I'm cooking for her today.
"Ray, can Ummik tell you something?"tanya Ummik while continuing to wrap rice that has been seasoned and squid into banana leaves.
"Yes, can you, Mik? Time can't?"my answer.
"Ummik said this is not because Ummik wants grandchildren. But because Ummik has a responsibility to direct the child Ummik to remain in the pleasure of God" said Ummik.
I'm speechless. I think I know the direction of Ummik's conversation.
"Yes, what is it, Mik?"my many.
"You're somebody's wife, son! You're Mahfudz's wife. Even though he is younger than you. Stay true to her when she becomes your husband. You must obey him. Including in the case of husband and wife."
I grimaced. Why should Ummik discuss the issue of couples? I'm ashamed, Mik, I said in my heart.
"You don't have to be ashamed if Ummik talks about it" Ummik seemed to be able to read my mind. "You're an adult, doctor obgyn anyway. No need to be ashamed because what Ummik will say is something good for you until later in life"
I'm nodding.
"Ray, Ummik had heard the quarrel between you and Mahfudz. If your husband wants to have sex with you, you can't refuse, son! You will be cursed and cursed by an angel until morning, will you?"
I shook my head exactly like the kind of kindergarten boy who was scolded by his parents.
"As long as you're a wife, your paradise is in your husband's riddles. You must obey him in any case as long as it is still in goodness. Yes, including one of them in terms of sex. You must obey. Ummik heard when you had a fight with Mahfudz, astaghfirullah Ray, Ummik did not expect Ummik children like that. Not only do you refuse to connect with your husband, you yell at him. So tight. Until Ummik was ashamed to hear it"
I grimaced hearing it. I even slapped Mahfudz. If Ummik knew Ummik would be even more shocked.
"Sorry Lord, Mik! Tau Raya is wrong. So Raya wants to make this to lure Mahfudz home" I said.
I don't know what else to say. Ummik to advise me on this problem. It's really embarrassing. But it's my fault that I admit it. I also slapped Mahfudz. Thankfully, Ummik did not know. If only Ummik would be more shocked.
"I'm sorry to be your husband. Not the same Ummik. Ummik is just your nasehatin"
"Yes, Mik" I replied.
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At 2pm I left for the hospital. Even though my practice hours are open at 4 p.m. I should take the time to persuade Mahfudz. I steadily stepped foot into the internal medicine department. I've decided I won't care about anything Ali's gonna do. Even though he was eager to humiliate Mahfudz in front of me. But I'll show him that I love my husband.
I called Mahfudz. He still didn't lift it. Yesterday he refused to come home with me because he said he was accompanying Ali on surgery. Well, it's adorable this is my husband. So angry and hurt are you with me? I will make up for your hurt and anger in earnest if you go home later. I promise, I said in my heart.
I was a little relieved to find Mahfudz while he was sitting around at the nurse station with his nurse and some co-workers.
"Darling!!!!" call me, though, a few metres from Mahfudz.
All eyes are on me. Not just from the nurse station, but even from patients and visitors who were outside the room at the time. Mahfudz looked surprised not to think I would show up there. His friends who were there spontaneously looked at me and then at Mahfudz.
I don't give a shit. I'm approaching Mahfudz.
"Darling, I called you you didn't pick up. I brought this!"
I showed you a big food box filled with grilled rice. I did deliberately make a lot so that he could share for his friends.
Mahfudz looked at me. Can't say anything. Why Mr Doctor? Are you surprised to see me?
"Sir, please eat it! Divided by!" I said let the nurses and friends of Mahfudz take it.
"Is this really true, Doc?" ask one of the nurses. "The doctor is very kind!"
Some of Mahfudz's koas friends wondered who I was at senior level.
"Lady Doctor, Sp.OG of the obgyn department. I used to be in rotation to the internal medicine department and was a nurse at obgyn. Doctor forgot? It was a long time ago, at that time the Raya doctor was still resident. It was a few years ago" said one of the nurses who seemed to be my age.
I remember again.
"I used to be a nurse's assistant to Dr. Samuel. Remember?"said.
I recall. Dr. Samuel was my guidance physician when I was a resident physician a few years ago.
"Oh, my goodness. Brother Hannum?"
"Yes, donk. You are already a specialist. Forget, forget, or pretend to forget the same as us who are just nurses all this time."
"Yes, oh, no. The problem was that the brother was not wearing a headscarf. That's why I was pangling. I used to be confused too. Hannum suddenly quit his job. Never seen again in obgyn. The same thing as dr. Samuel. He said marriage" I said.
"Yes. I quit my job after marriage. Because I have a child right away. Because my son can already be left I submit another application here, continue to be accepted deh. It was in the Nervous Department and then it was rotated here. You are married too. I wasn't invited."he said.
"Wow, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, brother! If I knew for sure, Brother Hannum, I'd invite a donk. Didn't you invite Hannum, honey?" ask me about Mahfudz.
She seems embarrassed every time I call her baby. Face blushed. I'm laughing in my heart. You really want me to call you, don't you? You will be filled with the call of love, love, love and affection.
"I'm not all un-dang all wak-tu i-tu. In ka-mar a-ja ma-sih ba-nyak un-da-ngan ko-song that be-lum sem-pat me bar" he said
"Oh, he said he didn't have time to give his invitation, Brother! He's been a little busy since this koas in your interna. Sorry yes" I said.
"But I don't know Ray, if you like bronies" he said teasing me. What it means must be about the sweet brondong, Mahfudz.
I'm just laughing.
"His soul mate, brother!" answer me."Btw, I can ask for donk's HP number, who knows we can gigakkik kayak first again huddle dr. Samuel" I said.
I had an idea asking for her number. Who knows, Hannum can be corrected by his information about 3 nurses named Rini who served in the internal medicine department.
Hannum gave me her phone number.
"Btw, I can borrow my husband for a minute, right? There's something I want to talk about."I said look at them. With a clear face of course.
"Oh, definitely donk, Doc!"answer them. "Fud, sana!"
"Come, who!"take me.
Mahfudz looked heavy-hearted rising from his seat.
"This new bride! Don't delay having a baby. Soon, yeah! Remember age!" said Brother Hannum.
Me and Brother Hannum are only 3 years old. He's older than me. And now it seems to be quite big.
I laugh. "Yes in the process" I replied which made them laugh.
Mahfudz. His face looks blushing. Shame huh?
I walked side by side with Mahfudz. She's quiet. I didn't ask or say anything to him.
I pulled his hand which he had put into his pants pocket. I put that hand on my shoulder so that he was in a position to embrace me. Next to my hand hugged his waist. He glanced right-left at the people watching us. Mahfudz wanted to release his arm around my shoulder. But I don't give a shit. I insisted on putting his hand on my shoulder.
"Darling ... "call me.
"Ra-yah. Ma-lu ... " whispered Mahfudz.
I stopped my steps for a moment.
"Why should I be ashamed? You husband. Not the husband of the man!"I said indifferently.
"Darling!" call me.
We are still holding hands in the corridors of this hospital. And there are many people who are watching. I don't care about any of that anymore. I want to show my husband and everyone that I love him. I don't want her to doubt my love anymore just because I'm less expressive about showing it. My heart ached when Mahfudz accused me of still having feelings for Ali.
"Honey, I love you"
my spoken.
Mahfudz. Didn't expect me to say that in public like this.
"Darling, why didn't you answer? You didn't hear me? Less loud huh?"
Mahfudz glared at me. I told you I don't care. I've been trying to thicken my face today.
"Myyaaang!!! I love ..."
Mahfudz smothered my mouth. Now he's taking me away as soon as possible. He took me to my room in the polyclinic.
"Ke-na-pa ka-mu la-ku-kan i-tu?"ask her with sign language after we were in my room.
Mahfudz sat in the bed of the patient. While I drag my chair and face him. His position is higher than my seat.
"Because I love you. I don't want you to doubt my feelings for you! In the heart of this Kingdom there is only Mahfudz" I said, flicking it.
"Ta-pi i-ni ru-mah sa-kit, Ray. Ka-mu ha-rus pro-ves-sio-nal. Ka-mu ti-dak ma-lu se-per-ti i-tu ta-di? Cih, ka-nak-ka-na-kan ..." by the way.
"Boyouthing? So you're not so childish? You're leaving home. Don't pick up my phone either. My chat is also not reciprocated. What's his name if it's not childish?" my nag.
For a moment we looked at each other.
"That's why I came to you straight to the hospital. I'd like to say I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I want you to go home, Fud. Uh, sorry not Fud. I want you to go home, baby, I miss you"
He looked at me deeply. It was like looking for honesty in my eyes.
"really. I love you, Fud! About dr. Ali I called you dear in front of her not because I wanted to make her jealous. I just wanted to let her know that I'm happy with my life with you as my life's champion. I don't want him to interfere with our lives anymore."
Mahfudz still doesn't answer me.
"On our first experience. I'm being honest too"
I stopped saying it for a moment. He waited for my next words.
"Our first experience. I'm quite enjoying your moments of foreplay" until there my face feels hot. I'm ashamed to say it. But I have to be honest to let her anger subside.
"Just .... I'm scared when you want penetration. That's why it happened like that. So it wasn't a bad first experience. You've done your best. I am overreacting. I'm sorry and I'm sorry, baby ...."
"La-lu?" tanyakanya. His cold face had turned gleeful now.
"Then, what else?" I said confused. "I want you to go home" I said.
"I ta-kut pu-lang to ru-mah. A-ku ta-kut de-kat-de-kat pa-da-mu te-rus covets you la-gi, and ka-mu ra-sa se-per-ti ku per-ko-sa. Pu-sing Ray, ka-lau has-rat le-la-ki ti-dak bi-sa in-sa-lur-kan. Le-bih ba-ik a-ku is wasting in-ri at ru-mah sa-kit sa-ja" he said.
I let out a breath. I've been thinking about this from yesterday.
"Go home. I will not reject you again. I will learn to face it and give myself completely to you" I said sure.
"Be-nar-kah?" That face looks so happy.
Mahfudz is just a normal guy. She was so happy to hear my willingness to relate like a couple with her.
I'm nodding. "Ummik said, angels will curse and curse me all night if I dare to reject my husband. I don't want to, Fud. I want to be a good wife to you"
"Nan-ti a-ku di-tam-par la-gi ...." Mahfudz pretended to be in pain while stroking his cheek.
I stood up and looked at his cheeks. I stroked her delicate cheek.
"What pain? Really hurt when I hit it yesterday? I'm sorry, baby" I said sorry.
He chuckled then smiled with his typical smile.
"Sa-kit bu-kan di-si-tu. Ta-pi in si-ni"
Mahfudz grabbed my hand and placed it on his chest.
We looked at each other for a long time. And I can guess the ending is that Mahfudz will kiss me again soon to see his face close to my lips. Gawk. It's a hospital. But if it's just a kiss with my husband in my own room once, is it okay donk?
All might end romantically if Winda does not suddenly come open the door.
"Astagfirullah, I'm sorry, Doctor!" She turned her body and closed the door again.
I'm no less surprised than Mahfudz.
"Se-ba-ik his a-ku per-gi sa-ja. Nan-ti ka-lau ka-mu su-dah se-le-sai ker-ja, hu-bu-ngi a-ku ki-ta pu-lang sa-ma-sa-ma"
A sweet kiss stuck to my lips in place of a romantic kiss that didn't happen just now.
Mahfudz opened the door and went out. When he passed Winda in front of the door he was seen scratching his head. While Winda just smiles and now goes inside.
"Geez, the newlyweds if you want romantic-romantic can be everywhere, to not remember the place" he said.
"Sorry, Win" I said embarrassedly.
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Pov Mahfudz
Raya and I went home together tonight with our motorbikes. But along the way, I always keep an eye on him so that the distance of our bike is not too far apart. Almost 11 nights, we finally got home.
Ummik looks happy to see us go home together. More and more his smile when he heard the only princess called me with a call of love.
"Darling, I took a shower first!" Raya went into the room.
I'm nodding.
"Have you eaten, Fud?" ask Ummik.
"Su-dah, Mik" I replied. "Mah-fudz to ka-mar du-lu, Mik. Ma-u is-ti-ra-hat se-ben-tar." my lie.
Of course I'm going to the room not to rest. I want to collect the promise of Raya who said she wants to give her whole life to me.
I patiently waited for my bidadah to finish the bath. I was planning on taking a shower after her. But I changed my mind when I saw her come out of the bathroom with a towel. I noticed she was heading to the closet picking out the lingerie she was going to wear to please me in bed.
I immediately stood up and approached him. I hugged the wet body wrapped in that towel.
"You don't-you don't fuckin' needin' i-tu, Ray. Nan-ti ka-mu ju-ga a-kan man-di la-gi" I said.
Raya nodded in shame. Her face flushed red as I kissed her shoulders and neck in front of the mirror
I immediately carried the body to bed. Tonight prove that you have truly given up your heart and your whole self for me, Ray!